Besides my mom ive never been shown a single fucking shred of human empathy, everyone sees me as a fucking disgusting autist freak. I cant even remember the last time i didnt want to off myself. The only person i could even consider a "friend" is dying of lung cancer half the country away. I joined the marines because they told me someone would actually give a shit about me, yet all anyone does is insult me and call me a bitch for being sad all the time. I have no future, i graduated highschool with a 2.0 gpa and missed pretty much every credit i would need to actually do somethingThe only reason im not dead is im too much of a pussy to pull the trigger
>>84210037I'm an autistic retarted freak too let's be friends
>>84210086im an enby faggot you probably wouldnt like me
>>84210086wait nevermind i need this please
>>84210324I was gonna reply I'm taking a shit send your contactfag
>>84210037>. I joined the marines because they told me someone would actually give a shit about me, yet all anyone does is insult me and call me a bitch for being sad all the time.anon that kind of place is harsh on even the average non sensitive person
>>84210343Anon should have went navy
>>84210343i was desperate and also i got rejected from mcdonalds 3 times
>>84210332i dont know that that means
>>84210360Your discord
>>84210353the navy recruiter lady was mean to me
>>84210366thatfreezerguy
You should have joined the army, joining the marines is cringe. You just have to learn to survive the negative thoughts ofc I am retarded too but I have escaped wanting to kms. I take medication though. idk something changed and I no longer want to kms, I had anger issues I'm getting over. I am a religiouscel now, I returned to it, so I have no friends since everyone is wicked or too righteous. Enjoying the Iran drama, how could you being a marine be such a bitch when ww3 is always happening?
>>84210381i was told my mos doesnt see combat
>>84210385well at least you contribute like an ant in a colony to victory, what a good feeling it must be to be a part of something and to have the title of marine.
>>84210401i guess it does feel a little better when you say it like that
Why dislike yourself when you can dislike others?Get a hobbyWatch comedy like stand up comedy and laugh moreLearn skills that everyone needs, IT stuff comes to mindAnd the big one is exercise and be fitDon't take bad behaviors of others and point it to yourself, if people are bad then they are bad and you should be the best as possible so one day you can over take them in life.Some people do things for themselves others do things for revenge type stuff.We dont know what comes next, considering everything, staying here is better.
>>84210412yes what more do you want you've accomplished more than a lot of people already.
>>84210443i still feel empty and like im seen as an objectalso people are still mean to me
>>84210439i do art and programming but it feels like a waste because nobody cares about my work and nobody wants to hire meill try the rest thank you
>>84210037Despite everything, you are more deserving of life than the people who run this shithole of a society.
one billion dead moids
that is just the enemy
Reading this threadI see "seen as an object", "people are still mean to me", "I feel empty", people dont care about your hobbies.If other people have a bad effect on you, then stay away from them. Just socialize in the most minimal way possible if you have to in case you have to speak to them.Better to focus this energy to other stuff you got going on like programming. And I want to clarify, I didnt mean skills everyone needs for job, I meant just generally everyone needs in modern life.Art and programming thats a nice double skill you got. Art for general creativity and imagination and programming for technical skills.What kind of stuff have you worked. I primarily use Javascript, I like p2p stuff so I use p2p libraries for peer to peer websites. What kind of stuff you do with programming?
>>84210037Have you watched Attack on Titan?
>>84210037Do you actually have access to killing yourself? If so, nothing should stop you.
>>84211996I have a rope
>>84210928I tried just not talking to people but my brain keeps forcing me toi mostly contribute to FOSS shit
Suicide is a bad gamble. We don't know the true nature of life and death. There might be hell, non-existence, reincarnating into the same life in some way (the universe repeating itself), into a different (worse life).The reasonable wager is to try to live as good of a life as possible for as long a possible, because you don't know what else you'll get after.Also honestly, if you have a mom, suicide would be very bad for her, it's an important consideration if you love your mom.I think you're wasting your life by being suicidal. Find something else to do. Hustle, grind, shill, do mischief, help people, whatever. Doing things makes people happier.
>>84210037You will need to put effort into finding a group with nice people. Like you can look for communities that are usually more inclusive. Sure, some of them may come with other bullshit, but the nicer people are usually there. But hey, you're a marine! That is still some achievement. Don't be so hard on yourself.
>>84210037>everyone sees me as a fucking disgusting autist freakHave you tried going to conventions to make friends?
>>84210037>I joined the marines because they told me someone would actually give a shit about me, yet all anyone does is insult me and call me a bitch for being sad all the timeShould've picked chair force
>>84213110>The reasonable wager is to try to live as good of a life as possible for as long a possibledamn, why didnt us ropecels think of that. simply try to enjoy life!
>>84213332you think someone will give you a medal for being a TRVE miserymaxxed hopelesscel? either fix your shit or suffer. that's how it is, and it's not my fault.
>>84213347how do i fix being an unlikeable autist
>>84213370try not being a cunt, that's a good start
>>84213130Im at 29 palms there's no communities here
>>84213405but im not i try to be as nice as humanly possible to everyone
>>84210942no not really i remember seeing an episode on toonami once but thats it
