>I am different, not a faggot blaming the outside world for recoiling from me

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When my xgene activated my super intelligence and I became enlightened beyond my peers

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3rd grade when they offered me to skip a grade
Cried in class at least a couple times (hypersensitive)
Wasn't very good at gym despite playing outdoors about as much as the other kids
Then at the end of elementary school I got proper depression and realized that something was very wrong with me, but I was a little kid and didn't really understand what that was at the time

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Immediately upon starting school. I didn't get along with most of them, felt like we were talking past each other and didn't care about the same things. As for the actual schoolwork, I often found it trivial when they struggled, or had my own struggles with things that were automatic for everyone else. For example, I learned English stupidly fast as a second language, did math in my head without writing down any calculations and easily recalled things I had previously read when I knew I'd have to remember them in class. On the other hand, my handwriting was abysmal and I took ages to write anything down, I was awful at sports/PE, spoke in ways that didn't match the speaking patterns of other kids and had all sorts of awkward mannerisms.

In high school, when I was isolated from the rest. But I'm different just because I don't socialize, have low confidence and spend my whole days on internet. I'm not the autistic type of "different". Still, I'm not used to social situations, which sets me a little apart from the rest.

>>84374460
honestly it took me decades before i realized it im extremely slow mentally and looking back i realized i was intentionally left out of a lot of experiences growing up

theres nothing i can really do about it. ive been lucky enough to be part of some relationships and friend groups and even at its best its really annoying and draining so i guess i dont mind being left out since its really obnoxious to me

ive learned all normies are really terrible people and they just play this awful exhausting social game trying to hide it. the people that get their lives ruined are just the people that get caught there's sadly much much worse people out there like bugspreaders and other shit.

like normies will intentionally plant conversations and turn whatever response their partner says against them months later and store it as ammunition in case they need an excuse to leave to protect their reputation and other bullshit like that so they can tell their social groups it and selectively choose to share it only when they want to leave. shit like that

theyre doing you favor by leaving you out of all the drama

>>84374460
not being able to make friends with girls

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when i was like 6 and i refused to play sports lmao
i didn't realize the entire point was proving yourself and superiority to your peers
instead i just saw what was literally happening and the inherently unproductive nature of it

In middle school, when I slowly developed really bad social anxiety. A lot of people also started treating me like a retard around the same time.

>>84374460
When I was 6 and classmates beat me up en masse.

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around 11 when i moved up to secondary school. everyone in the main hall was talking to eachother, people theyd never met before, and i was just paralyzed and afraid and it never got better. started feeling like an alien around then.

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>>84374460
And it's happened once again
I'll turn to a friend
Someone that understands
And sees through the master plan
But everybody's gone
And I've been here for too long
To face this on my own
Well, I guess this is growing up

I kind of knew when I was little, I remember when I was 4 years old I was crying because the other boys treated me differently. However I was in denial about it until I was almost 30.