i have done SO MANY HUMILIATING THINGSand it's because im BIPOLAR and IT.......HURTS...........
Work on being less bipolar then instead of using that label as an excuse.
>>84329019Bipolar type 1 or 2?
Try being autistic and realizing all the things you did that did that was cringe because of your autism when you finally develop self and social awareness.
>>84329065bipolar 1 probably.....but i dont really get that many dramatic mood swings anymore, i have skepticism about the whole psychiatric diagnostics stuff. But lets just say i act out of enthusiasm sometimes, but the things i do are not Good afterwards.....when i realize holy shit, i shouldnt have done that. I once went downtown and shouted the n-word at everyone and filmed it, uploaded it to my social media account.........And well.....I deleted everything afterward.....Im a mentally ill fuck, ive done so many crazy things.......yeah no, i take it back, bipolar is real and i may in fact have it. Ive made a fat fuck on omegle cum when i was dancing and showing my ass to him
Wait until you get older and stop giving a shit entirely.>t. been in and out of psych wards for nearly 15 years, also have bipolar
>>84329774no you're just in a no-give-a-shit state of mind and you may have found peace for a temporary set of time, but eventually you're going to have the regretful thoughts about past memories-phase again....being bipolar opens you up to all kinds of different states of mind, indifference, depression, happiness and ecstatic bliss, psychosis, crying, rapid talking, creativity, psychopathy and narcisissm, all sorts of things... you're just in the indifferent zone now.
>>84329019i have done so many humiliating things and it's because i'm autistic and schizophrenic and it sucks.
>>84329897I've felt pure, ecstatic joy when I was manic. I've had psychosis. My episodes have gone longer than 7 months so I know what you're talking about. Were there times where I regretted a few things I did, however? Perhaps it was the complete erosion of the relationships with my family and what little friendships I had. Who knows. Either way, I'm just an observer now.
>>84329722Yeah that's type 1NTA but I have 2 or 3 and most of the stuff I do when hypomanic is basically what normies do when they're very buzzed (think drunk texting a friend how much you love them, or impulse buying something non-essential when you're trying to be responsible with money), it's low inhib but not THAT low inhib
>>84329998well... it makes for a very interesting life, i might say.I do try to calm down through mediation, and religious practice. i will soon talk to a psychologist or therapist too. Ive managed to live without medications for over a year now, no dramatic mood swings, some here and there. It seems like i've been calming down a bit and i can focus more on productive stuff nowadays...living on NEETbux currently but managed to study up my GED grades a bit. almost done with that.it's weird being bipolar, previously i was a pretty calm and introverted child, with good grades in school, and very high inhib. Naturally i am very high inhib, most of the time i am, but if i get into a manic state, that changes dramatically ofc.how the fugg is this not an original post mods
>>84329056that's what i do now. Taking practical actions instead of ruminating on past experiences and traumatic feelings, actually helps with mood stability.....It's the lack of activity, and routine that keeps me in the ruminating state which gives rise to dramatic emotional states
