i doubt anyone will come in but im lonely tonight
ive lost weight (74kgs now woo) and ive gotten over my crush because i did something awful and heinous.
i smoke almost a pack a day now too

ahhh so much has happened it's hard to say anything. i havent been going to the gym and ive just been walking around all day smoking most days like a retard

>>84351736
what awful things did you do? if you dont mind sharing. otherwise, what flavor/brand ciggies? im in the same ballpark, but for me its like 1 and a half vape pens a week. i like the sweetness and small calm it provides :3

got off weed tho so thats... something at least. i dont miss it desu, i did every once in a while think "god i want to be not sober (past nic)" but when i indulged in liquor it was just fucking awful and i never want to touch that again either.
p1honeposting cus im gna bathe so the trip might be fifferent (do not be alarmed child....)

>>84351774
ive wrecked my relative and her partners relationship majorly, and i wont say much beyond that
>otherwise, what flavor/brand ciggies?
double happiness chinese ciggies :] theyre my favourite, i was smoking homegrown rollies but got into these again so ive been downing them.
what flavour vape? ive been using this grape one occasionally and its pretty nice tbdesu but vaping is more expensive than smoking in this country.
weed sucks. liquor sucks too. good youve quit that but don't end up trying other stuff cause you want highs either (its all bad)
enjoy your bath semmies :]

>>84351774
Sems types kind of cute here

>>84351858
sems always types cute imo

>>84351813
>ive wrecked my relative and her partners relationship majorly, and i wont say much beyond that
jeez, i'd imagine that feels quite rough if you indeed caused it. you should take some time to self reflect on your behaviors that would lead to such a thing and try to think of ways to modify them.
>double happiness chinese ciggies
what the fuck is that O_o''
>homegrown rollies
i've heard that's a really cheap way to smoke, my moms friend growing up had her own machine to do it because she chainsmoked so much lawl
>what flavour vape
strawberry ice. sometimes grape but i dont care for grape as much. i like peach and pear the most but these are cheap. how much is vaping there ? it's 15-20$ on the cheap end here and 25-40$ on the retarded end
>enjoy your bath semmies :]
wasn't really a bath, idk T_T'' to be honest, i've become addicted to boiling myself. i can't shower on anything other than the highest heat my shower allows or it's "cold", so when i'm not really cleaning myself and just doing it out of comfort i just lay there until my tummy/legs are lobster color. i've always showered on the hotter end, but after i got gastric paresis out of nowhere i do it on the highest heat possible when my tummy slightly hurts or if i feel meh, or even just showering normally.

i call it lobsterfication.

(weird tip, boiling myself got rid of the color of my stretchmarks ? xD, unintended side effect but whatevs)

>>84351882
my friends mom* not my moms friend

woops

>>84351882
Nevermind, vaping is a nigger activity. It is really retarded and niggery.

>>84351891
>Nevermind
nevermind what? i didn't say anything not mentioned in my first post. are you retarded or blind? ToT

>>84351882
i guess its not all my fault, their relationship was already awful and i kinda made things worse by offering my support to the partner and asking him the hard questions. but its still his decisions...
>what the fuck is that O_o
brand of cigarettes, theyre nice and taste kinda like golden syrup sometimes
>her own machine to do it because she chainsmoked so much lawl
rolling machine? i had one of those at one point but its too dodgy.
strawberry ice is nice, ive tried that before. didnt know they had pear flavour tbdesu im really curious about that
>how much is vaping there ?
vapes are like, $80-$200 aud but thats cause its illegal. so cheap there, lucky...
you must have really tough skin cause that sounds like itd hurt a lot. also, gastric paresis, did you get checked for diabetes? cause i know thats a cause.
id try that lobsterfication to get rid of my stretch marks but my skins not tough enough unfortunately

>>84351891
youre lame

>>84351968
> by offering my support to the partner and asking him the hard questions. but its still his decisions...
oh
that's not really terrible? at all lawl
>brand of cigarettes, theyre nice and taste kinda like golden syrup sometimes
yuuum..........., but only sometimes? what else do they taste like? (other than tobacco)
>but thats cause its illegal
wtf, why? lmao ToT
>you must have really tough skin cause that sounds like itd hurt a lot.
not really, but maybe. it's probably mostly conditioning myself to that level, when i first did it a lot for a while (due to sickness) an entire layer of skin came off it felt, my entire body was peely and achey from it xD
>gastric paresis, did you get checked for diabetes?
no beetus, i've always had slow bowels but i was probably just overconsuming reaaally bad stuff (too much grease? i have no clue) along with my lifelong drug abuse probably just sent my guts over the edge, i havent abused much of anything heavy, but it seems enough to make my organs go "wtf". i eat lighter regardless nowadays, i can still eat a lot of greasy food, but sometimes just eating simple food was enough to make me puke/nauseous
idk. my guts are fucked, they've pinpointed no cause despite all the testing so drugs and overconsuming fats through butter/grease is my personal theory as to why that happened.
as to what drugs i've consumed, it's mostly been just whatever i could get my hands on. i think my few experiences with too much kratom and my many experiences with too much alcohol probably did the most damage in regards to that?

idk. my bodies fucked regardless lol
>id try that lobsterfication to get rid of my stretch marks but my skins not tough enough unfortunately
i'd just try raising the heat a bit enough to not burn but enough to turn your skin reddish, maybe? ^^'' idk lolol, that would probably work. or you can condition yourself into hotter and hotter showers. idk
idek if hotter showers are good past that, don't think they are, idc xD