i just realized the reason i wanted to keep myself pure and inexperienced was entirely from my complex of wanting someone as inexperienced and lonely as i was, i wanted to deserve such a person and knew they (incels) only liked pure girls, but all it did was make me stay with people who forced themselves on me or decided i was theirs, who had long sexual histories and only had those standards for women not themselves, not fitting what i had wanted at all. but by then i didnt even remember the reason i wanted to be pure in the first place, and had instead completely eradicated the concept of personal autonomous desire, and only understood bending to the wills of others. i always hate good girl x womanizer couples in movies, i hated the double standard, i wanted to either match the guy and be bad or have a good guy, thats where it all stemmed. remembering ur own likes and dislikes after refusing urself anything of the sort for years really sucks and idk what to do. i have no respect for myself and will go on to die young and never marry or have kids, i ruined my own dreams
>>84455101Good kys fucking bitch nobody will miss you.
>>84455101I've kept my promises to my moon from the day we met forward-sun
Post your tits before killing yourself, thanks.
so you're an edit-er, edit-ing the way the world is until its nicely and neatly edit-ed exactly the way you want it. i think i know a narrator who only wants to describe the world and become just like it instead of actually ever changing it. anyway, i think im an edit-er too. only i only want to edit myself. i guess i dont really care about the world at all.i think love is something seperate from all of us and it wants what it wants just like we all do. if you ever want to fall in love you will have to do what it wants not what you want.hint: it likes to make people crash into each other.
>>84455101tl;dr sounds like you're one of them people that make the world worse.if it makes you feel better you're not alone in that.
>>84455193crash.
