Someday I WILL be loved.
>>84211929Good for you, anon. Make sure to fuck her in the ass afterwards.
>>84211929You sound like a deluded simp over a 5/10.
>>84211752anon... you know this was 100% written by a male... right? And it never happened...
>>84212225He doesn't care because men who are into that kind of thing are functionally homosexual anyway.
I can't stop thinking about the anon who managed to date an asian otaku girl after an anime event which made the two go get along. Why does God hate me so much? Why does God hate me so much? Why does God hate me so much? Why does God hate me so much? Why does God hate me so much? I can't accept the life which was given to me.
>>84211752Yes, you WILL anon>>84212163Not just yours, she also belongs to God anonDon't forget that, her body is not yours to desecrate, there is a more sacred relationship to her creator, you would do well to honor it
>>84212322God doesn't hate you anon, He loves you very much (assuming you're White)You must accept your life, as it was given to youOnly then can you move to change it, in accordance with His plan
>>84212651>assuming you're WhiteI'm mixed.
>>84211752fuck off bruh its not fucking real it was a fucking man who posted the original greentext it was not a real woman
>>84211752yeah crying in front of a woman instantly makes her dry and unattracted to you. it gives her little boy vibes and makes her feel unsafe since you easily break down.
Gave a friend a small gift because her birthday is next week. Received a three paragraph text the next day that I was inappropriate and should respect her boundaries.
>>84212655ah then yes, god doesnt love you.
>>84212678>ah then yes, god doesnt love youWhat should I do now? This isn't fair.
>>84212655You are not a mere product of the circumstances of your birthSo long as you hold to the values of White culture and cleanse your bloodline by being with a White, you'll be okay and live a righteous life
>>84211752Why is everyone ITT convinced this was written by a man other than no girls on the internet?
>>84212760because its clearly a guy's fantasy, no mentally sane woman can see her boyfriend cry into her arms and not get the ick immediately. its literally inbuilt in her to get the ick because of hundreds of thousands of years of evolution
>>84212739Thank you for the kind words, anon. I'm still a khhv weirdo though, so it will be hard to cleanse my bloodline.
>>84212739does this apply to those people who are not white at all too instead of being 50% white
>>84211752A man wrote this obviously. Pretty fucking gay wanting to kiss another dude ngl>>84212760How would you react if your bf started breaking down like a little bitch and sobbing and shit? If the nigga wants to cry he has his momma or his friends or he can do it in private on the toilet, no need to be showing your girl that shit and eventually getting cucked for it. Catharsis do feel good but watching her suck on another nigga's hog later don't feel so good huh
>>84212836You're a KHHVRIGHT NOWYou don't have to continue to beI'm a KV (volcel)Racial (ancestral) and bloodline (descendant) purity is second to spiritual puritySeek Christ, the rest will come, but if it does not, you will be in a better way regardless>>84212850>>Does this apply to those people who are not white at all too instead of being 50% whiteNoStick to your ownObviously emulating White culture is best for you personally, but you must operate within your circumstancesSeek Christ, redeem your heart, but trying to mix with Whites is to the detriment of both parties
>>84212967im still going to fuck a white girl tho mb bro
>>84212979LolIf shes willing, then I'll leave the mudshark to her fate
>>84212322Stop liking anime, it's off putting and has made you gay.
>>84212875Can you please not write like a nigger?
>>84212967According to the anons who believe that if you ask Christ to save you in a prayer, it will make you a christian already even if you're a non-believer, I'm supposedly already a christian now. Let's see what destiny holds for me.>>84213022I kinda made it part of my personality, I already thought about stopping but it's hard for me to find something that I can like as much as it.
>>84213020im brown not black
>>84213059Same anon bubbaThats good, but I want to encourage youPrayer doesn't save you, prayer is an action and we know there is nothing we can do to earn Heaven. Rather, we are saved by grace. Not even faith, but grace. But thats not an excuse to lapse in faith or action. True faith moves a man to change, if you believe Christ is who He says He is, and you want to be more like Him, then that should motivate you to live differently.Being Christian is a life long process of striving to be a reflection of a perfection we can never reach, because it was shown to us by a man that could reach it.
>>84213067Scam brown or border brown?
>>84213141scam brown (win)
>>84212760women will be revolted seeing their man do that. its basic biology. cant even blame the foids on it they dont have control over their reactions
>>84213150No worries then, it won't be a problem
>>84213167it wont be a problem as in with me fucking a white girl or something else?
>>84213132>Rather, we are saved by graceBut would this grace save a person who didn't go after it through an action?>if you believe Christ is who He says He isI believe that he was real, but I would be lying if I said that I believe in the God who is presented to us through the Bible... I prayed because I wanted to be on the safe side, just in case.One example of the type of people which I mentioned in my previous post was this anon: https://archive.4plebs.org/x/thread/42074741/#42074741
>>84211752Men are miserable inside. They can't cry before their girl because they're afraid she would get the ick and leave him.
>>84212646>Yes, you WILL anonThanks for trusting in me man.>>84213236It's over for the emotional men.
>>84213462I advise you to get good at sucking dick. You're probably gay already surely it can't be that hard just don't put teeth in it and you'll be good enough
>>84212082He never even met Maria
>>84213563I'm not gay. What I want to suck is a girl's nipples and her clit.
>>84212322Which post was that?
>>84213655>Which post was that?If you felt like asking that, you probably were the one who made the post.
>>84213719No I just like reading stories that might upset me
>>84213746Okay, this was the thread >>84198211
>>84213615I'm telling you nigga you don't have a choice in the matter. Learn to suck dick. Some femboys are close enough to female to not matter and if it's in the dark you can pretend it's a girl with a very large clit you're sucking on. No woman on this earth will just tolerate you crying like a bitch without immediately thinking of cucking you. That kind of thing was with your mother but you're in the real world now and no one will EVER care about you like your parents did, assuming they gave a shit in the first place (mine didn't).
>>84213214No man knows the bounds of God's grace, so I'd be lying if i I said I know for certain. But if you're just using Pascal's wager, I don't imagine thats what He's after. After all, the verse says if you confess with your mouth, and believe in your heart, you will be saved. He wants your heart, not your words, not your actions. But by giving Him your heart, you in turn change your actions and words to suit the new identity you belong to.>>84213445Correct, nothing you said here is wrongBut you were made to complete each other, and live in accordance with His will, which supersedes the stake you hold over each other.>>84213462No problem anon, hold fast and don't be dismayed by doubt. I believe there was someone designed to love you, perfectly in all the ways you need, before you were even born.
>>84213615Don't listen to >>84213904 anon. Evidently, he has issues he's projecting onto you. Don't look for love in the embrace of a man, you will find shame and guilt. You know you were designed to complete a womanNow go and find her, and be the man she deserves
>>84213755I missed the update, glad it went so well for himReminds me of the time I went on 2 dates with a woman and finally became merely KVAlso did a lot of cutesy stuff, also was very vulnerable with herEven kind of similar physical storiesThen she abruptly ended it and started dating her beaner friend she had told me not to worry about... my own damn fault, should've seen it coming
the hookerpill has saved me from much of this sticky sick puppy lovey dovey kind of affection anons here and the younger me yearned for
>>84214243Y'knowI still think about her sometimes, even though it was about 8 months ago. She spoke so delicately to me, said she appreciated that I had never been in a relationship or even romantic with someone.I still run through the date in my head sometimes. I have the dashcam recording of us talking. Can't bring myself to delete it.I vividly remember every sensation, every goosebump, every time she shifted her hand in mine. Its torture, honestly.I hope that anon never knows thisBut I'll trust in God, still
>>84212678Ew a mormon. God loves non whites the most. He still loves you but he's kinda just gonna let you die as a failed experiment.
>>84211752Fembots, how would you react if your bf cried like that? Would you get the ick or would you genuinely appreciate it?
>>84214305Stated preference: It'd be good, they're human beings after allRevealed preference: Chad doesn't cry or need to be comforted, I feel more emotionally protected with him
>>84214302He loves us all equally. The importance of race is for our own matters, not His
>>84214305By "boys" i think they mean Chico Lachowski (top 0.001%+ facial attractiveness + 6'4), not your average oofydoofy future incel.is regular. Don't be delusional if you do this shit as a sub8 it's legitimately over. Keep the emotional shit to yourself or open the relationship and watch her get piped by another guy but stop the copium.
>>84214305I feel a special kind of disgust for weak little mememe men like this. You would not survive war or if society falls and things get actually hard.
>>84213956>No problem anon, hold fast and don't be dismayed by doubt. I believe there was someone designed to love you, perfectly in all the ways you need, before you were even born.I believe there's someone out there for me too. >>84213966>You know you were designed to complete a womanSurely>Now go and find her, and be the man she deservesI'll try to do that. Long way to go. >>84214243>>84214280I'm sorry it ended that way. Still, despite everything, you made some good memories.
>>84213956Not even I myself have power over my own heart, anon. I wish I could just press a button and believe in anything heartfully.>>84214243>>84214280Reading those type of stories have been having a bigger effect on me lately for some reason, maybe I'm more sensible than the normal these days. I never had the chance to experience something like that and it really makes me sad, although you just had a taste of what a relationship would be like.
>>84214581>>made some good memoriesMaybe they are "good" in some sense, but as of now, I can't appreciate them solely as such. They're mired in the context of the end of my first "relationship" and in unfavorable terms. Hopefully I will move on, I am attempting to shift focus unto the Lord, who will not let me down
>>84211752Jesus that is cringe. People are so fucking weak these days all you'd need to do is drop the weakest of predators in and you'd have a massacre.
>>84212760Because a women conception of love is more complex than this by several orders of magnitude. If it's some tiny spark, moments that seem to belong more to VN CGIs than any actual actions or situations, it's a man writing them
>>84214964Probably because I'm male-brained but isn't this amount of love enough? In other words, how the women conception of love look like?
>>84214713>>Not even I myself have power over my own heart, anon. I wish I could just press a button and believe in anything heartfully.But you do anon. Whether you believe so or not, every man is responsible for his soul. Think about your revealed hierarchy. What do you spend time doing, talking and thinking about? Thats what you value and what you're allowing to ensnare your heart.The question is very simple. Not do you want to go to Heaven, thats given. The question is do you want what Jesus offers? Not do you 100% believe in Him, not will you go church. If we assumed the Bible to be true, would you want what he offers? To be loved unconditionally? To be forgiven for the things you can't forgive yourself for? To be loved, so much, that He sent his Son to be born a man, live perfectly, and die the most horrible death possible anyway, just to give you this choice? Because He seriously, loves you. Wholely as you are. He designed you, knew your quirks even before your parents did. And He loves you knowing what would you do, He loved when you were doing it, and He loves just as much after you did it. He doesn't ask if you deserve it, he just asks if you want what hes offering. He just wants you say you believe He loves you, as He says He does. Do you want that?
Forgot I was in here.>>84212810>its literally inbuilt in her to get the ick because of hundreds of thousands of years of evolutionWhat the fuck are you talking about? I wonder who lives longer and has more offspring, Grog who starts slamming rocks into his head because the trauma of killing Big Sabertooth in front of its babies is getting to him with no way to express it or Grad who is comforted by his mate, peers, and children to whom he can pass on stories of the hunt?>>84212875Comfort him like I literally always have and do to anyone crying? If my boyfriend hears from his mother that she found his teenage sister hanging in her room and he cries to me in grief over it, was I supposed to start talking about how men having feelings gives me the ick and go fuck someone else? The fuck? We stayed together for years and his sister and female bff both had tribute tables to her memory at their weddings with candles, pictures, and books to sign with messages about how they missed her. What world do you live in where a man crying to someone who loves him makes her immediately leave him? If anything it made me wet.>>84213154Where are you people hearing this shit? Is this some tall tale you tell each other? Frankly it sounds like you are trying to prevent each other from getting female attention. You want the boys to be bitchless so they never leave you or something?>>84214964What further complexity do they require? The caveat here seems to be that they just do not want this to happen literally all the time. Stoicism is something men value except when a woman is falling apart herself and wants a supportive partner, just like men do. Nobody should be crying alone on the toilet. I worry about you guys. What has happened in your lives where you think this deprivation and suffering is how men are supposed to live?
>>84215095>Do you want that?Obviously. I can't think about a single person who would say no to this question. I just have to wish to be loved by him, is that what you mean?
>>84214713>>Reading those type of stories have been having a bigger effect on me lately for some reason, maybe I'm more sensible than the normal these days. I never had the chance to experience something like that and it really makes me sad, although you just had a taste of what a relationship would be like.I wanted it all throughout high school, really badly. Got that opportunity between sophomore and junior year of college. Its the happiest I've been in a long time, and every day. Maybe its good that I don't have any memories of it slowly souring. Only lasted a month, but July of 25 was a highlight of otherwise sad life.
>>84214713I remember picking her up in my car, she was dressed in these well fitting but nice jeans and a red top that exposed her back and shoulders. I was flabbergasted and stumbled over my words as I walked her to the car and opened her door. When I got in, she complimented my car which meant a lot as she knew I was a huge car guy and it took a lot of time for me to get it. She said she had never been in a sports car, but she was excited. And the devilish little grin she had is seared into my memory. I played the Spotify playlist she had shared with me me days prior, she was surprised I paid such attention. Said I was the healthiest guy she'd ever been with, that I'd be be good for her. Should've been a red flag. We chatted about music on the way to the restauraunt, had dinner, and walked to the movie theater to watch F1 (absolute kino btw). Watching the movie I had autistic commentary about the realism and she actually listened. For the rest of my days, I'll remember spending the first half of the movie inching my arm toward hers. Then, about halfway through, Brad Pitt fucks some roastie, and she looped her arm in mine and grabbed my bicep. I thought, 1. Oh my god, she wasn't lying, shes actually attracted to ME. 2. I've never felt more masculine and like a man. And 3. God, this feels good. She stayed that way for the rest of the film, giving me squeezes when I whispered to her.
>>84214713After walking out of the theater I said "I guess I should take you home now?" She said "Don't have to..." so we walked around the city center. And held hands. For 3 more hours. Just going in a circle, maybe half a mile long. Talked about life and family. Eventually it grew dark and we walked back to the car, when I got in we carried on a serious conversation, thats where my dashcam recording picks up. I opened up the car on the way home and she was smiling wildly as the wind whipped her blonde hair into my face. By the time we got to her house, it was 30 to midnight. But she sat in my car till the hour came. We talked about Taylor Swift and she scratched the back of my neck. Get goosbumps still just thinking about it. The way she looked at me as I melted beneath her finger tips... eventually I held her other hand in mine. Fingertips dancing across each other. I told her it felt like her hand was shaped for my hand, my fingers fit so perfectly into the space between hers. And when midnight came, I walked her to the door and gave her a hug. I was giddy on the drive home, couldn't stop smiling like a doofus. The day after she texted me that she wished had kissed me in the park. I said I had thought about it too, but was scared as it'd have been my first. She promised later then. It never came. Sometimes I think it never will. Maybe this stupid little month long fling is all I'll get in this life. I'll try to be content if it is, theres a plan. But its hard to trust in it. I just want to be loved, to feel seen. I must look for it again in my Father in Heaven. He will be there when I come calling.
>>84215201If you want that, if you want Him, will you believe He is who he says He is? Are you willing to submit to the book he ordained as good?
>>84215460I want to have hope that I will get to know this feeling one day but I know that it's unlikely.>>84215462>>84215468I'm certain that it must've been incredible. If I become a wizard, I will just give up and get into tulpamancy, I will end my loneliness using my own brain. I probably won't mind becoming a schizo at such point.>>84215481 >will you believe He is who he says He is?I can't say for sure because I still have doubts about Yahweh's existance, all I can say is that I wish He's who He says He is.>Are you willing to submit to the book he ordained as good?Yes, I've even read some books of the Bible before.
>>84216014>I want to have hope that I will get to know this feeling one day but I know that it's unlikely.I feel the same.
>>84216014>>it's unlikelyDon't worry about that bubba. You're doing alright. Everything works on His timing, not ours.>>I will just give upNever give up. Ever. Not an option. Gotta be a man anon.>>I wish He's who He says He is.Get to know him. Read his Word. When you understand Him, look for Him. Talk to Him, pray. Might not be convincing but many catholic saints believed it possible to be certain of God's existence. Aquinas had his proofs, for example. If you read, find Him and pray, and want more, then try a church, or if thats a big step, a house meeting, often life groups, are a good thing. They even often cater to specific groups, be it singles, young men, or men in general. Ultimately, if you have a natural curiosity, follow it. If He's real, the answers will naturally lead you to Him. They did for me after I reconverted.
>>84216043Don't be discouraged anon. Yes I got to experience a taste, a free demo like the XBox 360 games I used to play. But the goal remains the same. Keep looking forward, remain hopeful. You will find a girl anon. You will feel loved by her and give love to her. You will get married and start a life together anon! Its possible, its within your grasp. Make it so.
>>84211752Tranny fanfic nonsense. if you did that to an actual woman, she would cheat on your ass the very next day.
Unrel atpI've had a recurring dream for the last 3 yearsIts early dawn, the sky is beginning to change color but theres no light yet. I'm sipping coffee and reading my phone in the kitchen, the blinds are open and its peaceful. And you know how in a dream, you sometimes just know things? Even if it doesn't make sense or its not real, you just know it. Well my wife (who does not exist) walks in, pours her cup (its out and waiting, filled with the correct amount of creamer) and sits in my lap. Not a word is said and I can't remember her face. But I remember the smile on my face, it only felt embarassing when I woke up. But then theres pitter patter down the stairs and a little girl, my daughter, prances in. She says "daddy I want to be on your lap too" and I pick her up and put her on my other knee. And I remember thinking, all 3 times, the entire world is in my hands. And for as long as either dream lasts, I sit there, observing, silently. Trying to remember everything I can because I don't think any of it will ever be real for me
>>84216546One I had in high school a couple times>>Wake up, golden sunrise. Light streams through half closed blinds. Theres a woman next to me, still asleep, peacefully. And I spend minutes, studying this woman. I listen to her breath, watch her chest rise and fall, feel the little tug of the blanket. I watch the early sunlight dance on her hair. I feel the warmth of her skin next to mine. I smell last night's shampoo and taste the morning coffee in the air. I memorize every sensation, every visual, every sound. I'm aware its a dream, so I know this might be the only time. She looks different every time, different hair, different races, and I never see her face. But the feelings are always the same. And I always wake up wishing I didn't. If only this time I had stayed asleep.
