I hate my life and i wish i were deadwhy don't miserablle people like me get terminal diseases or happy little accidents. Why do i gotta stay miserable? Maybe i should just jump into oncoming traffic or soemthing
>>84237188you're a greater source of loosh kept alive and suffering for as long as possible
>>84237201This, what makes you think you're gonna get off early?
>>84237188Be patient, you'll die eventualy
>>84237188Tell me how miserable you are.
>>84237207i don't want to live that long while being miserable>>84237211very. I was this close to dumping a bottle full of pills down my throat today
>>84237221>veryI want to know the things that make your life bad.>a bottle full of pillsPills of what med?
>>84237221>very. I was this close to dumping a bottle full of pills down my throat todayWhy would you choose such a painful and nauseating way to die? Doesn't even work most of the time.If I die, it will be from jumping in front a subway car or from a very high height onto concrete. I don't want any chance I'll survive and be a fucked up cripple, gnomewhatimsaying?
>>84237228>I want to know the things that make your life bad.I am an extremely social person with 0 social skills or friends or people that care about me in general. I am completely alonecan't even do anything about it because i can't hold a conversation and everyone starts hating me eventually. >Pills of what med?bupropion>>84237232such options are not available to me
>>84237237>such options are not available to meYou don't live within a train ride of a major city or have access to gravity?
>>84237241there are no metros in my country and there's no access to rooves
>>84237237>bupropionThat's won't do the job, all it will do is induce vomit and give you seizures and a very nasty trip to the hospital/psych ward. I'm speaking from experience in this particular example.Nah, what you want is maybe 50 maximum strength OTC Tylenol combined with as much alcohol you can down, but make sure you don't vomit. I'm not exaggerating with 50 btw, don't underestimate the perverse resilience of you body. When something's alive, it doesn't die easily. You have to burn every last cinder.
>>84237237I just ate a bag of sweet potatoes, I have a tank full of BRAPapion for you nigga
>>84237251there's no way i won't puke. I puke from 3 shots of jagermeister
>>84237251nta but wouldn't that be a painful way to go
>>84237232Speaking of, how would you get roof access to these buildings?I was wondering about ways to do this and the only thing that came to mind is trying to talk to the building managers and showing a photographer's profile, saying that's me and I need to take some shots while having a camera equipment setup
>>84237288You really can't find a building to jump from? I can name like 8 in my city.The simplest I can think of is booking an airbnb in a 15th story apartment with balcony access and there you go, death.
>>84237291Huh, I might be retarded. Didn't think of booking/renting - I just zeroe'd in on the roof because I wanted to get a running start or splat on the road so I don't hit pedestrians.
>>84237237>buproprionAntidepressants are purposely engineered to be nearly impossible to overdose on, which makes sense since the people who take them are usually suicidal.
because you're too busy surviving
>>84237188Samethere's a bridge near my place about 160ft high, sometimes I think about jumping off it but I'm not even sure it'd kill me
>>84237188>>84237221please dont kill yourself...things might change if you give them time, buddyi know its hard to stomach so much misery, but i believe you still have happiness to look forward toyoure stronger than you realize
>>84237237you might still find someone that vibes with youplease dont give up, you never know when that person will enter your life
>>84237633I want encouragements too pls
>>84237651Talk more about yourself first then
>>84237651are you?:>>84237481hang in there anon, ive been miserable and suicidal a bunch before but things always always change eventuallyyou never know when something small will give you a smile or make you laugh
>>84237188Why did you delete your thread on int, OP?
>>84238076i didn't. tranny janny did>>84237636doubtful>>84237633i think i've given enough time for things to change
>>84237481i don't have such luxuries unfortunately
>>84237188IKR. I had heart palpitations for a few years in my early thirties. I was so disappointed when they cleared up on their own.My folks died in their fifties, and I fucking hope the same happens for me, as this miserable fucking existence AND old age, is just hell times ten.I have wanted to die in my sleep for many years. I don't want a long drawn out death.
>>84237188Every time I hear about someone's death on the news I envy the people who died.A woman burnt to death? lucky bitch, she doesn't have to deal with the world's bullshit anymoreA bunch of kindergarten age children died because the building they were in collapsed? lucky shitheads, they never had to grow up and realize how badly adulthood sucks.why can't it happen to me? I'd gladly die in place of someone else and yet I'm the one surviving despite wanting to die the most, it's fucking unfairmaybe god should give ME cancer instead of giving it to little kids, but he won't because he's a prick that takes joy out of human suffering.
>>84238697Yeah. Only happy people die. Miserable people have to live and suffer
>>84237188i feel like the universe cursed me in the worst ways possible. i was born with a very low IQ and im also unfortunately ugly. i was doomed the moment i was born and i feel the only escape to this less than living existence is to perish. i don't feel like im capable enough to turn this hopeless situation around. i can't describe this existence as anything other than truly cursed
>>84239551>i was born with a very low IQHow much?
>>84237188>I wish I had a terminal illnessI wish fucking died before ever learning I was born so wrong. Do you think us born sick deserve it? That some sort of moral failing is what causes disease? Do you really wish for such a thing? Would you know what trading places would even fucking feel like? Jump into oncoming traffic if you please, if the guilt of ruining someone elses day doesnt consume you Leave the sick out of it
>>84240825i just wanna die man