what does loneliness feel like is that all that I feel? I have been feeling really bad a lot
>>84411719Are you wondering if what you're feeling is loneliness?
>>84411764Yes essentially
>>84411719Loneliness is worse when you know good company for a little while. When you miss being able to freely share stuff with someone, when you miss their reactions and joy at being with you, that's when loneliness truly hits you
>>84411792Have you tried going to a collective experience?A concert. A theater. A movie theater.
>>84411719It feels like being lost
>>84411719Because physical touch is one of the most important things in life, and you arent allowed to have it or even want it
>>84412460Not op but what do you plan to do about it?
>>84412625I have faith and trust. The next step is she contacts me.
>>84412647Keep living in your delusion
>>84412681Not delusion. Soulmates. Made for and complete each other. Nothing will ever change that
>>84411719staying here will help you maintain that bad feeling
>>84411719I had a dream that made me realize that I truly appreciate having family>be me>have to go to grandparents house>grandpa is gone so grandma is left>old and demented>still super sweet>probably nearing the end of her life tho>whatever.webp>open fridge>pancakes.>there's nothing but pancakes>she's so old and barely knows how to do anything but she still knows how to make the one food i loved as a child>nearly break down>wake up snifflingHug your loved ones bros.
>>84411719It feels like sitting in a silent grey room where everything is meaningless and you aren't a real person. It feels like waking up with your jaw hurting because you've been grinding your teeth all night. It feels like an overwhelming desire to go to a home you don't even know how to define anymore. I went out to a group dinner last night. I talked with people, laughed, had interesting conversation. It hit me on the way home, I feel more alone than ever. Attempting to socialize just reinforces how lonely I am and how I'm an NPC in my own life. If I wasn't certain hell was real and I would immediately go there for doing so I'd put my affairs in order and seek oblivion.
