>>84403941
Why would I love myself?

>>84403941
Just as a parent loves their child that they'd restrict/forbid the child from certain things, so to do I love myself by denying myself the pleasures of life

>>84403941
the people who tell me to love myself are always the ones who don't want to be my friends.
why I should love myself if non of you gonna love me back also what is fucking means to love myself?
I supposed to think I have talent even when I am talentless and legitimately retarded.
I probably have an IQ of less than 80 when I think about it.
society always taught me to hate retarded people so when they say to love myself is the biggest contradiction.

>>84404027
Because despite all of the bullshit you're still here. You're still breathing. The past doesn't matter. Your age doesn't matter. There's a better than not chance that in the future, you'll find yourself in a moment where you're happy to be alive.
>>84404120
The fact you wrote this properly means you're not as retarded as you might think.

>>84404144
>The fact you wrote this properly means you're not as retarded as you might think
you're barely know me, I have autism, language impairment and probably depression or other undiagnosed cognitive disability.
I was in normal class in primary school and because I was so retarded I got kick out to special ed in middle and high school.
my parents forced me to take a QA course and work as a software manual tester in a tech company (the most retarded profession with zero skills)
I failed miserably working at the company and I was quiet fired and forced to resign.
then my parents forced me to take bookkeeping course and I failed miserably to self study and I didn't understand a thing from the course.
I wasted all my early 20s building a career because I am extremely retarded and I can't learn shit and understand the most basic things.

I think there are two ways to be retarded:
1: being uneducated unable to self study and self improve
2: being a passive yes man and not thinking independent or comparing and analyzing others

most people in society are retarded in the latter but being capable of being useful members of society.
I can self therapy and analyze myself but everything that requires thinking is out of my ability.
maybe normies can't understand the difference but from my interactions with them
they can't accept my existence because I am not good enough for their standards
but at the same time they get confused because I don't act like a retarded low functioning autists.

my life is basically the high functioning autist dilemma on extreme.

>>84403941
I only really love myself when I'm drunk. Other than that I feel completely ashamed because society has deemed me to be unimportant.

>>84403941
If you don't naturally love yourself, it becomes a choice, like learning new things or killing yourself.
You will not be celebrated for this choice, and you might be admonished for it, but this is a choice for you to make. Even if you don't think there's anything to love, especially if there isn't anything to love, making the choice to care about yourself is a choice only you can take.

loving myself is easy, actually doing something with my life is hard. If I don't occasionnaly force some self hatred, I will just do nothing my entire life.

>>84403941
First things first, how do I know if I hate myself?

>>84404144
>Because despite all of the bullshit you're still here.
Been here is not reason for love.
There are infinite numbers of things around and we only love the few