I've pretty much thought about it every single day since I was 10 and learned what suicide meant. Not on some faggot edgelord shit but Ive thought about it everyday since then. Obviously I could an hero whenever I want (pic rel) but its not that I want to. I just think about it everyday, and honestly it gives me a bit of relief "well if it gets worse enough i'll do it"
almost everyday since i was a kid, and i don't think i would be able to hold back if i had access to that
>>84336235I guess maybe youd be surprised, maybe you wont. it just felt kinda like a sense of relief. I always had the way out and no one could take it from me. oddly a sense of security
suicide? not with one of them there queer plastic guns, boy
>>84336246>I guess maybe youd be surprisedi wouldn't, i know how impulsive i am
>>84336252why dont you buy one then? its not like they cost much
>Basically every day since age 11>In mid-20s go on a stimulant bender that lasts nearly 2 years, the period of my life where I genuinely didn't want to die>Have to quit stims because psychotic break at the very end and I know it's gonna kill me if I keep it up>Urge to an hero returns Well fuck, it's either I relapse on the speed and die of a heart attack before 30 (but at least I'll be doing what I love) or live another 50 or so years totally anhedonic and wishing to die every day. Life's just a bitch like that.
>>84336227>GlockFUCKING FAAAAAAGGGGGG
>>84336265my uncle died of a heart attack. moms dad and uncle are bald. I know its coming for me.>>84336274better?
>>843362851911 is eh too, why no browning high power
>>84336292not one of the guns I want to buy. have always wanted a maxim 9 though. call me a faggot all you want but its always reminded me of the gun from psychopass
>>84336294psychopass is a very sick animu, also, my suicide gun is a S&W 627, so my choice is better than yours
>>84336227Don't let the evil sick fucks get to you. Look at all the bait in your pic. They are touching their axe holes to your post right now, knowing they got to you.
>>84336299if I were to go revolver Id want to blow my melon with a colt python personally. Ive always loved the revolver and therefore think it would be cool to pass on one that has for sure killed someone.
>>84336304>colt pythonblack ops, half life, or a movie from the 90s?
>>84336308probably black ops zombies though I have shot the revolver irl just never ended up buying one.
>>84336316>zombieskino der toten was well, kinowell anon, if you do kill yourself, at least do it with a python. that's really all I can say to another /k/ommando, or just wait for when shit hits the fan and you can use your gun skills for the greater good (Or evil, up to you)
>>84336327I dont plan on an heroing. I just find a certain comfort in knowing I could realistically anytime if I truly wanted to. Which brings me a certain level of peace. Sure I could use any other number of ways to achieve it and even after showing off my hand guns I'd still probably use my Citadel Boss 25 with a slug if I ever decided. But realistically I will be a quiet gun owner who you will never hear from again. Either that or I lose it, or the world ends and who cares what you do then.
>>84336338>or the world ends and who cares what you do thenShit imagine that, no more shit, just patrolling on a dirt roads past mountains and valleys with nothing but your rifle and ruckhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NxV7C6NELqA
>>84336376thank you for the song friend I liked it. added it to my liked songs. if im alive at the end of the world I hope to ride my bike (klr650) but ya know either way I guess
>>84336227the thoughts got a lot less after i stopped having to interact with normies but ever so often the isolation will get me
yeah i couldn't do it with a glock desu, you can survive getting shot in the head and screw yourself permanentlyexplosives are the way to go with this in minecraft
>>84336227I decided not to kill myself when I was like 22. I think about it, of course. But even the worst of the worst of trauma didn't make me to even prepare for it. I always cared about my health except for smoking and I think I'll be fine with my survival instincts. I have a friend who's fake suicidal. He says that he's saying that he'll kill himself but doesn't actually mean it. I don't get it, if I wanted, I would. I didn't even tell that guy what troubles me, he'd probably think that I should have already been dead. All he has to worry about is clinical depression.
>>84336227often enough that i don't trust myself to keep a gun in the drawer
