One time before being sent to a psych ward i started having derealization. I felt like no one was real, nothing was real and like things were happening based on how much attention i would give my surroundings, and there were these beings outside this fake realm that were coaching me out, they were telling me that you can basically glitch reality by putting your attention at another location so that the other location renders and the location where you're at will render with like less potency. I managed to do it and then everything became more obviously unreal, i was in a hospital at the time in like a holding cell for like dangerous patients or something because i was locked in there, and the people outside were like talking gibberish with occasional important words being thrown in like "bla bla bla HUNGRY bla bla bla"it was really weird they were like muppets. i felt like all intelligent beings had ascended out of this realm like thousands or maybe millions of years ago and i was one of if not the only person still in this thing, i felt so alone and scared.anyone else experience this?
>>84268554I felt this way when I was around 6-8 years old, I genuinely felt so alone in the universe I would spent hours laying on my bed, peering at the ceiling from behind my eyes. I was trapped in a void within my mind, using my corneas like this little window into this gross reality. Its been a decade or two since then and I have yet to replicate such a feeling but randomly everything becomes super far away, the sharpness of my vision is increased ten fold, and my hearing becomes echoey. This lasts for around a week, maximum a month or two, but it honestly feels pretty sublime.My girlfriend doesn't like it because I just stop caring about everything and started acting upon my whims more than I usually do, for almost 25 days in my senior year I was scared because everybody sounded kinda like you described, all I heard was "aaaaaaaaaa grades aaaaaaaa application aaaaaaa dinner? aaaaaaaaaaa listening?" this constant droning persisted no matter who I was talking to, during this time I spent like 5 hours a day just walking around the city staring at people
>>84268920>My girlfriendit's time for you to leave.
>>84268920did the world sometimes look like it was painted, kind of fluid like when you drop paint into water. sometimes it looked like that really artificial and unignorable, it's kind of disgusting too.i want to get out of here and see what is out there if this isn't real.
>>84268920way to dramatize a laughably common experience retard.
>>84268554I don't get it.Like I can always rationalize my way out of itIf reality isn't real, what is?Dreams aren't realTV shows, movies, video games, books, they're not realCyberspace isn't realso meatspace is the most real thing we can experience compared to everything else.
>>84268554>i think, therefore i amThat is the one foundational truth anon. If you are doubting what is real and if youre even real. There must be something that is doing the doubting. No matter what, if you think, you are.
>>84268554This happened to me a few years ago during a very stressful period. I left my apartment to get some air, and suddenly everything felt like it wasn't real and kinda like I was phasing back and forth through time.I was driving a few days ago (it's been another stressful period) and suddenly the sky split into two - one part was grey and cloudy and the other was dark blue with half a giant moon.I stopped the car at a gas station, and it just felt like the people inside weren't real. The things they were saying didn't make sense, their clothing didn't make sense, and the way they looked at me was as if they were staring directly into my soul or something.Maybe it's more of a psychosis on my part, but I feel ya on the "nothing feels real" part, fren.
>>84271667to me they didn't seem like they were staring at anything, they felt like when you look at fish in the eyes, they felt like muppets.one time i was watching a documentary on aquatic creatures while on acid and i got really creeped out by how simple eels looked, they look so disgustingly simple that they almost seemed fake, like hand puppets with like a weird blank fish stare, that's how people looked to me like they had blank fish stares or teddy bear eyes, they weren't looking at me, they weren't seeing anything they were like puppets and everything was some kind of play, and the creepiest part of all was that it felt like what was controlling the puppets didn't want me to notice that everything was fake, but for my own good, like they were trying to desperately get my attention with food and kind jesters (at the hospital) in order to protect me from the miserable reality of everything not being real and something else going on behind the scenes. it was creepy dude.
>>84271837That sounds incredibly fucky anon, and also really fucking scary and stressful. Would've made me really freaked out. I ofc freaked out a bit from my derealization/psychosis episodes, but what you described sounds really scary. I'm sorry anon, have you gotten any actual help / advice / whatever from someone, or do they just admit you until it passes? Mental health "professionals" can be extremely hit or miss.
>>84271995i wound up being hospitalized immediately after that and i had all sorts of delusions and one of them was that if i socialized too much at the psyche ward the FBI or CIA or some government agents were gonna accuse me of faking my mental state so they let me go since i was pretending everything was fine. in the psych ward a couple weird coincidences happened that freaked me out but i got over it.i haven't had that feeling that everything is fake and i haven't communicated with the entities that were trying to guide me out. i got medication for schizophrenia, but it gave me diabetes which is annoying because now i'm a lard ass.
>>84272044Man that fucking sucks, especially the diabetes part. You'd think they'd come up with better meds.Did it at least help you not have any more "episodes" like this?
>>84268554Experienced it a couple months in during a major depressive episode.It was weird to say the least. Like everything is as it should be, but everything isnt at the same time. Like I had phase shifted and was out of phase with the world around me. Everything felt very distant and close at the same time. Kinda like having a awake fever dream but without the fever hallucination. Went away after a few weeks. I was lucky because when I experienced it, I knew exactly what it was because I was very well read on the symptoms of a severe major depressive episode at that point, but it was still very jarring.
Yeah, that's similar to what happens to me before I end up in the psych ward.One time I actually ate the dessicant packet because of that comic that says it was the key to exiting the matrix.
>>84272129yeah the medication works, some anons have actually recommended two substitute medications that don't give you diabetes, so i'm trying to get my medication changed.
>>84272144did you shit it out or what happened, that's crazy.
>>84271837Hello fellow schizo. There are definitely entities that can mind control us and the people around us. My voices tell me this is punishment for past life sins. Just throwing that out there.
i used to get derealization when i was driving, only when driving. i would suddenly feel out of my body observing myself or something like that, its a weird feeling to describe. it would send me into half a panic attack but i forced myself to concentrate driving so i didnt get in an accident. it hasnt happened in a long time. i dont know why it happened when driving, maybe because driving puts me into a strange mental state to begin with like a highway hypnosis type of thing. You kind of just blank out and dont exactly remember how you got to where youre going, its like a robotic thing. When they are designing long stretches of highway they purposefully put unnecessary turns in it to keep you focused because a lot of people blank out and get into accidents if theyre going too straight for too long
>>84272222i don't believe past life stuff, i don't like it it doesn't make sense to me.
>>84272192That's good at least. I hope you can get ahold of some non-diabetes meds, wtf.Stay safe out there, anon.
>>84272244i can't drive, but driving seems scary. >>84272255thanks anon you too.
>>84272221Dunno. Never looked at my poop that closely desu.
>>84272253They can also make things appear and disappear out of reality I shit you not
>>84268554Yeah, a lot of the time. Sometimes its so bad I cant really feel my body or move it or see
>>84272293like game devs spawning items.
I've had dpdr for years. Unfortunately I don't have schizophrenia to match it
>>84272371Trust me, that's not unfortunate. You don't want schizophrenia
>>84272396My life is boring as fuck. I'm just floating thru. Not attached. At least being schizo would bring some excitement
>>84272417Not really.It's just a cycle of getting lost in your own world of non-existent things, convinced there's excitement happening that involves you but you're not invited to, then you try and get involved in the excitement and end up in the psych ward, usually after ruining any relationships you may try to build. In the psych ward they forcefully inject you with drugs that you refuse to take, then you realise none of it was real.
>>84272441Oh. I was just thinking I wanna pretend I'm an angel
