Hi /r9k/. Anybody feel like having a discussion about the things going on in their life? Feel like venting,chatting, hanging out, sharing ideas? Come and rest a while. I'd love to have a discussion with you about anything.
Nobody wants anything to do with you , you're only good for cutting yourself . It's due to your aspergers , by the way . You being associated with someone better than you like this is only unnaturual . It happens when people are under gunshot . When invaded by a swarm . When locked
>>84401999Hey OP. Nice digits!My day has been fine thanks, but I am still my own worst enemy. I have no energy most of the time so I go to work, walk home, eat junk, watch YouTube and browse 4chan, then go to sleep. Do this on repeat each and every week. I CAN have different experiences, but they take a lot of courage and I typically don't have it. Life passes me by very quickly. Due to my size I worry I'll pass away in my sleep one of these days even. I'm also anxious because I'm waiting for the results of my autism assessment. They're due any day now. Thanks for the nice thread. I always enjoy these.
>>84402009sorry anon but I'm not totally sure what you mean. under gunshot? I think I'm a little bit confused. Would you mind explaining?>>84402029>My day has been fine thanks, but I am still my own worst enemy. I have no energy most of the time so I go to work, walk home, eat junk, watch YouTube and browse 4chan, then go to sleep. Do this on repeat each and every week.Sometimes it feels like the hours go slow and the weeks go fast. I'm sorry you feel so stuck in the cycle. There's still time to break out of that cycle, you know. There's a whole world ready to embrace you.>I CAN have different experiences, but they take a lot of courage and I typically don't have it. Please find the courage within yourself to live life to the fullest. Nobody has ever lived a life more important than yours. Treat it with the dignity you were born with.>autism assessment. They're due any day now.are you getting support from the government? if so, i hope it acts as a stabilizing force in your life to understand your problems. Autism is one of those things that can seem superficially minor but cut really deep and make all sorts of things in life more difficult. Please don't blame yourself for anything you struggle with as a result of your autism. As long as you keep working towards being your best self you're the perfect you today.
>>84402063That's very kind. I sincerely appreciate every word of it. Especially >Treat [life] with the dignity you were born with.I will screencap this so I don't forget it.Thanks Anon.
>>84402113You don't need any more reminders to do it anon. Believe in the me that believes in you and go do it. I promise it'll be worth it.
>>84401999Good that you are here anon. Nice digits. I have been struggling with the fact that I have little free time recently (work) and can for example not read as much as I would want to. Somehow it works as a small reminder that I will actually die and not do all that I want to do. Like I am 30 and already running out of time. Also tfw no gf but that is a given.
>>84402223>Nice digits.you were one off yourself! dang it, that was close lol.>I have been struggling with the fact that I have little free time recently (work) and can for example not read as much as I would want to. Somehow it works as a small reminder that I will actually die and not do all that I want to do.Momento Mori et cetera. I'm sorry that you're having trouble doing what you'd like, but at least you have an awareness of how precious your time is.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q29sOLG8xGE I hope you're able to earn your own freedom back from society. It's a long grind and not easy, but it's possible. Have you been making the most of it lately, or can you even? I know sometimes when you're working too much you just get home exhausted and can hardly do anything. How has it been for you? I know tfw no gf is hard, but it's one of those things that is hard to offer consolation for. Just know whenever you're feeling lonely that you aren't alone. That's the whole world crying out in pain with you.Could you tell me about what you're reading, by the way? Is it any good? I hardly ever read but when I do I churn through hundreds of pages a day and just devour it lol.
>>84401999it's going...been making some music today, I feel like I can layer something in this feel to make it less empty, you got any idea for a sample to put there?https://voca.ro/1fYKR5A61pVI
>>84401999In the past week I started studying Japanese. This semester of college ends soon and then I can take summer courses. I inch closer to my goal of teaching English in Japan.
it was shit. every day seems to get worse and worse. i don't know what to do anymore. i just want to get high.
>>84402520>it's going...hope it goes good!>been making some music today, I feel like I can layer something in this feel to make it less empty, you got any idea for a sample to put there?>https://voca.ro/1fYKR5A61pVIi listened to it a few times and I'm not sure how to add besides vocals. I really like the beat at the very end. Maybe you can stick a synth high note in as you're doing the transition to the climax of the song? Vocals might be a good choice though, you could put something stupid in like when that guy goes "to the window" "to the wall" and make a little 1 2 movement>>84402538>In the past week I started studying Japanese.(i wrote a message in japanese but 4chan wont let me post it here, 1 sec)I learned a bit of japanese to watch anime untranslated. It was worth it because it makes TV which used to be very boring a lot more fun and mentally engaging. Unfortunately, this also crushed my enjoyment of konosuba season 3 lol.Are you seriously going over to Japan to teach? That's really exciting. I'm moving countries too this year. It's a little scary, but so exciting.>>84402545>every day seems to get worse and worse. i don't know what to do anymore. i just want to get high.I hate to say the obvious anon, but the drugs probably aren't helping. Have you tried getting a break from them to take a look at things with a clearer head? Sometimes the clouds around us make our opportunities seem small or out of reach. Have you tried drinking some water and exercise or meditation? It might surprise you at what a balancing force it can be in your life.
>>84402538encouragement, japan
>>84401999glowie thread avoid
>>84402788My name is agent Keith Lancer I'm a CIA memetics operative online for Project Artichoke, My plan was to convince people online to perform antisocial behaviors and promote violence and the need for authority. Now that you've seen through my plan I'll go back to Langley. My bad.
>>84402828K-KEITH LANCER? Isn't that the name of one of the victims of the mass-shooting which happened 10 years ago? Why are you alive and posting on 4chan? Unless... It was all part of a conspiration to make guns inaccessible to civilians, wasn't it!?
>>84402870no guns, no funs. we've perfected a weapon that turns all Americans into Californians. We already bought the market cap of Starbucks and will make trillions to do more effed up evil glowie stuff like add toll roads
>>84401999lips chapped because i forgot my lip balm. I work outdoors. Wish i didnt have to use roundup but thats my job today.
>>84402670>I hate to say the obvious anon, but the drugs probably aren't helping. Have you tried getting a break from them to take a look at things with a clearer head? Sometimes the clouds around us make our opportunities seem small or out of reach. Have you tried drinking some water and exercise or meditation? It might surprise you at what a balancing force it can be in your life.i'm not using weed at the moment. why do you think i ant to get high so badly?
>>84401999today was fine since i had no class but i woke up at like 4 pm and have to start getting ready for class at 4 am tomorrow since they'll be backhave been having a hard time in college though, my only friend there is a chubby japanese dude and we've been doing pretty much everything as a duo while most do stuff in 8-9 people groupsthankfully my grades are doing well now after i messed up in my first test but i got really embarassed when we had to give a presentation last week and the professor asked us why we were in two - this made the most sociable girl in class stand up and ask us to help pass the slides; if i wasn't so autistic i'd probably have cried of embarrassment at that moment especially cause i'm scared of womenalso i gotta stop watching porn, dealing with this shit brought my semi porn addiction back
>>84402670Yes, in about two or three years when I have a teaching license and teaching experience under my belt, I will move to Japan. By that time I should have a decent grasp on the language if I keep studying it for 1-2 hours a day.
>>84403102Ouch. Do you live in high altitudes if your lip chaps in the spring? I have to remember it every day too or it's a disaster lol. >I work outdoors. Wish i didnt have to use roundup but thats my job today.That sucks, yeah. Herbicides make you feel a little guilty for using them because they just destroy life. I'm sorry you had to do that. At the end of the day, you probably would have avoided that situation if you could. Maybe you'll be able to next time.Do you like working outdoors compared to, indoors?
>>84403108>why do you think i ant to get high so badly?>i just want to get high. >>84402545it was this in your post that made me think that. sorry if I misunderstood anything. i didn't mean it as an insult to you, so I'm sorry.>>84403111 nice quads>have been having a hard time in collegeCollege is hard. As long as you're doing your best, you can hang in there. i'm sorry about the group activity thing. I've always been that way in school too. It's really embarrassing to not be very good at introductions and never know many people.don't beat yourself up though, you have nothing to be afraid of. she wasn't doing anything to you out of malice, she just wanted to help. That just shows you that you have ways to meet friendly people if you put yourself out there. Your friend sounds really nice, so I'm glad to hear you have him.>>84403140Do you have a region you're interested in living in?
Getting drunk at 10am!!!!!!!@!!!https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JnX1q6CAOi0
>>84403186I want to teach at smaller schools NOT in the big cities like Tokyo. International Schools are all over in Japan and the easier to get into ones are in the more rural less developed city regions. That's the dream, to live in a smaller city in Japan.
>>84401999I went to work. Wished my lazy coworker would get fired. Came home and played tomodachi life. Now im in bed lurking :3I've been working fulltime for 3 yrs and I miss being a neet. I should do my chores soon ;_;
>>84403235this video is funny lol. it feels like 2026 is a bit of a lore era. do you live in Australia?>>84403248That'll be cool. I hope you'll be able to find a good place for you there. Every bit that you study will help towards that goal in the future. What is the route people take to go from a foreigner to a teacher in japan?
>>84403260I'm from the USA so becoming an international school teacher (a better position than ESL teachers through JET or Eikawa) requires a 4 year degree in a english and a teaching license from my state, as well as typically teaching experience (smaller schools may overlook experience but usually not).I believe the process is different for people from non English speaking countries, because they want native english speakers for teachers.
>>84403258>Wished my lazy coworker would get fired.that's relatable. It's really frustrating when there's a weak link on the team but the boss refuses to just cut loose with them and basically fix the working environment.>I've been working fulltime for 3 yrs and I miss being a neet. I should do my chores soon ;_;"Those were the best days of my life..."https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9f06QZCVUHgwhat chores are you doing? I'm making chile verde right now in the slow cooker. I honestly should be cleaning more.
>>84403186thank you! i'll make sure to do my best
>>84401999u do NOT have 477 pictures of megumin
>>84403281 Im not a good beaner and haven't had chile verde. Thank you for your empathy.How is ur chile verde? Im going to have to clean my bathroom and room. They are disgusting.
>>84401999I woke up from a dream this morning. I was back in my high school, and I was 18 again. Without thinking, i walked into a staircase, opened the door and found a horrifying image.My friend's corpse, freshly stabbed, blood everywhere. Though i never saw it in person myself, it was how she looked in the last moments of her life. What really shocked me was little i reacted. The way you react when you see the person in the public toilet before you didn't flush. Just like "oh, gross". then i woke up. It's been 12 years, it's the first time i ever dreamed about her after thinking about her every day, what on earth did my brain mean by this?Dreams are like comic books - they don't make any sense while you're experiencing them, and they make even less sense when you try to explain them to someone elseReally fucked me up today.
>>84401999TIREDREADY FOR BEDBEHIND ON SOME SCHOOLWORK BUT ITS GOING WELL OVERALLBEEN LAZY THE PAST COUPLE WEEKS AND NEED TO GET IN CONTACT WITH SOME PPL, ALSO WANNA TALK TO A BUDDY OF MINE MORE BUT HE'S A REAL GOODIE TWO SHOES BOY SCOUT CHRISTIAN WHICH IRKS ME A BIT WHEN WE TALK. CANT EVEN RLY DRINK OR HAVE A CIGAR TOGETHER.ONLY A FEW OF MY FRIENDS RLY GET ME.BUT MOST OF ALL?I'M SICK OF BEING LOOKED DOWN ON BY PEOPLE IN MY LIFE, MY FRIEND, BUT THIS IS A SECRET BETWEEN U AND ME.I'M CAPABLE OF BEING SO MUCH MORE.I'M BETTER
Uhm, is it okay if I do that? Then here it comes: I'm afraid of dying a virgin. And also afraid of living an unhappy life... *awkward silence* >///<" anyway that's all I have to say. I wish I had some ideas to share but I have none right now.>>84403380She sure meant a lot to you. Having this kind of dream must be difficult.
>>84403347erm.....Also sorry about the name I set my windows name to dag nabbit but it only ever calls me dag lol
>>84403377>How is ur chile verde?It turned out really well. I used a premade chili verde mix with some onions, garlic, and pork then slow cooked it and had it for dinner. it tasted nice and had the right amount of seasoning. thanks for asking.>Im going to have to clean my bathroom and room. They are disgusting.if you ever want cleaning inspo look at microscopic images of dust mites. They're so gross and they live EVERYWHERE you dont clean lol. they are so so nasty.>>84403667>BEHIND ON SOME SCHOOLWORK BUT ITS GOING WELL OVERALL>BEEN LAZY THE PAST COUPLE WEEKS AND NEED TO GET IN CONTACT WITH SOME PPL, ALSO WANNA TALK TO A BUDDY OF MINE MORE BUT HE'S A REAL GOODIE TWO SHOES BOY SCOUT CHRISTIAN WHICH IRKS ME A BIT WHEN WE TALK. CANT EVEN RLY DRINK OR HAVE A CIGAR TOGETHER.>ONLY A FEW OF MY FRIENDS RLY GET ME.Feels real af. It's nice to have friends where they can see more of you than most people. Most of us have hidden sides that stay within private life. You might not know as much as youd like to about your christian friend either. Maybe the more you get to know each other the more compatible you'll find each other as buddies. My grandpa is a big Christian and one of his lifelong longest friends was an athiest. We live in a liberal society to coexist despite these restrictions.>I'M CAPABLE OF BEING SO MUCH MORE.Are you seeing your potential to it's fullest? As long as you are, you deserve to be proud of yourself. Life is really hard, and not everybody will understand you. Please make them say that they were wrong, because you're awesome. Keep trying and you're gonna get far. Do your best in school as well.
>>84403686>I'm afraid of dying a virgin. And also afraid of living an unhappy life... *awkward silence* >///<"Have you found anything that makes you happy yet? Would you describe your feelings as more anxious or sad or despairing? I hope you don't mind if I offer my opinion: you still have your heart in your chest. As long as you don't give up, there's always still a chance. Thinking of yourself as some member of an incel class is just gonna seperate you from others i think. If you do die a virgin though, what's wrong with that? Most of us don't ever kill a person in our lives, even though that was an activity in older times. Life has a way of denying the desperate. If yopu know you're walking in the right direction, you'll find your destination eventually.
>>84403380Maybe she's haunting you? Did you have some unresolved issue with her in life? Sorry if that's superstitious, just seems interesting.I honestly can relate to the feeling of guilt at your own emotional responses to things. In real life whenever people are in mortal danger I just don't really even feel alive in those moments. I just kinda lock in and stop having feelings. it might just be a healthy emotional response to seeing something dangerous or upsetting.By the way, it's cool that you remember your dreams. I used to run a dream diary but they started getting too weird so I stopped. Do you generally have bad dreams or was this unusual?
>>84403778>Most of us have hidden sides that stay within private life. You might not know as much as youd like to about your christian friend either. Maybe the more you get to know each other the more compatible you'll find each other as buddiesTHIS IS TRUEI'VE NEVER BEEN GREAT AT CONNECTING WITH PEOPLE, I TEND TO FEEL PRETTY FAKE A LOT OF TIMES.MY FRIEND IS A GOOD GUY AND I LIKE HIM, BUT I DUNNO I JUST DON'T JIVE WITH THE WAY HE IS A LOT OF THE TIME.IM NOT AN ATHEIST THOUGH LOL JUST GOT A COMPLICATED RELATIONSHIP WITH BELIEF IN GOD>Are you seeing your potential to it's fullest? As long as you are, you deserve to be proud of yourselfI TRY BUT I NEED TO BE PUSHING MYSELF HARDERI JUST NEED TO PUSH MORE AND THINGS WILL GET BETTERSICK OF PRICKS LOOKING AT ME LIKE I'M NO ONE
>>84403828nta but the purpose of all biological systems is to replicate. just because society is caught in a behavioral sink doesn't make that not true.and violence is fundamentally different. it is born from the desire to reproduce
>>84403877>I'VE NEVER BEEN GREAT AT CONNECTING WITH PEOPLE, I TEND TO FEEL PRETTY FAKE A LOT OF TIMES.I'm sorry anon. People have said this to me too many times. It's a really hurtful comment, especially when you're legitimately being genuine. It feels like they're saying the real you isn't good enough.>MY FRIEND IS A GOOD GUY AND I LIKE HIM, BUT I DUNNO I JUST DON'T JIVE WITH THE WAY HE IS A LOT OF THE TIME.thats fair. some of our friends can drive us crazy. as long as you keep some space and still like each other, it might still be possible to maintain the relationship in a healthy way.>I JUST NEED TO PUSH MORE AND THINGS WILL GET BETTERI believe in you anon. Sometimes when you break through you're pushing so hard that you can't hold yourself back. I hope you can find that power within yourself.>>84403889>nta but the purpose of all biological systems is to replicate.Well that's a law of biology, not a purpose. Rocks fall downwards when you drop them but that isn't morally good or evil. On the cosmic scale, it's hard to know what fate is designed for our species. Kids are nice and they bring a lot of joy, but your life still has value if you cannot or do not want to have them. It's biologically necessary that about 20% of men can't have kids with women of the same age. You don't need to blame yourself, just keep trying your best and hold your head up high. The dating market is a terrible indicator of your personal value.
>>84403686I can think of no person I've ever known less deserving of her fate. She was so kind, honest and genuine. And the worst people i know in life are thriving.>>84403849Haunting would be a surprise, i'm sure it's just because i've been thinking about her a lot the past few days because her death anniversary is coming up in a few days and i took a sleeping pill last night that always gives me weird dreams. No unresolved issues beyond wishing i could have spent more time with her, but i just think about her death constantly because of incredibly unfair it was. She was 16 and was murdered by an mentally ill incel.I don't usually remember my dreams unless they're sorta crazy, like this one.
>>84403933law, purpose, the difference is semantics.>You don't need to blame yourselfoh I don't, not entirely at least. I blame myself for not wisening up and ignoring bad advice and propaganda.At this point in my life, I realize I'm a wholly uninteresting person to the opposite sex.
>>84404057>She was 16 and was murdered by an mentally ill incel.>I don't usually remember my dreams unless they're sorta crazy, like this one.Ah, I see. I'm sorry about that. It's tragic when pieces of scum use their lives to extinguish the flame of others. It's truly despicable. I'm sorry if you miss her. Maybe you'll see her again in another life. I suppose it isn't a haunting, just the meds going crazy probably.
>>84401999all i wanna say is, those are some nice fuckin' digitsstay wholesome, anoni appreciate your efforts a lot
>>84401999Idk it is a lot. Maybe I will just sum up in a few sentences instead of everyone reading a novel. Where to begin? I hate my job and I am stuck in this small town like I am being smothered with no way out. I applied to other jobs in this small town I live in and I keep getting rejected even with a bachelors degree. I applied outside the states and I again keep getting no rejected and I feel like I am drowning on top of working from paycheck to paycheck not getting anywhere. I work and do so much and it is never enough. I have no money left over to really enjoy anything and the things I have no longer bring me much joy. I hate how I look and feel like my body is breaking down on me making me slower and bleh. I just really need a win or something really good to happen soon because idk how much more I can take of this suffering or whatever the hell this is.
>>84404069>law, purpose, the difference is semantics.In my opinion that inflates being and becoming. there's always the potential to make something better in the world, rather than continue the cycles that have hurt us for so long.>I blame myself for not wisening up and ignoring bad advice and propaganda.i'm sorry about that. i think a lot of us grew up in environments hostile to the idea of us ever having sex. It's gonna be alright.
>>84401999I'm doing too much and it's straining my body>"if you want a village, you have to be a villager"its a bit fucked since all the other villagers don't give a fuck about me
>>84401999I was about to whine about my mediocre life, but honestly today is pretty good. Is there a reason you collect a whole bunch of Megumin pictures?
>>84404074>all i wanna say is, those are some nice fuckin' digits>stay wholesome, anon>i appreciate your efforts a lotthank you very much! have a great rest of your day, anon.>>84404100I feel you. I live in a small town too and it's hard. I'm in a similar situation with a bachelor's and no good job. It's a brutal market for new people starting out. We're getting screwed kinda like the millenials in 08 imo.>I just really need a win or something really good to happen soon because idk how much more I can take of this suffering or whatever the hell this is.I really pray that it does come for you soon, and it'll help make your issues easier. Some people just don't have anything good happening to them for a long time and it sucks. It can't last forever though. If you lose a hand in poker all you can do is ante up again. I hope things turn easier for you soon.>>84404140>I'm doing too much and it's straining my bodyCan you go easier? It's not reasonable for your boss to expect you to die for him. Your frustrations are totally valid, I wouldnt tell you that inb4.Are there any new direction you can take things? I know it's not the easiest time to move around but just enduring as you suffer won't be good for you. There has to be something better out there
>>84404181>I was about to whine about my mediocre life, but honestly today is pretty good. I'm happy to hear that today was good. What'd you get up to? >Is there a reason you collect a whole bunch of Megumin pictures?I collect more characters than megumin. I have hundreds of thousands of images. Sometimes I use them to help regulate my emotions. When I feel a certain way i like to look at my pictures and identify a certain picture with my emotions. It also helps me feel more connected to the characters and helps me retain the inspiring feeling i felt from them. I liked megumin because she's so determined no matter how foolish she seems to others.
>>84401999my first semester of college is about to get over rn and I'm fucked up beyond any repairi took every single weeder, technical class (calc 2, chem, physics and electronics) at the same time because i thought if i'd take all these then i could stand a chance to maybe graduate a semester early like everyone else and save tuitionguess what? even if i grind for all my exams right now and do every single assignment for 100%, i am still going to end the semester with a 1.3 gpa. yeah, you read that rightthink its cause of multiple reasons. i'd unintentionally adopted my roommates sleep habits, who parties till 5am and comes home drunk and high, and sleeps till 2pm before repeating. The problem was he could afford to do this because all his classes were online, whereas mine were all held offline in the morning and so i ended up losing attendance credit that waythe other reason is cause i have zero friends or anyone to talk to irl so i usually ended up spending all my nights on 4chan and neglecting my assignments, which is now coming back to bite me in the ass.I used to daydream of transferring to a better major in engineering. Now I'll be lucky if my parents decide to continue paying tuition for college. I'm so unorganized, i never should have moved out. i can't wait to move back home and go through literal hell for 100 days of summer with my asian parents and i can only expect to have my ass brutally beat and humiliated in exchange for no rent. What about you?
>>84404184>Can you go easier?I'm trying to re-live my lost youth, so yeahif I go easy, I'm gonna miss out on everything...>Are there any new direction you can take things?I need to stop doing so muchbut so many people depend on me
>>84404235>even if i grind for all my exams right now and do every single assignment for 100%, i am still going to end the semester with a 1.3 gpa. yeah, you read that rightIt's gonna be okay anon. My first semester was really rough too. I had dropped out of high school and was a hikki shut in. I had to drop all of my classes but one because of panic attacks and brought a cup to class to throw up in. It was a really difficult adjustment period but I still managed to graduate on time in the end. Just barely but I made it lol. You can make it too. I get that you're really stressed out now, but please do everything in your power to not get yourself overwhelmed. >i can't wait to move back home and go through literal hell for 100 days of summer with my asian parents and i can only expect to have my ass brutally beat and humiliated in exchange for no rent. What about you?Thats horrible. I'm sorry your parents are being so hard on you. It sucks when the expectations of your parents feel crushing. It's not your fault if you're different than they want you to be. They should have accepted that part of being a parent and treated you better. I get that it hurts, but hopefully you've learned your lesson at school and won't have this problem again. College is supposed to teach you after all, right? If your life stuff is what's the hardest for you, that's what you're gonna have to spend college learning. I had similar sorts of organization issues in school. One class I forgot to go to the final and I got a C and I felt really stupid because it wasn't even intentional just an obvious retard moment. Organization is an important skill too. Maybe you can get a different roomate and things will improve? That wasn't fair to you.>>84404252>I need to stop doing so much>but so many people depend on meWould you tell me more? Who is depending on you?
>>84404372>Would you tell me more? Who is depending on you?My familyMy friendsMy accidental gfAlways been a man of circumstance, I've never chased after anything in my life, things just happen to me and I react appropriatelySo now I'm stuck in this rut of being able to easily build bridges but maintaning them is costing me both mind and soul
>>84404225>What'd you get up to?Nothing really. I got shitty sleep, dropped my mom off at the airport at 5 AM, took a nap, and then worked. I just didn't feel very sad today and that's all I need for it to be a good day.>I collect more characters than megumin. I have hundreds of thousands of images.Same here, I was just wondering if we were similar in any way. Do you also categorize the folders and make subcategories when some pics are noticeably different but belong in the folder?
>>84404488>My family>My friends>My accidental gf>Always been a man of circumstance, I've never chased after anything in my life, things just happen to me and I react appropriately>So now I'm stuck in this rut of being able to easily build bridges but maintaning them is costing me both mind and soulYou weren't made to carry the whole world on your shoulders. Isn't there space to find some time for yourself?Having some autonomy and choosing for yourself might be really good for your personal journey of self-actualizing. Another way to think about it at least, maybe. Hold onto your soul, you're gonna need it.>>84404503>Nothing really. I got shitty sleep, dropped my mom off at the airport at 5 AM, took a nap, and then worked.oh, cool what's your mom doing? have you been having a good time with her? >I just didn't feel very sad today and that's all I need for it to be a good day.that's very admirable, thank you for trying your hardest to be grateful even when the days have been hard>Do you also categorize the folders and make subcategories when some pics are noticeably different but belong in the folder?it depends on the folder. in some of them i have it seperated between high quality artwork, low quality artwork, and lewd things. I usually scrape everything off multiple sites then reconsolidate into one, do one quick round of sorting, and leave it behind. my other folders are just of homemade screengrabs of anime or manga It's cool to meet someone with the same data hoarding patterns lol.
Unsure if OP is still here but, I hate being a wage slave. I hate work. I can't pull off being a NEET either, The majority of times I've been disrespected in my adult life has happened while on the clock. Work drains color from life. It makes almost all the days of my week the same. I honestly can't tell you 3 things of interest that happened to me in the past 2 weeks. It all feels the same. Its a very boring and torturous life.
>>84404652Ow that image is so painful. Being crushed and rolled apart like that makes me sick to imagine. what a violent death.>I hate being a wage slave. I hate work. I can't pull off being a NEET either, The majority of times I've been disrespected in my adult life has happened while on the clock. Work drains color from life. It makes almost all the days of my week the same. I honestly can't tell you 3 things of interest that happened to me in the past 2 weeks. It all feels the same. Its a very boring and torturous life.You're right. Work sucks! Getting free time is awesome but we aren't allowed to have it always. It's nice to chill out and lay back. At least there are still the weekends and time after shift to do something with your time, no?
>>84404550>what's your mom doing?She's visiting a friend in another state. I'm still home so I'm not with her. I do hope that she has a good time though.>thank you for trying your hardest to be grateful even when the days have been hardI've been trying to keep this mindset for a few months and I'm still working on it.>I usually scrape everything off multiple sites then reconsolidate into oneI need to learn how to do this. I've been manually right clicking and saving my images if they get past the "Is this worth saving?" filter. Do you manually rename each image like for the megumin pics or do you have some kind of program for that as well?
>>84404681>do you have some kind of program for that as well?i used to have a program on my old computer but I don't now. I loaded up all my anime images on an external drive and take it with me when i move. it feels a bit like a diary. I manually save for a couple of my folders, I only scrape when I decide I want to have all the art on the internet of a character and begin harvesting.
Hey what's up robots, it's 1:49 am here and I can't sleep. How's everyone doing? Did you all eat something tasty today? I ate some lomitos, a type of sandwich popular in my country, it has beef meat (usually), ham, fried egg, cheese, lettuce, tomatoes, mayo, and you can add other stuff depending on the restaurant. I feel hungry even though I ate good today...
>>84401999Didn't do anything. Went to work at my cashier job. Apparently lost 5 dollars. I'm gonna get yelled at about it tomorrow.
>>84404707>I ate some lomitos, a type of sandwich popular in my country, it has beef meat (usually), ham, fried egg, cheese, lettuce, tomatoes, mayo, and you can add other stuff depending on the restaurant.Nice. That seems pretty good for having out and about on your day.>I feel hungry even though I ate good today...It's probably because you're thinking about food lol. Nothing's wrong with that.>>84404713>Apparently lost 5 dollars.>I'm gonna get yelled at about it tomorrow.Really? Over something so small? I'm really sorry to hear that anon. I hope things work out. What happened that made 5$ get lost?
>>84404652>The majority of times I've been disrespected in my adult life has happened while on the clock. Work drains color from life. It makes almost all the days of my week the same. Goddamn do I know that feelI can't even imagine a non-toxic workplace without constant screaming, drama, tuff guys spending half their time talking about how they're the most special hardworkers to ever exist, and outright childish bullyingAll done to appeal to a CEO that doesnt know their name and will dispose of them the moment it becomes convenientAm an alcoholic/junkie ofc. Only way to be happy.
Hi Anons!I'm an Asperger NEET who is skinnyfat to the point of obesity by BMI definition. I'm 25, so if I don't unfuck my shit now, I'm cooked forever. I've decided that I'm going to ride my bike a bunch and eat better this summer so I can unfuck my body before winter, as unfucking my mind will be impossible otherwise.This whole week is gonna be too cold to be out past dark (Northern New England,) as my standard bike ride is a bare minimum 14 mile 3-hour round trip... Now that I'm thinking about it, I can just have a shorter ride while the temps are tolerable on days like these. I'll do that. My sleep schedule's slightly unfucked, but I might be fucking it right now because I took a 1.5 hour nap after waking up at 5am.I want to build up my pecs too. My arms and core are alright and my legs are yoked, but my chest is absolutely pathetic! I only have a single 20lb dumbbell and I'm too fat and weak to do a single normal pushup, so I need to fix my chest somehow. I've decided that I'm going to fucking do it regardless. I have to.If a tard like me can decide to do this, you guys can too! Love and prayers to all you anons, and if shit like this sounds like a pipe dream; better late than never. Can't do if you don't try. Best of luck!
>>84404705>I loaded up all my anime images on an external drive and take it with me when i move.Damn, I need to get on your level. I just have some irl ones I liked backed up on different hard drive. Everything else is just on this laptop.>I only scrape when I decide I want to have all the art on the internet of a character and begin harvesting.Are there any characters besides Megumin that you're like that with?>>84404713>Went to work at my cashier job.Fellow retail anon, is your store a small and understaffed store?
>>84404757>Am an alcoholic/junkie ofc. Only way to be happy.There is a sort of romantic appeal in being a detatched observer not giving a damn what happens, but somebody's got to hold the bag eventually.It sucks how parasitic some people are in life though.>>84404760Good luck anon. We're all gonna make it. You'll get back in shape, I know it. Bad weather makes doing fitness a lot more annoying but you can still do it. If you can stick to a good plan, you're guaranteed to succeed. Thank you for being so kind.>>84404762>Everything else is just on this laptop.That's okay. You're probably a lot healthier with it on there than different drives>Are there any characters besides Megumin that you're like that with?Yeah I have a couple series like TTGL and KLK and Fate and Cyberpunk. I'm kind of a trigger superfan.
>>84404753I got them on delivery to my house! Well, the house I'm staying temporarily in, I'll be here for less than a month, while my partner's visiting me. Maybe in some months I'll go to Spain with him!And yeah... I'm thinking about those lomitos, it was so tasty... I want to eat more, even though I'm not hungry, I just have an appetite.Also these kind of threads are so comfy, wish these would be a kind of general.
>>84404809>Well, the house I'm staying temporarily in, I'll be here for less than a month, while my partner's visiting me. Maybe in some months I'll go to Spain with him!Sounds like you're at an interesting time in your life. I hope you feel excited about the world right now. Hope you're happy with your partner :)>Also these kind of threads are so comfy, wish these would be a kind of general.sure, if there's support for it. that sounds nice to drop by for.
OMG! Epstein Gooned in Diddy's Mouth!And Megumin is a witness! OMG
>>84404831Honestly it all feels like a dream after going through so much shit and storms in my life. Both literal and figuratively. Having CPTSD/BPD due to childhood trauma, depression, having gone through a pandemic... I never imagined I could be so happy, even if my brain feels damaged and scarred.I've made some threads like these before, general chatroom threads, and very nice people come along to talk, hehe. Are you doing well though? How's life treating you?
>>84404757Oh yeah I see some drama but not the worst. Yeah being employed means you are nothing but a number. Something to be disposed of at earliest convenience. Job security is an illusion for the vast majority of people who work.
>>84401999been chillin playing Resident Evil 9, today, as of the time of posting its my birthday, I was born on my mom B-day so we are going out to AYCE and drinking, gonna be a fun day anon
>>84404867>been chillin playing Resident Evil 9, today, as of the time of posting its my birthday, I was born on my mom B-day so we are going out to AYCE and drinking, gonna be a fun day anonthat sounds awesome. happy birthday! im really excited to play re9 but i havent yet.
>>84404904Thank you, anon, hope you do pick up RE9 its great. I put it up there as my top 3 in the series
>>84401999My coof has gotten better! I am glad that my left ear isn't ringing and my boogers arent bloody anymore! I am however afraid to open my emails knowing that my contacts will be hounding me for the work that I've left undone, at least I can start working on them now.
>>84404842>Honestly it all feels like a dream after going through so much shit and storms in my life. Both literal and figuratively. Having CPTSD/BPD due to childhood trauma, depression, having gone through a pandemic... I never imagined I could be so happy, even if my brain feels damaged and scarred.yeah i sort of relate with you on that. i think most people on r9k probably relate a little to feeling broken. i try not to be too weird but after a while you genuinely start being different from other people. it's a lonely feeling, but even still we can find our happiness. That's encouraging in a way.>I've made some threads like these before, general chatroom threads, and very nice people come along to talk, hehe. Are you doing well though? How's life treating you?I'm doing alright. I've been able to live a bit of life and I'm grateful for it. i'm trying to do something with my life. going to grad school, moving to a new country. hoping there's something at the end of the road where I'm useful.
>>84402288Late reply since I had to go sleep for work. I am indeed tired when I get home and pretty much eat and sit behind my laptop a bit. Schedule is shit so I have to go to bed relatively soon after getting home. This is only for a while though. I will be havind other problems later but that is another conversation. At least I am not stuck in this specific grind for long And I am reading, "The oak and the larch, a forest history of Russia and it's empire". Pretty good! A crash course of Russian history but through the perspective of the forests so to say.
>>84405021>The oak and the larch, a forest history of Russia and it's empire That sounds really interesting. There must be so much richness even in a tiny detail on the grand scale of things. I hope I can check it out sometime. You seem pretty smart to be reading a book like that. Are you?>>84404921Really? That sounds super awesome then. As someone who always preferred 1 and 2 to 4 i was really hoping for the best with the survival horror.>>84404931Sorry anon. It sucks how sick days don't even give you relief because you have to come back and work extra later. Makes it impossible to actually feel better lol. Glad you're on the mend, though. take care of yourself please.anyways, it's bed time. goodnight everybody, thank you for sharing your stories. it's nice to hear from real live humans.
>>84405014I imagine most people on 4chan kinda relate to the feeling of being odd and a bit ostracized and abandoned by society, why else would we post in here? Hahah. I kinda like the fact now that I'm different from others, that I can see things from a different perspective and can offer insight that others maybe can't see due to their worldview and experiences.Moving to another country is fucking brutal, I'm really happy you're doing your best and keeping your head above the water, you're definitely going to achieve something great if you keep this up. Even if it's just staying alive or helping someone, that's amazing in it's own right. Not everyone manages to achieve those two things.
>>84405041I work in a warehouse and am 30 without ever having a GF. If I am smart it did not matter at all anon. But thanks for thinking that. Book is not that big brain level or anything. Again sort of like a crash course. So check it out if you want it is not some heavy reading or anything.
>>84403828>Have you found anything that makes you happy yet? Would you describe your feelings as more anxious or sad or despairing?Yes, I have, but when I disconnect from them the world return to its blandness. My feelings are more about sadness with a bit of anxiety. >I hope you don't mind if I offer my opinion: you still have your heart in your chest. As long as you don't give up, there's always still a chance. Thinking of yourself as some member of an incel class is just gonna seperate you from others i think.You are right about that, though now the problem is not giving up. >If you do die a virgin though, what's wrong with that?I'm curious about having sex and sex is a way to bond with someone else. The way I see it, having sex with someone you love implies having a relationship where two people love each other, so missing sex is missing not only carnal pleasures but a form of affection.
