My parents robbed me of everything that makes life worth living by forcing me to take an antidepressant when I was a minor. Since I stopped taking it I havent been able to get any pleasure out of life, cant get an erection, I have no libido, I have lost some of my cognitive abilities and I cant sleep normally anymore. Life is a nightmare now and all that fucked up most of the few relationships I had in life.They don't have a shred of remorse. They're truly evil people. They like to act as if nothing happened and try to psychologically manipulate me. It's as if they were secretly delighted to have chemically castrated their son.I can only ask this here even though this board is mostly bots now, If you were in my situation, what would you do to set the score? Would you? I obviously could never murder my parents but I seek some kind of revenge.
>>84254087Your parents might've been part of a cult and were forced to do this shit.
>>84254087 You should instead forgive your trespasses and forgive those that trespass against you. It can be hard, but it is not destructive
Castration sounds like freedom based on all these pornsick incels, so probably go thank them
>>84255283It's hard to believe since we're on r9k but I am not an incel. Lust is very important vital energy and life feels a bit pointless without it, it's not simply about something like lusting over women.>>84254247Sounds like christian bs, but it's still probably wiser than taking revenge on idiots like my parents in the end. since they're idiots, it wouldn't be very meaningful, and it's not like it would change much in the end
>>84254087I would try to sue the drug company, and shift the blame from my parents to the multi billion dollar trans national corporation
>>84254087nigga fuck your dad and mom, you need to go to a doctor and talk about this and ask how tf do you fix this shit and make yourself normal again
>>84254096I considered this, but I ended up to the conclusion they're just fools and gave me these pills thinking they were magic happy pills without side effects.>>84255884Would do that if that was possible, unfortunately it's impossible to proof I have all these side effects as it's not like a broken leg. Obviously it's jew pharma's fault in the end, insane these drugs even exist in this world and are so normalized, but jew pharma and prozac are impossible to win against in court, many people with the same condition have tried before and it's pointless. It's a shitty unfair world.>>84255908Look up pssd it's incurable. literally life ruined forever over some fucking meds I've been given years ago.
>>84255929You are giving up without even trying and then blaming your parents.I am revoking my sympathy
>>84255929>Look up pssd it's incurable.damn man i'm reading about this and this is fucked this might be a retarded thing to say but could hopping back on antidepressants "heal" this?
>>84255937If you had to live like I had to live for years you would start blaming your parents and this world too. I haven't given up, in fact I tried a shit load of things from exercice to supps for many months, seen multiple doctors that said it's all in my head, didn't believe me or just prescribed goymeds that doesn't work.
>>84255959The first step would be getting a Diagnosis. A doctor telling you that you have what you say you have.That doctor might also offer a prognosis. A prediction of what will happen if this condition isn't dealt withAnd after you have a Diagnosis, you can start working on treatment.You mention many people have the same condition. They might recommend doctors who are sympathetic, who offer the diagnosis they've been wanting.
>>84255929If they were genuniely misguided and thought they were doing what was best for you then I wouldnt seek revenge against them personally. In that case the blame is with the medical establishment I wouldnt necissarily forgive your parents tho, since you said they show no remorse, that is justifiable to hate them.
>>84255954Some people get better after reinstatement and another slow taper, some get destroyed even more by that, it's a 50/50 gamble I'm not ready to take yet. This shit annihilated me and I'm scared to worsen my situation, I am planning on microdosing psychedelics first, actually will start that next week>>84255991Unfortunately it's not disney world, a real diagnosis/prognosis wouldn't help here as the condition is mildly rare and misunderstood. And all that is also expensive. The damage these drugs have had on me is beyond what you're probably imagine. And remember I got all these severe side efects from "treatement" in the first place, so I don't trust most doctors. As for what would happen if this condition isn't dealt with, well if anything some people "heal" (just improve, never get back to normal) with the time, but that takes around 15 years. I wish this was an exaggeration
>>84255991If its fixable then a diagnosis is useful.If its not fixable then a diagnosis is just telling the corporations responsible for your medical treatment that you are impotent for it to go on your palantir permenant record and then anyone palantir share or sell that data to.
>>84256039also this might be another retarded question but is your libido and ed stuff just for sex irl or can you not jerk off at home too
Is it bad that I'm genuinely considering taking antidepressants? My libido is fucked up, I jerk off 4 times a day despite being a wizard.
>>84256039>>84256044It sounds like you are giving up without really trying, and rationalizing it.I don't know you or your life, but your defeatism isn't helping you
>>84254087>forcing meI am willing to bet you were insufferable as a child.I can tell by how insufferable you sound in your post. Go back on your meds.
>>84255929The Bible is just the most refined self help book out there, take it or leave it
>>84254096Stop humanizing them, death is preferable to that unless you're demented.
>>84256091I've never had sex with a woman unfortunately, depressing to think that I will never know what it's like to make love to a woman you love. I had to cut links with a girl I "fell in love with" in 2025 as it was pointless (I can't really feel love too). I just woke up from a dream an hour ago where I was flirting with a woman I knew 7 years ago, my subconscious also has fun torturing me. As for your question I can ejaculate after 10 minutes and not only will I feel nothing as the cum comes out, but the process is also tiring as I'm not turned on at any moment. Not even 5% turned on. So the process is a chore instead of being something that's supposed to give you pleasure. I still do it since masturbation is healthy but it's a humiliation ritual.>>84256112Don't do it really, if my story doesn't scare you then I don't know what will. If you want to get hornier look into supps like maca and red ginseng. These may or may not work (didn't for me) but at least you can be sure they don't have important side effects
>>84256126I was a sad loser in school and I never once got referred to the therapist, let alone offered antidepressants. OP must've been in some serious shit to even get the opportunity to take antidepressants.And now that he's off them, he's describing textbook major depression symptoms.
>>84256153browsing r9k is probably a sin, why are you here
>>84256188Do you think Jesus Christ actively avoided Prostitutes, Lepers and Tax Collectors?That he avoided association with sinners and outcasts of society?
>>84256188I enjoy my pain i guess. Maybe tomorrow morning I wont let myself repeat the same pattern of coming here first thing in the morning, maybe
>>84256192>faggette with a baguette lol
>>84256196>>84256192that's a good point, my body is here but God is still here for everyone who listens
>>84256172I'm getting quite close to suicidal ideation, antidepressants seem like a huge gamble for me since it'll either put me at ease for one, or push me past the point of no return. Scary tbhdesuHad friends recommend for and against them.
>>84254247You are a fuckin loser. Don't ever fucking forget that
>>84256234You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives. Genesis 50:20
Classic christcuck mentality
>>84256186They hand out meds like candy in my country.>>84256218Well, they may help with your depression but they will also take away all other feelings, basically they blunt your emotions so that you're not depressed anymore. If that's what you want and would rather be anhedonic (and likely more side effects than that) for the rest of your life than depressed, than go for it I guess. In my humble opinion before that you ought to help yourself with the usual normalfag advice (exercice, eat healthy, etc) or else do ket/lsd/shrooms (Psychedelics are the cure for depression, ((they)) don't want you to know this since they make so much money off antidepressants)
>>84254087Put them back in a shitty nursing home
>>84254087Have they explained why they put you on antidepressants?That's really unfortunate anon. Children shouldn't be given harmful drugs like that. The pharmaceutical industry is so corrupt they want to pump children with drugs just to make a profit.
>>84254087>My parents robbed me of everything that makes life worth living by forcing me to take an antidepressant when I was a minor.were you like a little kid or were you like 15+. because if your brain was fully formed then you're just being forced to accept what sober life is like. this is why i voluntarily said to a psych i specifically wanted to try an SSRI for what i describe as "OCD" (idk what's wrong with me exactly because it's not like typical OCD), and i find it helpful. the SSRI affects my dick, but it's unpredictable and i can still masturbate and have sex when i want to.if your parents gave you lead ions in your food or water and brain damage from lead poisoning that would be one thing. but this is stupid OP. talk to more people about their experiences with drugs and sobriety. you don't get how things are.
>>84255954i take an SSRI and a bunch of recreational drugs and i think this PSSD thing is bullshit and these people are just retarded.
>>84257431i think a lot of ssri induced anhedonia is just you losing any drive in life. if you don't have a libido don't feel anxiety or discomfort you become a stationary NPC without a reason for existing.
>>84257459This is me; but yeah same thing happened to me OP.I don't know the time of the events in question, how long it's been, etc., but I can assure you of one minor detail due to heavy in-depth knowledge of neuroscience: neuroplasticity doesn't just stop. Up-regulation, down-regulation, etc. You can still get better, you just have to work towards it. You seem to have the motivation to at least still feel spite, so channel that appropriately and work towards recovery.
>>84254087My parents ruined my life by poisoning me and depriving me of nutrients too. Unfortunately they've done so much damage to my life that I have to depend on them to stay alive, so revenge would be suicide
>>84257417"OCD" and they thought I was depressed (While I was not, at least not enough to be taking medication. I was always just the solitary type). Even younger I didn't like the idea of having to take meds and managed to pretend to take them for a while until they psyop'd me into taking thinking the medication's effect was gonna be magical. I'd tell them I was worried about side effects and they'd say they don't really exist. Understand, I had to do it to make my mom happy, make the doctors happy, I had to believe in them. I wanted to be a nice boy and ended up trusting them instead of my gut feelings. See what happens when you are too kind, you get eaten by this devilish world.>>8425742015+.>specifically wanted to try an SSRI for what i describe as "OCD">i find it helpfulI don't understand how ruining the greatest gift nature has given you, namely, your brain chemistry, could possibly be good for you. But you do you>>84257431Obviously someone who has never been through this hell would think that, ssris are a not only devilish and useless, but also a cruel lottery.
Btw feel free to save this and repost, it's my doctor calling me a liar about the side effects. Hope this makes at least one anon realize you can't trust most doctors.
>>84257459Very accurate description unfortunately. When you get this condition you are quite literally not the same person you used to be. Your personality completely leaves you and you often have to pretend to be who you used to be. >>84257507Some anon told me he fixed himself in 2 years of daily exercice, daily or semi daily masturbation and microdosing shrooms. I've done months of daily exercice and dieting without seeing any improvement for pssd. I wanna believe you but it seems to me most people don't recover. >same thing happened to meHow do you cope? Do you still do the things you enjoyed before your life fell apart? It all seems meaningless now
>>84258442>daily or semi daily masturbationstop itjerking off is very bad for you
>>84258504That's nofap retard propaganda anon, masturbation is healthy. Not only it has various natural benefits, but also your penis will shrink if you don't use it for too long. It's jewish porn of various kind (for example lots of the degenerate fetishes you see normalized by posters on this board) that is very bad for you.
>>84258564they are both badyou body recycles itself every day. you are throwing away energy, resources and emotions every time you masturbateit is just another drug
I quit antidepressants no matter how shitty my life was. Seeing this post glad I didIs there anything in life that makes you happy? If there is its the light at the end of the tunnel for you fren
>>84258948Listening to and discovering music is still something I somewhat enjoy sometimes, but I would be lying if I said it brings me much pleasure or stirs any profound feelings in me nowadays. I stopped creating music and playing my instrument a while ago, it's hard not to feel like it's all meaningless now...>I quit antidepressants no matter how shitty my life wasGood on you anon
>>84255283You have to eat all the eggs, bitch.
>>84255937He's literally trying every second of his life. Don't be a catholic npc.
>>84254087It's not your parents' fault. Look to the doctors and medical industrial complex.
>>84254087Don't let it live rent free Don't forget either though - bad people, they are dead to you.Don't let it live rent free.
I won't let it live rent free, I'll continue to try to live how I can. Though, it's been incredibly hard lately. I guess I expected things to improve naturally after all this time... Glad at least some anons here understand me. Cheers
>>84254087>what would you do to set the score? Would you?If I were to seek revenge, I would completely cut off contact with them and the rest of my family forever.
