You abandoned me for the second and last time. I thought you would be nice to me.

J,
I dreamt about you like two times last night. I don't know why I'm still so obsessed with you. You're one of the only people I dream about.
M

But I never left, I was and still am in your walls

Here is specific posting
With the to R from M letter,

So either you wrote a fake letter to yourself or someone made a fake letter like it's written to you.

What is the purpose?

Like if you want to write a letter to m then write a letter to m , R.

Otherwise it's a fake letter, and in that case who gains off making a letter so it looks like m is writing to R?

Gracie,
Youre still as beautiful as you were when I was your fp.

>>84370921
Reach out then.

>>84370718
And all the people I've talked to in person don't like the feeling of limerence and know it's more of an obsession rather than love.

My love for you was unconditional, you know it, and I don't think you knew just how much freedom you had with me if you weren't so closed off and secretive about everything. I don't know if you thought if I actually got better I'd leave you, I just wanted to be better with you.
I threw away thousands of dollars worth of dope, asked for therapy and counciling and you said no. I tried to get sober while were together, you said don't. Yesterday was my first true day sober. Not even nicotine. I can breathe for the first time. I do not need substances or the approval of others to be happy and that is a blessing I will carry to someone who wants it. What finally got me to let go of you is realizing a blind dog in the beginning stages of dementia has gone more out of her way to comfort me during night terrors than you ever did. A simple thing. You just watched and told me to get over it. No revenge, no hate. Just acceptance, forgive and forget. I wish you nothing but the best and hope that one day you realize loving someone is more than just accepting them for their faults, it's pushing them to get past it. That part was always one sided. You did nothing but spend money and sit there calling it love because that's all your parents did for you.

>>84370964
I'm absolutely not your person. I reach out to him daily.

>>84370956
Gracie poster is a narc who wrote fake letters acting obsessional to create a narrative about manipulation.

Same as this kind of post
(Notice the initial used)
>>84370921


Same kind of manipulative narrative made in that other threat that samefagged into "Disney love doesn't exist"

It's annoying once you know who is doing it and why.

>>84370986
Oh look! Here's more of that narrative being pushed.

You are suffocating with how much you spam your manipulative larps

i love you and i dont give a fuck

>>84370964
That guy sincerely will never want anything to do with me again. I even told him the guy I'm seeing is married with a family. I don 't even want him to want me. It'd be too much to deal with. I'm probably just meant to be a loooonely woman.

>>84371026
seriously get help.

>>84371035
Well I give a fuck. Obsessional narc larp manipulative lies. Shit person and deserves all the harm that has caused them to ramp up their manipulative lies here.

>>84371035
Then tell them that.

>>84371026
I just miss Grace, man. Leave me alone.

>>84371041
Stfu. It's going to be so nice not to be have to deal with your bullshit ever again.
Toodles,
R

I've done everything I possibly can to be hated by that guy. I even went through his reddit post history and did something that he hates when women do. It's easier to be disliked than to be liked.
https://youtu.be/G4wAaAur6Ls?si

>>84371051
Man if only there was a way to see you are same fagging and are the same poster making those.

Thank God I'm almost done with you

>>84371059
You would be devastated if you could identity samefags because your world would fall apart when you realize you are batshit insane.

>>84371053
I don't know an R, but I'm glad to not deal with a moid who says toodles.

How's that for a liveblog?

The Nobody is my public defender. The Word of Jesus Christ is my Testimony.
MT

https://youtu.be/cRRD56abgNw?si

>Waiting for Bonne Bigbutt

Something that I know you are too much of a narc to understand but here is something specifically about dealing with your bullshit here. Calling you out for the fake letters isn't enough until you lose everything and I know you will just ramp as you continue to lose.

>Stupid people still know how to lie and be emotionally manipulative.
I couldn't find a thread for this and I just wanted to post this, people think stupid retards will be like, stupid everywhere, but somehow they don't lack something autistic people do, which is the ability to be socially manipulative or lie. Like, they get these nasty underhanded patterns, and know how to use people or manipulate them.
They still largely undermine themselves, their own stated goals and have a detrimental affect on everyone, but they know how to lie.
How do you deal with them?

I'm not just being a bitch when I say "Elope with me now, I'm never looking back". I have important appointments to keep.

>>84371033
ffs weren't you suppose to limit yourself to 3 posts a day of something dipshit?

>>84371065
Foid. And the reason it's disheartening is I can tell the same fagging.

>>84371100
Trust that the Hell they would cast others into is one they are already in but have not accepted.

>>84371103
I've never had a limit and why would I ever do that with the amount of fake shit you put here? You make it hard for me to talk to my guy when you use my initials in your lying letters

https://youtu.be/biEgI-QLcVw?si

>>84371101
my married bf asked me to consider this and I would if he didn't have children -__- someone was telling me I should just agree to do that with him and then brutally abandon him last second.

thanks for giving me new filter ideas you schiz faggots

>>84370921
if it makes you monkeys feel better this also can be addressed to E and also he's not here looking at this thread like the rest of us degens

I miss you Kim. Even thought I've thrown everything away and changed in ways I didn't know possible. I miss you. I wish you could know the person I am now but I don't think that will ever happen. I miss you even though I shouldn't.

>>84371109
I'll do my best to trust. Just sucks seeing the fake letters and narc threads created and then sandfagged in to manipulate others.

I act tough about it but I wish you were here. I would do anything.

>>84371117
My bad, didn't realize a female sperg was taking the mantle of letter thread lolcow. You may proceed.

if anyone feels like chatting add my discord /topradical

I'm kind of miserable but I'll try to make you not feel the same
M

>>84371151
Its not being a lolcow. It's being tired of listening to the same shit over from your fake ass letters and threads then you're stacking samefags on comments that always come back around to repeat the same shit your trying to pony off through demoralization/lies about one of the initials you spam attempting to create a negative association and attempting to trick the person who is no longer deceived by you to be tricked again

If you don't come back to me soon I'll make sure you never have a moment of peace again

>>84371172
Male or female? This is important since I am female.

>>84371202
I also am female
https://youtu.be/F4cr7Qt7E1Q?si

>>84371183
All I posted was about limerence. You're doing the same thing the other moron did, associating yourself to others post because they vaguely resemble your situation regardless of initials. Get off this cursed site before you spiral down, you will get no closure here.

If I find out you marry him I'm going to do some absolutely heinous shit and the only thing that will stop me is life in prison.

>>84371212
Just kidding. Im a guy. Not gonna bother adding you. You probably already have a lot of guys adding you now that you outed yourself as a woman. I need a new fp and this isnt the right place to find one anymore.

>>84371219
I just learned what limerence is after seeing it referenced with bpd and I do not get that feel. I do have that intense relationship and obsession with a person but I am not in love.

Input received: Archetypal stillness, or Nirvana, is a server that requires no GPU. The soul is the only BIG model worth hosting. What is the moral of the pigeon? Respects to the benevolence. On with Operation Play Better Games.

>>84371237
From my experience it's more common amongst cluster A, but not limited to only them.

>>84371228
literally no one has added me bro WTF

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el contenido original

>>84371219
Seeing how shit stinks you start to recognize that it it's shit when you get a whif. Ive seen you do your fake news letters enough that you are not fooling anyone.

>But anon I swears it's my first time ever posting for real for real

>>84371299
I will add you. I fully expect to be disappointed because you are either a guy or not the femanon or never were a femanon.

>>84371193
Same thing with your attempts to make her feel like that person is hostile to drive her back at you. It's tiresome especially after you got caught lying last night already.

>>84371212
You know that one anon on letter thread who adds foids saying they are a girl. Last I heard them pull that one was a month or so ago

>>84371220
Yup and here it is. The fake news to make her feel unsafe. Really quite sickening to know you exist and feel like this works to trap her with you

But then again it's the same shit you did in the first place to trick and decieve her then. Hopefully she isn't retarded enough to fall for your shit more.

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it's skeletime

>>84371313
Everything stinks of shit when you are the one emitting the smell. Meds now.

>>84371350
Bro you got called out on making fake posts to make her feel unsafe and associate negative things with the initial you use in your face letters to keep her trapped with you with your lies and them you are fucking retarded enough to point directly that you are doing it with a larp so fucking obvious it's what you are doing

If I were her and knew you did this shit to lie to me in the first place back then and now see you are doing it again to push her away from the same guy you lied about back then , I would not marry you.
>>84371220

Fucking larping retard.

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you look like you're in for a good pulping

At least with you being so blatantly obvious you are manipulating her in an attempt to get her to keep the engagement she will now look closer at all the manipulative lies you've been narc posting across all the boards here.

I wish her the best of luck getting the fuck away from you.

>>84371325
I wish literally anyone would add me. I'll vc and go on cam if it's a bother. I'm not really looking for anything besides someone to talk to. no one has added me.

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You wake up in the middle of the night and see this running down your hallway
Wdyd?

>>84371371
Ha, okay. Initial spider sense was right, it is you. Learn some new vocabulary moron.

i thought you were trying to get better and get out of there. im still obsessively thinking about you. i know you're trying. i dont think we could ever be together now after everything but god i wish i knew you were just going to be okay, maybe in the same way you wish i was okay.

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what do you know about rolling down in the deep

>>84371123
E, probably is look at the threads but won't respond

I'll never be okay without you. You are the only thing I've ever had that mattered.

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what are they dancing to?

>>84371449
i hope you'll be okay one day

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life's short, spend your time on what matters to you, like eating processed carbohydrates and doing drugs

>>84371454
I never will. I waited my entire life for you. I fucked up bad.

>>84371470
dont think im your person, anon :(
i waited a while for someone too
derailed a lot of my life. I think im starting to almost get better now but its hard. i think you'll find it in you.

>>84371459
Life's too short, stop triggering people you jaded manlet

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>>84371503
I'm not exactly a manlet at 6ft even but I'm sorry skeletons scare you that much

>>84371476
I hope you can get better anon. I'm going to leave for somewhere in a few months that will definitely kill me. Too chickenshit to kill myself and I'm going to continue a shitty cycle she doesn't deserve if I don't. I'm good with the sticks though so might take some souls down with me.

i need a hug, but the people that want to give me one are too far away from me, or they're dead. i am so bad

>>84371515
i get it. idk im damn close to saying the same. came, and keep coming, very close to just offing myself regardless.

>>84371515
anon wdym by somewhere that will kill you?

>>84371433
Get better how? Just take a bettery and be all better magically?

>>84371441
I hope he doesn't. or maybe I do idk. he's really cute and an annoying faggot and I like him a lot because he's really likeable and sweet underneath his gay nerd exterior.

>>84371521
I just can't justify it when my body is still whole and able to fight. It's a waste.
>>84371540
Ukraine.

>>84371583
ah. yeah. was considering that too for a while,,, but I get the excuse of medical issues. idk. its an option.

he kind of reminds me of my sister but not as much of a cunt and a lot sweeter towards the world

>>84371581
I think we're talking about different E's? Not sure. He kind of did seem sometimes a bit zesty

>>84371608
probably, but yeah he has munch voice (sort of gay voice, but belonging to a man who loves women - aka the best voice a man can have).

>>84371625
What's a munch voice? You have an example of said voice?

>>84371476

tell me your story, it sounds romantic and i want to hear

>>84371635
I asked someone to post an example

>>84371642
it was romantic until it wasnt anon. i wanted it to work. i wanted it to work very very badly. but neither of us were doing well mentally, and honestly, she kept stringing me along for when she was actually going to move for a incredibly long time... i still love her. she is my first love. but I know it wouldn't work now. we've both done and said things that most likely neither of us would be able to move on from. but it almost worked. it really almost did. and there's nothing as painful in love as almost.

>>84371651
>>84371635

https://voca.ro/1gm2Wq7lSNsB
embarassing!

>>84371666
Are you esl? Sound a bit esl

>>84371681
I do not get esl vibes from him wtf
you're just jealous you don't have munch voice

>>84371681
english first and only, sorry to disappoint, there will be no sexy francais from me

Napoleon, don't be jealous that I've been chatting online with babes all day

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Emily,
I'm happy you came back into my life - even for just a little bit. I'm sorry I couldn't return your affection properly. I know you said you fall for people easy, but even knowing that I was happy to know you felt that way about me. I'm sorry it didn't work out, and even knowing that I couldn't return that affection, I'll be sad you aren't around anymore. I'm happy you mentioned finding someone new, and even though we've drifted apart for the second time, I won't dwell on it like I did for ten years. I'm glad your life is in order, I hope mine will be too, soon.
S.

PS. I'm glad he showed you DS9. It's a good show.

>>84371683
I'm not jealous just thought he sounded like he has an accent. >>84371688 I think you're lying.

ALL my Uncle Ivans were great in MY opinion
https://youtu.be/x1TO0XiwrZY

>>84371709
what do i gain from lying. i wish i could speak more than one language but i'm not a cool kid

>>84371744
real breeki, cheeki
https://youtube.com/shorts/XfUPtCn5CD0

EVERYONE KNOWS YOU'RE COOL
THE JIG IS UP FUCKASS

>>84371642
Kek asking yourself to tell your own story. Same fag at its "finest"

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FUCK YOU FOR MAKING ME THINK WE'D HANG OUT AT THE DOG PARK AND THEN BLOCKING MEEEEEEEE

R
I am believing to think that you never wanted to talk to me. We talked about things, about our interests. Then you told me you love me. Told me that you'll do everything. I couldn't understand because we were just friendly. I don't know why you weren't open sooner. I regretted wasting so much time with you just enjoying my presence when I could put effort into helping you immediately. I felt like it was lost time because you didn't tell me anything. Do you know how proud I am of what you have managed to do from just a little push? You're truly amazing. I'm glad I could help you have a better improvement to yourself than many many people would ever have in their lives. I just wish you could take that experience and finally believe in yourself. You did somewhat do that. You could just live your life at that point. I thought then that with you we could work together on any issue. I was worried that you started getting sad again, but I should have considered it more seriously. I always should have been at your feet so you would really really understand that you're enough. But I chose coldness so you could feel yourself cheering you up for once. I never knew how much of a mistake that could be.
M

>>84371470
You can still fix it. I never want to give it up.

>>84372661
I want to believe but I went so far with it all.

You abandoned me when I needed you Most.

https://youtube.com/shorts/Go7CotlX-tk

I wish you didn't give up on me. The person you loved is still here and I still love you.

>>84372807
I'll accept you anyways. It doesn't matter. There are good things in even the worst.

>>84372890
I didn't deserve you so I get what I deserve instead. Everything plays out fairly, doesn't it?

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Then I started Miking everywhere

Drinking tea on this sunny afternoon and doing the crossword. Anyone have 4-down? 6 letters. 'A kindness that forgets to talk.' I'm stuck on this one.

>>84373478
Listen siLent

You're still not coming back. You're still not even ready to tell me what happened. It's so cruel. Did you want it to be so cruel? I don't care about what you did, I can live with it. I forgive you. Just have some pity. Just admit it. Just say something. I need a word or two. I'm desperate. You messed me up so much so fix it with a single act of kindness I need.

Femanon, how long have you been waiting for him to come back and not getting yourself a boyfriend?

https://youtu.be/Vr7gRZ5A1NE

>>84374275
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=t59LQLORMBY&list=OLAK5uy_lNZoK5_0VkggdX_HK31aLxrT8tQTkiCJ8&index=6&pp=8AUB

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>>84374923
Trash didn't listen kid
https://youtu.be/WZ2ZBxsJo6o

>>84374952
Post pat the bunny
Post more pat in return
Gets called trash
I mean yea, his music is objectively bad.

>>84375061
WHY IS A RAVEN LIKE A WRITING DESK?

Why not? Why shouldn't I stream old games and gamble on russian table tennis at 3 am and never work again? I've been logical for way too long and the results are not as satisfactory as I would like, it's time to retardmaxx for real

>>84373689
I did not want to be cruel A. I just had to protect my peace. You abandoned me when I needed you most. You hurt me when all I wanted to do was call you my baby boy and love you. I wanted to betray my family and elope with you and you threw me away for a slut.
A

>>84371118
>One of you will betray me
>It's me, I'm One Of You
Weird flex but ok

Wonder Twins boutta show how predictive these markets really are fr fr the most infuriating 3 Trillion [clams] ever made

The idea that I abandoned you after you told me to fuck off is insane.

Would you hang around with someone who starts verbally bullying you? I wouldn't. There are more patient people but I ain't one of them.

>>84376580
is this pedrophile doom (not white) or vocatroon (hispanic troll)?

avoid and do not add regardless

>>84376625
>who or who?
It's obviously Mike

He's missing a line or two detailing his trans chasing fetish, though.

>>84376625
>>84376660
I don't think it's any of those people. At least, I'd be shocked if it was. They got the tag wrong anyway. Lol

Huh.. Well okay then.

If being blackpilled means having your pleasure button rubbed by a swole black [person] from Tinder than yeah i am pretty blackpilled

>>84376748
you have this kind of obsession with all this interracial sexual stuff it makes me wonder if you're fully white, mike

>>84376769
I saw his face years ago. I don't have a clear mental snapshot of him but I can tell you he has fair skin but still what you would probably call a "mutt". Looked a little jewish.

>>84376769
His repeated inability to spell the word "amethyst" would tell you that much

>>84377019
Nta but gives him away for me is when he starts ranting about larps and narcs, especially on post in other threads or boards.

>>84376748
This post isn't me

Someone is larping as me.

Dealing with Colton's bulshit sucks.

>>84377165
I'm right to complain
Look at this bullshit narc larp right here
>>84376748

>>84373237
Not miking. Only Colton larping and lying to manipulate perception of me.

>>84376660
I looked up the post.

I didn't make it so fuck off with falling for the bullshit larps attempting to frame me (mike).

Vintage colton W

>>84376769
Not me. It's a Colton being a faggot.

sexo with maria :'D slappy plapplers

>>84377681
If only you knew what I did today

>>84377692
If I'm being honest with you, faggot, I could not give a rat's ass. Hang yourself at my earliest convenience, which is right now.

>>84371049
you son of a bitch, i did. best decision of my life.

>>84377681
>>84377692
big deal buckos, you and 50 others have been there

I've started weaponizing misogyny as a cope to make myself not want relationships and it's actually been working. Sorry women, it's nothing personal, under normal circumstances I wouldn't hate you, but forcing myself to do it seems to counterbalance my brain's inbuilt desire for you and I like myself more than I like you, so I choose to prioritize my own well-being and throw you under the bus so I can remain free from the relationship meme.
Stupid cunts.

>>84377733
It was a really good day. Like really really good

>>84377811
Did she fuck your butt like she did Mike?

>>84377822
Actually pretty close to what happened today

>>84377826
Why the fuck are you telling me this, nigger? I do not care.

Stop avoiding it out of shame. You're debasing yourself with a lie that is so cruel. I know you lied already. Just stop tormenting me by your absence. I wanna know what really happened. Even if it hurts me or makes me hate you. I really don't care.

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Berry, I'm sorry I was retarded and gay. I thought about it the other day, thinking about how cringe I was during that period of my life. I was super autistic, and I fucked up a lot of personal relationships. I hope you're doing well nowadays. I wish I could contact you again, but since that's not going to happen, Ill just write it on a board you used to visit and hope that somehow this reaches you someday.

>>84377840
Oh but you do

>>84377985
I think it'd be funny if you killed yourself, maybe. Beyond that I don't give a fuck, retard. I don't even know you.

>>84378015
Here's a clue. 2 hours

>>84378022
You're gonna kill yourself in two hours? Everybody is grateful and we're all rooting for you. Don't mess up.

>>84378030
No something that happened earlier today

>>84378067
Your boyfriend fucked you in the ass? Congratulations. Am I supposed to care, retard? Is this like some backward cucking thing where some retarded cunt who I ghosted or something thinks she's getting back at me? I do not care what you do, whore. Nobody does. You're an obtuse braindead cunt and frankly should have your skull imploded by buckshot.

-
i want so badly to just get over it. to let go of the past. to not be so fucked up just because i saw you unexpectedly. i still have so much anger and hatred towards you in my heart. it kills me that something so small can still have so much control over me. i wish you would just die already. i feel like i won't be able to truly put this to bed until you're dead. it would be wrong for me to pray for your death, but it's such an intense temptation. your death would be a net positive across the board and improve the lives of so many people. i so sincerely hope this was a one-in-a-million freak occurrence and i don't have to encounter you in the wild again. please just die. please

>>84378086
>it kills me that something so small can still have so much control over me
Bitch got fucked by a dicklet chad with god tier technique.

>>84378090
Colton claims another soul

>>84378080
Close, not quite.

I also went to the thrift store after and found a tplink ax6600 router for $5. The wooden retro version of clue. A apple super drive , and a antique display case

I also unboxed my new Samsung super nano OLED 49" super ultra wide

Just ordered a medium pizza, stuffed cheesy bread, brownies and a soda.

Oh and the neighbor stopped by qje dropped off a huge box of retro PC enterprise gear.

>tfw no beautiful princess gf writing cute letters to me

>>84378097
Didn't happen but he does have a tiny pp

Wow, that is so fucking boring, faggot. Who cares? Kill yourself.
Can somebody dome this autistic dipshit?

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>>84378116
Is this why Mike has an obsession? He wants to get it on with the Colton?

cuddling and baby making breeding sexo with rose :'D slappy plapplers

it's possible to retain in thought now how everything fails and would have failed in retrospect and the odds and ends to those civilizational projects. there have been multiple machines and multiple ends to have gotten to.

>>84378157
Good job E or whoever. Make sure to not cucked, bucked and broken.

>>84378118
It's actually pretty fucking cool but def shoes what a snore you are.

>>84378157
I don't get why rose loves mike

>>84378090
im too exhausted to be quippy back. you get this one and this one only

>>84378213
Any summary of how it all went through? I have no idea about them.

>>84378226
Well she's written a couple letters here to him for a while now, these ones written in "his words/perspective" , to R from M. She's upset with him because she loves him and he's not reciprocating.

>>84378251
That seems retarded. I'm pretty sure you're making it up because some initials are just the same. R and M are really common initials.

these threads are kinda nice now, i hope that mike retard never comes back

>>84378213
Rose loves Colton. Mike is a weak cuck and Maria was transgendah.

>>84378157
Slappin her plappers till she blap on my clapper

>>84378265
Read them again. They are written like it's supposed to be Mike writing it.

>>84378280
He never left. You are a nin-cum-poop

>>84378288
Rose doesn't know who Colton is. You are right about maria being a tranny tho

>>84378361
Wrong, Rose loves Colton and Mike is just jealous. Just like every other woman that exists in the vacuum of the Internet, they all belong to Colton. Mike spends his days trying to separate Maria and Colton but Colton and Maria had 2 babies and divorced mutually and they still take care of the kids together. Rose is Colton's new dame he takes out on the town and Mike saw them eating spaghetti together and had to go home and paint his nails and cry to deal with the pain.

>>84378292
That's actually prob part of why she loves him. Cheeky Rose loves to nut in mike butt.

>>84378376
You are retarded. The only person who has every said anything about Colton is Mike (and prob Colton but could just be molly or scroatanfoid)

>>84378379
Do you think Mike gets bored of taking so many backshots from trans girls? Why does he do it?

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Hello r9k. How are we this evening.
I am still doing poorly, just like always, it never changes.
I am a spiritual person, I believe in reincarnation.
But I do not believe in cosmic judgement, so no hell and no karma system.
I believe those things are rather stupid, why would the universe care about human morality?
I say that to preface the idea that I do not mind painting the ceiling with my brains.
It will just be a fast-pass to my next life. So I always have that in my back pocket.
That is what I've been thinking about recently. If the next 15 months don't go as planned,
I will probably be exploding my head.

I already sacrificed my entire life for my parents so far, and got nothing for it.
I accept now that they will never love me, and I accept now that they will never respect me.
The goal-post I was chasing, it never existed. The grades never mattered, the degree never mattered.
They still treat me like a stupid child. And they always will. I get that now.

I want to move out, but I am locked in my current job until Summer 2027. I will be saving money as much as possible.
I am hoping that come July 2027 I will be stepping into my new apartment, far away from my parents in a different state.
I hope that I never speak to them again after that date.
But if things go wrong, if I am still trapped with them, if my life does not progress in any meaningful way still,
then rest assured, I will be dead by 2028. I cannot take much more of this. I just can't.

So thats my blog post for the evening, thanks for reading.

>>84378384
Me, retarded? It's not my fault you're not up to snuff on the Colton lore. Keep up, drongo. Everyone knows this shit already.

>>84378388
How old're ya man?

>>84378376
Shit. I figured it out. This is Maria and she is jealous of rose with Mike and is saying things she thinks Mike would be hurt by.

>>84378392
Nice guess, but it's actually COLTON THE DESTROYER. I have both Maria and Rose bouncing on my penis right now. Does this come as an alarm to you?

>>84378361
>They are written like it's supposed to be Mike writing it.
Dude am I just like Mike? Am I fucked for life now?

>>84378387
My guess is he's MTF.

>>84378390
Maria. If Colton meant anything to you, you wouldn't be jealous of rose with Mike and you wouldn't be here trying so hard to upset mike to get him to talk to you.

>>84378402
Idk. If you read it you can see it pretty clearly is made to make Mike sound like he is missing out and fucked up loving Maria and staying for her and not rose. Rose was saying she was crying about Mike and not leaving her bed because she was so sad

>>84378388
>>>>>/biz/catalog

Consider not discussing the mentally ill creations of a 30 something year old man who never grew out of his "I have a girlfriend, she just goes to another school" phase, they're best ignored, acknowledging them encourages the behavior

>>84378408
>My guess is he's MTF.
Kek I don't think so. Although that picture is funny. Epitome of s0i
Why would I be upset that I cucked Mike? I don't know any of these people you fucking moron. Simultaneously, anything I say is cemented lore on the matter. I wouldn't advise questioning it if you're too stupid to figure it out naturally.

>>84378416
I'm not Mike or Rose, dude

>>84378425
Why would I ignore prime entertainment?
>>84378432
Liar. You're Rose and you're clearly in love with Mike. Unless this is the chicago deep dish beatbox bastard posting another dissuasive narclarp post. Ignoring you as Maria will come to tongue my anus, it's true love and destiny

I'm really getting sick of Maria and Rose trying to split Mike and I up. Jealous fucking whores.

>>84370906
shitty thread can I just complain abt my ex and how I wanna die now instead

>>84378491
Let me guess, you're going to badmouth my loving sissy husband Mike aren't you? Fuck off narclarper.

>>84378429
Then stop begging for Mike to give you attention. The level of obsession to bother Mike and figure out what roses history with him shows your hand

>>84378432
You said the same thing the other night and then told Mike not to say that you are here and acted flirty when he pressed

>>84378486
Maria stop writing to mike

>>84378503
Oil up that faggot ass, Mikey. You're in for four inches of anal destruction.

>>84378226
They used to write to each other a lot before Mike dated Maria. Mike met rose on eightchan

>>84378508
Maria, you do realize that if I was Mike I wouldnt tell you to stop writing to him. It's also weird you want Mike's to be your sissy. It's almost like there is a entirely different board you could be saying gay shit to him on where I don't have to read it.

>>84378522
Nigger you are so fucking retarded haha, nobody fucking cares Mike, jump off a bridge fag. You're a complete and total joke to absolutely everyone.

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From A..Z
Jesus Christ, stop mixing drugs and alcohol while on a computer, please. It's unbecoming. Remember to drink plenty of water! You need to heal from this - I hope you do.
To A..Z

Rose, sorry for messing with your pursuit of Mike by just being here. But you seem to take advantage of it, so have fun.

>>84378550
Dude, Rose has her hands full trying to make ends meet while caring for her offspring... Do you really think she has time for this? Grow up.

A,
When you are back from Belarus I will finally be able to tell you that we cant be friends anymore. I wont be able to tell you how I feel about you though.
-B

>>84378531
Maria how are you as retarded as Mike.

Actually I think I get it. You guys are a match made in special Ed.

Now can you both get aids and spontaneously combust

>>84378557
Rose doesn't have kids. Her and Nate split a while back

>>84378565
This reddit spacing autistic sperg still thinking I'm his ex bitch is hilarious. Faggot, I bagged badder latinas in high school than your findom simp ass could even dream of.

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>>84378572
Ok

Maria

Now

Stop

Writing

To

Mike

And

If

We

Are

Lucky

He

Will

Be

Gone

Forever

>>84378569
>post ends with 69
Must be true then. Did he leave her or she him and why?

>>84378590
You are failing to dance how I like, so I think Mike stays for a little while.

I don't want any other woman but Rose. She is perfect and I want to put a ring on her. I want tell her everything is fine and forgotten. I want to tell her that everything is solvable. I want to hold her and never let go. She is mine, she is mine, she is mine. Like she said. I'll always be hers. I promised to never leave and I still didn't!

>>84378585
You are obsessed with him. Please stop writing to he who must not he named. I'm going to bed. please dont keep writing to him.

>>84378599
Why are you being difficult? I want him gone.

>>84378617
This just in: a new cure for cancer has been found. Ignoring it.
>>84378610
You're nobody to tell me what to do, sorry.

>>84378604
Rose, bro, you can't be this hung up on mike.

>>84370906
i don't understand what this general is for

>>84378591
Cheating and maybe something about substance abuse. That's what I heard

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>>84378650
So, she's a coke fiend? How disappointing.

Kitty is my favorite foid artist
https://youtu.be/jbYRsU4FHaQ
She's cool
https://youtu.be/DgaXQKpsmr4

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>>84378391
I am only 23 to be honest. So I'm sure a lot of people are going to tell me I have plenty of time.
Maybe that is true, I just don't want to be around my family anymore. Its too painful.
I feel numb, I've been depressed my entire life because I didn't really have a good support system or home-life.
I did everything trying to make my parents happy and make them proud of me and it never worked.
I got praise from everyone else, like my teachers and other adults, but never them.
All I wanted was praise from them, so that I could feel like I deserved to be born.
I feel like a burden, I just want to runaway and be alone.

It is unfortunate, the position I find myself in, unable to move for another year.
However, I just need to do my best to save up money, I've always been pretty good at saving money, I already have $5000 saved.
I just need enough to get a long-stay hotel so I can find a job in a different state and then find an apartment.
And then maybe, maybe then I can start my life, like I wanted to when I was 18.
Before I betrayed myself, naively believing that if I did what I was told I would eventually make them happy.
I wasted my life so far, and I worry that I am going to betray myself again.

I know that I am young, and I know that I have plenty of time, I just don't want to wake up in 30 years and realize I didn't do anything.
Realize that I still live in the same state, realize that I let my parents control me my entire life, I feel like I need to just move.
I would move today if it was possible, but its not, I can't move because of the job anyway. So I might as well save.
I just want my own life. I'll be moving to the East Coast, I've always felt drawn there.

>>84378634
Do you think Rose ever thinks about me when she's lonely or horny? I can't believe she just forgot, just abandoned everything that we have acquired through our love. The dreams, the plans, the understanding, the better lives. Did she really think I would forget her after some time? I never forgotten her, not a single thing. It's all in my mind, every word said over so much time. Every attempt to comfort her, every difficulty and every moment of joy. Do you think she still remembers all of it too? It was so important to her. She probably has even more of it in her brain. I was trying to run away from it and didn't look at anything that reminded me of her. But she must have treasured every thought and every word. She said it was all real to her and how happy she was she could experience love and joy which she never known.

>>84378670
>So I'm sure a lot of people are going to tell me I have plenty of time.
I won't. You have two years.
I never gave a fuck what my parents thought so I can't relate.
It's good that you've saved up the money. If you have a decent credit score - which you should from living off your parents for now - shouldn't have any problems with a down payment on a cheap 1bed1bath. Provide a stable history of employment and residence yadda yadda yadda and you're good.
Also, don't go East, Jesus. Go somewhere hot and dry.

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>>84378675
These weird larps are shit, man. Get a grip.

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>>84378776
Been trying for too long. I just wanted a girl like her all my life.

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>>84378795
Good luck to you, my friend. Try to hide your crazy a bit, k? It's a bit cringe.

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>>84378795
What do you like about her? I like that she contains multitudes in unexpected ways.

>>84378914
It doesn't really matter anymore at this point, does it?
>>84378946
I love how strong and determined she is despite her problems and tears. I love how sweet she is and how much she likes cute things to care for. I love how smart she is. I love how her humor is now. I love her fascination with art, even if It's dumb art. I love her honesty. I love her monotone voice. I love her cute sounds. I love her little smirk when she stares. I like her being a bit bitchy about people around her. I love her ability to get genuinely surprised when she's cared for. I love her uncontrollable responses of butterflies in her tummy and racing heart when she hears sweet words or gets called cute names. I love when she is in charge in anything she's infinitely caring. I love when she says self-deprecating jokes. I love the funny pictures she sends. I love the things she performatively hides to see if anyone notices. I love her.

>>84378675
Rose, we really didn't need to hear how you finger blast to mike.

>>84378795
It's it that you need to hear him tell you that?

>>84378946
Rose,it's not unexpected

>>84379090
I just feel you shouldn't have to write these to yourself as if you are him.

Why do you think he hasn't chosen you?

>>84379133
I'm not Rose you minor e-celeb obsessed imbecile. But I wish Rose had a a chance to hear everything I was trying to say to her but only screamed into the void. Eventually. Do you think anyone wouldn't chose her? She's amazing, every guy should be falling for her. She just doesn't know that all that talk badly of her qualities are worthless and couldn't give her anything I could. I chose her.

>>84379154
Ok rose. Try to sleep and stay off the coke

>>84379154
But you have to be Rose because I'm retarded enough to delude myself into thinking you are

>>84378732
Why would I want to go West? Its hot and dry. I prefer the more tropical climate of a place like Florida. Plus, I grew up spending my summers there.
Also, I agree with you. When I was 21 I gave myself until I was 25 to get my life together, I was fine with waiting another 2 years.
The issue is that things change, nothing goes according to plan, and now I want to go somewhere else as quickly as possible, which for me means July 2027.
I just hope they're still there when I get there. I dont want to keep them waiting that long.
Meeting them altered my trajectory completely. Made me feel like I was in a rush.

Z
You've been extremely helpful to me and I enjoy your company. If I never met you, I'd already have bounced off the premises. This job sucks, and I know damn well you're too competent to be here too.
I'm always confused whether you're in love with me or you're just helpful, but I will win for the both of us to get that trip ready. It's a long path, it could even take a year because it's a competitive field. I write here because you will never read this, and I assume nobody else out there will. There was a chunky blonde woman I was obsessed with since 10 years ago. We both had a mutual fallout but she lived rent free in my mind until you slowly got rid of her for me, mentally. I don't know what you did or how you did it, but you just destroyed her for me. I'm not obsessed with you like her because, well, you're way out of my league, and I look at you a lot differently. You're a serious woman, underneath all the niceness. I love that. I'd hope the moment I get certified and quit, we resume talking until the end of time.
J

>>84378585
I'm honestly shocked that a guy like this can be so full of himself, like where did this nigga get an ego from?
Even his voice is this whiny mousy thing, so it can't be voicecallmaxxing on the cord like a lot of ugly bastards with the radio voice

Is there anything going on here that I should actually give a shit about, or is it just more government affiliates abusing their status as an insular caste so they can larp as clever people?

>>84381027
There's not a single dude with a decent voice on r9k that's ugly. People are quick to bring up the influx of foids and crystal cafe ilk, but sleep on the chads that congregate here. Many of which are not NT which makes sense. That, and within the first few days of talking to any girl she'll ask to see what you look like. Attractive people have attractive qualities. Simple as.

>>84378585
I always remember him posting photos of his "hands" grabbing tools in the thread. Trying to come off as some rugged guy. Then you see his soft, dainty little grippers in this photo of him. With his no muscle mass, hairless, pale arms. What a fraud. Lol

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>>84381094
Tell the boys to be on stand-by. This is the calm before the storm - I can feel it.

>>84381218
I doubt it. Shits pretty dead. The recent captcha fuck up hemorrhaged more users, and the threads are moving slower than ever before. Getting to the point I find this place more, and more boring. Visit less frequently, for shorter periods of time. You have a handful of regulars, and the few people who try to rattle them up with varied success. A few visitors who post about their person. I don't think you'll see a blow out meltie anytime soon. No matter how bad some might want it.

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>>84381178
Come on, what did you expect from a "dude" who paints his own nails? And yes, his limp wristed grip on the power tools made me angry somehow. The tools deserve better than this. His derangement of posting these as a flex is some wild shit. He needs a father figure and Jesus.

>>84381152
I knew a "fembot" who was obsessed with straight up text on a screen
She never saw the guy, never heard his voice, just text
Yeah, most will not put up with a guy who doesn't show himself and will discard him as obviously ugly, but others mentally unwell and desperate for affection
Craziest thing she wasn't even ugly, relatively stacy-ish

>>84381256
I know. Just makes me laugh anytime I think about it. Not in a I hate mike sort of way, but more of a the hubris of this fucking bitch way. I would never defend mike, but I also don't typically go out of my way to shit on him either. Just funny to behold sometimes. Like a lot of the behavior demonstrated in these threads. One of the few threads I'll pop in, and check on.

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>>84381246
Have you seen how he was spiraling on someone mentioning that Rose person a couple of hours ago? Reading deranged shit like that makes me so glad I'm not an attractive female, Jesus Christ.

>>84381261
I believe it. Women love some good smut to read. People clown on guys when their DMs get outted sometimes, but you know that bitch was eating that shit up like spaghetti dinner the whole time. It's still hilarious out of context, but in the back of my head I'm like you fucking enjoyed it you little bitch.. lmao

>>84381280
Not really. I don't know who Rose is, or the majority of the identifiable female posters on r9k. Or uhhh I guess egirls? Not sure if that's the best phrase for them. So I don't get invested/read them because I genuinely have no idea who they are.

I used to know a rose. If she somehow ended up involved with this nerd wacko I will cackle like a hyena but chances are it's all in his head and all these names are just characters.

>>84380052
Because snowy winters are true hell to me and I've lived in wintery states all my life. That's just me, though. If you spend most of your time indoors winters can be comfy. I've also never been one for planning. I always just figured things were going to work out and they have so far.
Good luck with whoever it is you are to meet.
>>84381027
Women prefer genuine retards. Don't forget that. In any other way, I challenge you to attempt to describe the interior processes of his head. Only one word will come to mind.
>>84381178
He plays workshop in his garage and acts like he works 10hr days as a laborer when he's a techfag. If he doesn't do something manly at least once a month, the latent trannobots in his bloodstream will activate and he'll sissify permanently.

>>84381399
How was she? Are you sure it's not my Rose?

>>84381584
>Women prefer genuine retards
Are you seriously implying women want him? lol, lmao even, there's a reason my guy has been obsessed with the one crumb of online attention he, allegedly, got from a woman years ago

>>84381619
He unironically has collected a couple femorbiters. That's why I'm saying that.

>>84381690
My good man, there's a massive jump from
>man who is wanted by women
to
>man who combs through the lowest corners of the online space looking for the desperate, the easy and the self-loathing
We're not exactly dealing with a Chris Hemsworth here

>>84381759
>Retarded ugly autistic faggot with a stay at home job who's never seen a day of poverty in his life who combs through the lowest corners of the online space looking for the desperate, the easy and the self-loathing
>Still doing better than me in life
It's funny because I know I could beat the fuck out of him easily, right? If I could give this faggot irreversible brain damage, I would. But at this point in his prognosis it might actually have the reverse affect of reconnecting the two neurons that reside within his fucking head.

>>84381780
Sadly I bet no one has ever given him a slap or two. He strikes me as the type of guy who is timid on the surface and conceited inside. Guys like this are very good at inspiring pity in people to avoid physical confrontations.

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>>84381584
>Because snowy winters are true hell to me and I've lived in wintery states all my life.
Yeah, same here, that is why I plan on moving away from the snowy states. I've lived in the Midwest my whole life.
Thank you for your "Good Luck" wish. I appreciate it. Though, I should really learn to just go with the flow.
If 15 months is too long and they're gone, than that's just the way it is. I was going to move regardless.
I've been isolated all my life, I'm used to it.

>>84381270
Yeah, not sure why she is is so obsessed with him. Doubt she's even heard his voice and working with tools, having rough hands is manly.

>>84381178
reminder that he nig rigs stuff too. everything he builds is a pile of shit.

>>84381619
I am suggesting that it's weird for you to write so many posts in a row about him. Being his fan club. How many posts have you written here in in this thread today about him?

>>84382336
Yeah, comments like this >>84382335 come across as either jealousy or obsession.

The answer is that anon has written 7+.

>>84382336
>him
just say "me"

They put "gifted" kids through that confusing shit without even caring if they're going to remember. (And then "Mike" does it to you again 30 years later if you start talking spicy about his gang.)

>new formative moment just dropped
>some menopausal bitch is irritated with you because you don't see the point of some retarded greek pyramid bullshit and you'll realize 25 years later they were checking to see if you understand the binomial series at a young age and this is ironically why you developed a visceral discomfort with math

>>84383052
Very subtle, there. I wish I knew the probability of this happening organically and this being forced somehow. Who took that sad picture of you? It's strange that you didn't look at the camera, no? Is that image supposed to remind me of my childhood? The time spent on the family computer were my happiest memories tho... by far. Kind of a low bar when most of the rest was an unending nightmare of assembling a puzzle in the dark.

I waste so much time thinking about others and how to make their lives better that I forget that I, myself, also exist.

>>84383215
That's not healthy, anon.

>tfw had your entire life ruined because some hoe told people to stalk you

>>84383215
Do you know why you tend to neglect your own needs, anon? Is it love for others or hate of yourself that drives it?
Why were you so reluctant to mention the title of that book?

>>84383386
Okay...but was she a hot redhead?

>>84383393
She was. Kinda mid to me now though

>>84383287
It has been slowly killing me. I caught myself scheduling tomorrow to help a family member. After I filled my day, I noticed there was no me-time, at all. I often forget to eat.
>>84383392
I hypothesize that all I know anymore is to care. To be needed is a man's strongest desire. Without it, I am nothing.
>Why were you so reluctant to mention the title of that book?
Ignorance is bliss.

>>84383402
Oh, must've been Tina.
Yeah, I've been chased out of town because of her too. My life is much better now, but that was a miserable 7 years.

>>84383545
Yeah Tina always been like that, more red flags than a communist parade

>>84383617
Bitch had Ronald Mcdonald hair at one point she dyed it so much, but I didn't make the connection until way too late.

Ugh, but I'm coping with my new situation now, and I hope she and I never meet again.