Hi y'all I'm doing this again cuz I'm bored. I post on LGBT and it's great but I also wanna do one here. For reference I was a prostitute from 15-18 and it sucked and gave me trauma shit. ASK ME ANYTHING!
>>84457119How much Black meat did you take whiteboi?
howdy. howd you get started?
>>84457119This is they gayest thread since gay came to gaytown
>>84457119are you sex repulsed now? what do women in your life say when you tell them? did you ever enjoy it? I assume you were the bottom.
>>84457119Are you ever going to stop doing and encouraging this?Last thread you talked about the STDs you had and how you were raped, yet here you are again, sharing porn and basically wallowing in it.You seek to traumatize people the same way you have been traumatized, that's why you do this. Shameful.
>>84457119You disgust me, you fucking faggot. Have some DIGNITY, please.
>>84457290hes trying his best! so dont be mean.
>>84457131I took a decent amount. Mostly white meat but I got some black dick>>84457164Seeking the feeling of being wanted and hated myself led me down that path of degrading myself for older gross men. Then drugs and abuse and it all kinda spiraled>>84457173Well I'm gay sooo
>>84457179Yes I was the bottom and I'm not repulsed by sex now I still enjoy it but I do have mild erectile dysfunction along with sometimes crying during sex. And sometimes I enjoyd it but that was like VERY RARE. And most women are actually decently fine with it, but not to date. I make sure to tell any women or man I'm interested in and justifyibly they don't like me after>>84457214Na bruzz>>84457282I mean yea but I'm going to therapy now so that's a plus>>84457290Alright bruzz>>84457303YES THANK YOU ANON
>>84457119>ASK ME ANYTHING!Where do I find a femboy, who isn't mentally ill?
>>84457360no, i mean. howd you really get started, not why. you were a rent boy, bruvv. werent you? so tell me about how you got your job.
Okay, first things first, what sexual orientation do you identify as currently? What about back when you were hustling?
Do U enjoy being stared at?
>>84457365Sad bro. You shouldn't hate yourself, but you also shouldn't celebrate the fact that you are sick.
This is a very obvious fetish larp
>>84457460and dont you think the picrel choices are interesting. so many men, all directing their gaze (downward) at the source of their desire. and the answers to all our questions. are they structured the same way?
Did you ever Fall In Love?
>>84457377You can't rlly. Most are mentally ill in some way or another>>84457388Basically I started by asking where people were around where I live on reddit, 4chan, and Grindr and meeting up with people just for casual sex. After a while I wanted to save up for moving out so I started asking people for money to do different things. And when I would tell them I'm a minor most would actually pay to have sex with someone underage. The best apps were grindr, FetLife, and 4chan, and reddit.
>>84457516oh really? howd your texts go, may i ask? were they fun and flirty? were you so-over-the-top? were they thrilling? was your heart pounding? and when you got to the meet-up. were you tingly all over?
Hey hot stuff! Did you ever get attention from the boys at school, asked out to the prom, given a Valentine's card? Or were they just kinda dead around you lol
>>84457415I have always really identified as either bi or pan. Currently I'm pansexual and I think it'll stay that way>>84457451Honestly yea. I really love the feeling of attention and maybe even a little groping. I feel disgusted with myself because of it but I would be lying if I said I don't like attention>>84457453Yeaa, both are def true
>>84457460Bro no I wish it was. Shit like this actually just happens. It's not glamours or sexy. You feel like shit, you hate your life, and you don't even know why you keep going.>>84457487I don't know what this means but I can say it doesn't feel great always being stared down at like your worth less than dirt>>84457497No, there were a few who I would consider dating but I never fell for anyone
>>84457612>I really love the feeling of attentionYou do!? Did you have lotsa friends orrrrrrrrrr did you find it hard to keep friends when the word got out?
>>84457562It surprisingly felt more like a business transaction more often than not. Most of the time it would be some small talk I flirt a lil, they send a dick pic. A little more flirting and then a date, time, and payment. But sometimes it gets more flirty and more dirty. I was a lil over the top with my slutty ess usually but that's just cuz thats what men like. For women I would chit chat alot more and would ask more about them. And yea it never really lost the feeling of being nerve racking but after a while it became more routing. My first few times though my whole body would shake and I would be so nervous>>84457587They were kinda just dead to me. I got some girls in my school but since I started being a prostitute I would kinda stop all romances in school. I never got a Valentine's card and I don't go to prom
>>84457647>I don't know what this means but I can say it doesn't feel great always being stared down at like your worth less than dirtyou really dont enjoy being stared down at? honest?how do you want to be stared at?
>>84457119Can you greentext some of your roughest and most degrading experiences?
>>84457612>I have always really identified as either bi or pan. Currently I'm pansexual and I think it'll stay that wayMore towards men or women? Or 50/50? Did having sex with mostly men back then skew attraction towards them?
>>84457683>My first few times though my whole body would shake and I would be so nervousa good nervous or a bad nervous? you dont get nervous anymore do you? do you ever wish you could get that feeling back?
what would be your advice for other young bifags like you were for their future in dating and sex?
>>84457119Why do you keep watching porn and sleeping with strangers?
>>84457649No I got a lot of friends and I still have some. I cut out all the freinds that enabled the drug abuse.>>84457684No I love to be stared at trust me I do. Especially in the streets wearing like a mini skirt or something seeing people stare. I love it. I don't like it when it's my 5 gangbang this week and they think just because they fuck me they can beat me and treat me like I'm not a person>>84457687Hmmm I'll respond back to this. Also how do I green text? Idk how sorry>>84457694More towards women desu. I'm pretty 50/50 but I prefer women they are hotter and kiss better and they can peg me which is hella hot lmao
Were the jobs mostly in-call or out-call? Ever had do go on some dirty trip with a client for a few days?
>>84457705I wish I could get it back a little. But more cuz I want the feeling of being nervous about sex. I have been so desensitized to it now I usually either feel disgusted or just sorta like something you do. Nothing to be nervous Abt. Do yes I miss it a lil>>84457712Don't whore yourself out just because you can. Take time and develop relationships. You don't have to only do long term it's ok to sleep around a bit, but don't white yourself out to the point where you feel bad Abt yourself>>84457740Porn because I have such a bad addiction it's almost impossible to get rid of. And I rarely sleep with strangers now because I have kinda had my fill yk. I cant exactly develop relationships and have a gf or bf very easily. And so when I need sex I go to a club and find someone nice and cute and do it. Not some fat ugly weirdo
what did you spend your money on? clothes?
>>84457761Mostly out call where I would meet them as I didn't have a place to live other than my parents houses. And yea clients could book me for multiple days sometimes even a week. Only 1 time did I have a client take me on a kind of trip. It wasa guy in his mid 30s who was going to Miami and he asked me if I wanted to come with and he would pay me 1500 for a weekend. So l I said yes and basically acted like his sissy bf. I would hold his arm sometimes, we sat together and I would be nice to him and talk with him outside of sex. I didn't like him but money is money yk. I would wear a really slutty one piece bathing suit with an open back to it and he would grope me on the beach and we would have a ton of sex. After 2 days we went back and that was that.
>>84457119Do you have any pics, or are you just gonna post hentai?You clearly came here for attention and are a hopeless fag
>>84457838what was living with your parents like?
>>84457834Spent my money on moving out and saving. Had to get away from my parents>>84457856Gonna just post hentai sryyy. If u wanted pics should have sent me when I was still a whore prostitute :)
How much do you cost? I wanna get my dick wet so I'm willing to drive a bit too.
>>84457874So you're just larping for attention. Way to out yourself.
did you post nudes last thread? can you post them now?
>>84457647>No, there were a few who I would consider dating but I never fell for anyoneNo I mean. Have you ever been in love?
>>84457119Do you intend to die like this? How can you afford to do this? Are you a neet? Do you work?
>>84457119You never answered my question, faggot. Do you know how to suck good dick and make a niggas toes curl, while you suck the balls, kiss the tip, suck the shaft, make his nipples hard, give him goosebumps, make him push your head down so he hits the back of your throat and makes him feel amazing? I'm asking for a friend.
>>84457748>Hmmm I'll respond back to this. Also how do I green text? Idk how sorryYou just add a right facing arrow before typing.>like this
>>84457119What's the most disgusting/degrading thing you were made to do?
How old are you now? Do you live by yourself or?
>>84457748>the drug abuse.what are your favorite drugs?
>>84457878I'm not selling anymore sorryyyy>>84457883No it's just that since I stopped whoring myself out I present way more masculine and I haven't shaved in a bit.>>84457894I did not and no. St most maybe an ass picture when I get off of work>>84457899Ohhh, yes I have been in love before. But Its never lasted too long>>84457904No I stopped Abt a year ago I'm 19 now. And I work now. I wasn't able to get a job before I moved out
>>84458019>yes I have been in love before.what was it like? fun or kinda boring?
>>84457912Yes... Yes I do. I have only gotten good reviews. Some men even stocked me after I sucked them off. And I have done all of that before.>>84457953>Wait like thisI'm just testing it out
>>84458050I aint gay but I would love to know what that mouth do. Like only out of curiosity but i'm straight. I bet it feels amazing
>>84458081you guys would make a great couple.
>>84458101Dont mess with a bull or youll get the horns, faggot. I'm not gay but he would be gay with his lips around my dick
>>84457970Imma do this in a bit cuz it's a long story. Not that long I just can't do a ton of typing rn>>8445798319 and I have 2 roomates>>84457998I have been clean for a bit now but when I was going to a customer I would usually do some coke. I tried to stay away from meth and heroin and stuff but coke was always a good bump and I would almost always smoke some weed or drink as well>>84458036Not boring but not fun. More like sad, it was a constant up and down of dopamine from the high of being a slut and sex and stuff and drugs to a low that crashed you down to self harm and suicide. And I rode that coaster up and down for 3 years. Shi is not fun
>>84458128from his lips to god's ears.
any good bdsm senerios you were involved in, lifestyle dynamics?
>>84458129when you say you were in love. what did you love about your lover? what did your lover love about you?
>>84458050Why'd you quit if you were making good money doing something you enjoy? What not just be more selective with your clients?
Do you like the way you look? Anything you'd want to change?
Would you recommend indulging in cock or should I hold out for a girlfriend?
>>84457970Sorry for the long wait I'm at work rnBut the most humilting and degrading thing I have ever done is probably when this guy told me he has a piss kink. So do I so I thought it was ok and he asked me to show up in a normalish outfit. So I wore some bootleg jeans, a shoulder less sweater and some boots. I show up and he gives me some weed and some tequila shots. After a bit I start sucking him off while he calls me garbage and dirty and a bitch. Ayo I feel very fucked up and not well and like I'm gonna puke. But I keep going, and as I take the plug out so that way he can fuck me I start really having to puke. I tell him but he says that I'll be fine, I agree and only about a minute into doggy I end up pulling on myself and all over his bed. As I'm still delirious and apologizeing he keeps on fucking me from behind. And then he ends up shoving my head down into the puke as he keeps going atp we're both messy and after Abt 20 minutes he finishes on top of my chest in mitionary. After he finished he told me to get dressed but he would give me an extra 200 to not clean myself off beforehand and to pee on me and for my to piss myself fully clothed. Regretfully now I accepted the money and got dressed and he peed on me and then since I had been holding in my piss I peed my panties and my pants. Ok it sounds kinda hot but it wasn't I fucking smelt and felt disgusting and cried for almost an hour in my car and scrubbed my body in the shower for almost 2 and threw out those clothes
>>84458562Of the people who raped you and did degrading shit to you, what ethnicity were they?And what ethnicity are you?
>>84458136Hehe that's funny I can't even lie>>84458155Hmm not rlly I don't love bdsm so I haven't had too much going on. The most I guess is when I was kinda in this throuple with this married couple that took turns with me and cucked each other. The wife would like me in lingerie and pegging me and sometimes I would fuck her. But that's kinda the most sorryyy>>84458169I loved her more than anything and she loved me. Situations happened and we never even got together. She's one of the only people that accepted me during my prostitution
>>84458562Damn that sounds rough. Do you feel like experiencing stuff like this has caused you to develop any trauma?
>>84458178I didn't REALLY enjoy it that much. It was just a job that would make me want to kms. And I wasn't making great money. I undercut myself back then looking back at it only making around 90k for 3 years of work. And I would but it's just not worth the mental state. I would love to be like 1 persons maid or something that they can fuck and order around. But different clients and stuff just nah>>84458189I do. I'm pretty attractive for a man and when I go full fem Im pretty good looking as well. I would just give myself a bigger ass and a less defined jaw line>>84458361Indulge in cock if you want but just don't whore yourself out. Do whatever you want bruzz. Although girlfriends are amazing
>>84458712All white men. And I'm Hispanic and white>>84458737Oh 100000% for a long time I would have nightmares almost every night and then smoke to try and go back sleep feeding the addiction. It's not fun and yea it has caused me some trauma. I'm going to therapy now tho so that's good :)
>>84458714how did she break up with you?
>>84457873Sorry I ignored this I didn't see it. It was awful, they didn't care Abt me unless they were beating me. My brother raped me when I was 14 and definitely was the cause of all this. They wouldn't let me get a job and if they found out I got a job (which they did) they would harass the managers and other employees until I would get fired. They didn't want me to have money or move out at all. Also they were huge addicts, alcohol and drugs yk. They never cared where I went which was good enough at least. So that's how I was able to do the things I did
>>84458836>>84458836She was moving away and things just wouldn't work out. I tried but we both kinda knew it wasnt gonna work. She did t cheat or nothing. More just like an unfortunate situation and timing of everything
>>84457119i'm a gigabottom and still closeted, i haven't even gotten close to losing my anal virginity even though i fantasize about it every day. if you were in your mid twenties and still a virgin, what would you do?
>>84458890Not do it, so you avoid getting hemmoroids or fucking up your shithole.If you're going to do anything, just leave your butt alone, otherwise youll be a diaper fag in your 30s because you wont be able to hold your shit in.
>>84458919"you'll wear a diaper in your 30s" is conservative propaganda to dissuade bicurious people from anal. or at best it's a myth propagated by closeted people with internalized homophobia as a means to avoid embracing who you are. i'd know because i was the latter, but gave it up once i learned anal is very safe even when you make mistakes. fucking up your shithole to the extent of wearing a diaper would require you to do rough anal fistings every day without lube, something i have no interest in doing. look up the science about it if you have any interest in seeking the truth
>>84458890I say actually try dating men. And look for someone clean with no std and nice. But if you kinda just wanna lose your anal virginity but not wanna date men. Try out out FetLife, alot of women who are into pegging go on there so try to find one. Along with grindr but please ask them if they are clean first and go for someone around your age and not ugly. Trust me you'll regret it. And if your looking for tips make sure to duche and if you don't have a duche go into the show and spread you ass as much as you can and let the water clean yourself out. Then finger yourself with only 1 finger and try to open yourself up a little more and go back under the water to really clean yourself. Use tons of lube and prep before hand via butt plug or by riding a dildo beforehand. And don't be ashamed to go slow at first and let your ass adjust to the penis. Other than those tips have fun and be safe>>84458919Actually just false. Thanks for the input tho
>>84458959>>84458978It's not propaganda if its true. I'm speaking as somebody whose used to be involved in this type of stuff, and thankfully dodged the bullet.Your rectum was objectively not designed to put things into it in the reverse direction, there is no precedent in nature for this to occur. In order to do it and to even make it safe, you need to hydrate constantly, use an abundance of lubricant, train it consistently, and even then you're still risking strain if you don't know how to relax it. Overuse will also fuck it up, so if you're getting slammed more than once a week then you're at high risk. Almost every gay pornstar has it, almost every tranny you see in porn has it.>look up the science about it I have, so why are you guys lying? The truth is that it is risky and can cause damage, and the older you get, the more you will be at risk. Do you ever have blood in your stool? Do you have a bump? Does your body struggle to keep it shut because you're damaged the muscle? Even if you say no to any of this, you're still a statistical exception. Most bottoms have this.
>>84459026I think it's a risk if you overuse it duh but it's about giving it time to heal. I had to give mine almost 2 months to go back to normal but that's coming from someone who was getting railed multiple times per week. The average person will be fine and it's not something you have to worry about.
On the other board you said you're trooning out.Are you? When do you start? Why?Not asking to be an asshole (no pun intended). I went "hrt femboy" after my whore phase and never really stopped lol.
>>84459026>Most bottoms have this.thank you for providing a falsifiable statement. you may now realize how wrong you are.>prevalence of hemorrhoids was actually lower among men who reported receptive anal intercourse (18.3%) compared to those who did not (30.8%) (source: sti.bmj.com/content/87/Suppl_1/A102.1.short)>involuntary stool leakage in the past month is only at 8% (source: sciencedirect.com/science/article/abs/pii/S1743609521006238)>only 23% of those with involuntary stool leakage reported experiencing it often or always. The risk of severe FI increased significantly only with very frequent RAI (at least once a week) and other extreme practices (source: see article above)closeted behavior is so predictable, it makes me cringe at my younger self.
>>84459062I consider myself trans but I haven't started hrt yet. I'm planning to start next month. And I felt like a girl for a while and I wanna start being fr about it
>>84459060>If I stop cutting myself for two months it will heal and then I can go back to cutting myself.Fantastic. Meanwhile the smart people will stick to blowjobs and testing their partners beforehand.
>>84459079Read your own stupid source dipshit.>among men who reported receptive anal intercourse >ReportedSo they didn't actually test these individuals to verify their claims? And you for whatever reason trust their anecdotal opinion on their own health.There is a reason Self Reported studies on penis size are unreliable, because men always overvalue their size. And same here, people aren't going to admit to something that is shameful.Now unless you can cite an Actual Study where they verified that these people were Actually Healthy, I will dismiss everything you have to say, because you're a midwit.Even your own studies would indicate that there is an increased prevalence of incontinence with anal sex! That number is not negligible!>closeted behaviorYou're a midwit.
>>84459093To each their own man. Most people know their limits and at the first sight of permanent damage they might stop or they might not. Let people live and make choices. All we can do is give advice
>>84459086Makes sense.Pro-tip: ditch the 'feel like a girl' brainworm. It will make existence far easier.Being an estrogenized faggot is nice, but it's a chore (both mentally and logistically) to get everyone else to see you as a girl no matter how passoid you are/become. When I put in the effort me and my bf are read as a straight couple but it's way too much effort and unironically more restrictive too.Don't step into another mental prison. Get E, find love and work from there.
>>84459121Would you apply that same logic to somebody who cuts themselves? Or somebody who eats unhealthy and is obese? Or somebody who smokes and does drugs? To each their own right?We don't have to actually define objectively healthy and unhealthy behavior because its all morally relative, and society is going down the shitter while everyone just basically kills themselves slowly, but hey, it's your choice to harm yourself! So I guess all morality is justified by that fact alone, consequences be damned.
>>84459110>completely ignores the sciencedirect studyyou said "most bottoms have this", which would imply 50%+/-, but 22000 bottoms say 8%+/-. you hate anal yet you deliberately enter a thread about a former gay bottom prostitute. do some introspection about that, for your sake
>>84459163Entering a thread to actually be the voice of reason and not somebody who doesn't understand how research works and propagates lies to reinforce their delusions, man I'm such a bad guy.Show me a study that isn't Self Reported, retard.
>>84459126Actually based logic. Your so cool>>84459154Those are way different than anal sex bruh>>84459163YES THANK YOU THANK YOU I LOVE YOU YOUR SO COOL>>84459190Bro... Just admit defeat. Your in the wrong lobby bruh
>>84457119Are you the same prostitute anon on lgbt?
>>84459190>Show me a study that isn't Self Reportedok>1. Receptive anal sex was NOT associated with hemorrhoids in a study of 473 HIV-positive patients. (source: https://www.scilit.net/publications/b202ddfec2cbafcc098a3ca511ae6194)>2. Among 616 gay and bisexual men, 65.3% had anorectal findings like hemorrhoids, but 62% were asymptomatic. This shows pathology is common but often harmless, not a progressive disease. (source: https://research.monash.edu/en/publications/self-reported-anal-symptoms-and-their-association-with-anal-patho)>3. A controlled 1997 study found no difference in incontinence levels between homosexual men who engaged in anal sex and heterosexual men who did not. (source: https://www.semanticscholar.org/paper/Anal-sphincter-structure-and-function-in-homosexual-Chun-Rose/82f6bdfbee7c128598f9a77833e2d180d157f06a)>4. A 2024 narrative review confirms anal sex is a risk factor for incontinence, but only with additional risk factors like high frequency, chemsex, or fisting, not a default outcome. (source: https://link.springer.com/article/10.1007/s10508-024-02995-2)none of these are self-reported. stop ignoring the truth in front of your eyes
>>84459256Yep!>>84459271YEP YOU TELL HIM FUCK YEAAA
>>84459271This is not the own you think it is.>All these people who have AIDS don't have fecal incontinenceMan you sure showed me. Nice jobs alos pointing out that most of them had hemmoroids, yet another reason why Anal is bad.>But they're asymptomaticOh so they only bleed once a month, nice.Stop ignoring the fact that you are unhealthy.
>>84457214>Last thread you talked about the STDs you hadi didn't read the old thread, what STDs did you get?
>>84459362Ghoneria, syphilis are the main ones. I'm clear now tho
>>84459250>Your so coolErrr... idk. I'm rather just pragmatic.Also, there is another reason to avoid insisting in public that you're a girl/woman: you get a lot of ambiguity. Which can be fun but also a conversation opener. I made quite a few new friends/acquaintances and one very close friend with the conversation starting with "mrs. Nona" and me neither denying nor confirming.Also, I'm a stadium hooligan. The estrogenized faggot (me) is a lot more popular with the ultras than you'd be given the impression in queer/fag spaces. Most people, even the chuddiest ones, are a lot more chill when you don't insist you're literally the opposite sex. Also, it's simply easier (i don't like or want to always be on guard with every single mannerism and looks element to make sure it reads fem enough, like fuck that).You do you but do try, at least at first, to run with my advice.
>>84457119>Hi y'all I'm doing this again cuz I'm bored. I post on LGBTQ and it's great but I also wanna do one here. For reference I was a prostitute from 15-18 and it sucked and gave me trauma sheit. ASK ME ANYTHING!
>>84459382Yea, I think those are all struggles you need to deal with. And I think it's valid if you don't think that those struggles are worth it. But some people do yk. And I want to go through that to become who I truly want to
>>84459361stop ignoring the fact that you are a massive bottom who loves to be groped and manhandled all over by men while they passionately plow into you from behind. i bet you got hard reading this you fucking faggot. keep being pedantic with every piece of scientific evidence to run away from the truth while you fantasize every night about being ravaged and used by someone who loves you for it, i'm sure it's not causing you any stress or existential dread, you're a healthy individual on /r9k/ like everyone else here after all
>>84457290never understood why people seethe over dignity when it comes to sex workIt's better if someone makes money via sex work rather than scamming/robbing people.
>>84459414That's basically it. You actually summed it up pretty good lol
>>84457131>How much nigger cock did you take whiteboy?
>>84459444its funny cause he admits hes not white (>>84458824) but engages in the racial cuckoldry larp anyway
>>84457365>Yes I was the bottom and I'm not repulsed by sex now I still enjoy it but I do have mild erectile dysfunction along with sometimes crying during sex. And sometimes I enjoyd it but that was like VERY RARE. And most women are actually decently fine with it, but not to date. I make sure to tell any women or man I'm interested in and justifyibly they don't like me after>>>84457282>I mean yea but I'm going to therapy now so that's a plus
>>84459432Alright man and what Abt it. U don't like me go to another board damn. Nobody gives a fuck>>84459444Tldr, alot>>84459433True. I never scammed nobody and I was always upfront with my prices
>>84459461I mean I'm half white and most people assume I'm white so idk I just take it as I'm both. Not that deep
>>84459461>its funny cause he admits hes not white (>>84458824) but engages in the racial cuckoldry live action role play anyway
>>84459461This is normally the case, the Vast Majority of Trans and gays are non-white, but they larp as White because White People are still the msot sexually sought after, ironically even in cuckhold and inferiority content people still fetishize them more.
>>84457612>>>84457415>I have always really identified as either bi or pan. Currently I'm pansexual and I think it'll stay that way>>>>84457451>Honestly yeah. I really love the feeling of attention and maybe even a little groping. I feel disgusted with myself because of it but I would be lying if I said I don't like attention
>>84459485>im white bruh its not that deep bruh
>>84459492Bro I'm not larping being white I'm just half what are y'all on
>>84459507you know no one gets offended by these pictures in the year 2017+9, right?
>>84459524>sweetie you know no one gets offended by these pictures in the year 2017+9, right?
>>84459538fuck i should have said sweetie first so you looked dumb before i did, damnit i'll get you next time
>>84459547C'mon that's ragebait 202 u gotta do better
>>84459547>fuark i should have said sweetie first so you looked dumb before i did, damn it i'll get you next time
>>84457119do you look like a cis girl?
>>84459565>C'mon that's ragebait 101 u gotta do better
>>84459514>Bro I'm not larping being white I'm just half what are y'all onhows the weather in india saar
>>84459086>I consider myself trans but I haven't started hormon replacement theory yet. I'm planning to start next month. And I felt like a girl for a while and I wanna start being fr about it
>>84459581No unfortunately not. With makeup and fem clothes I can pass but in my normal day to day I look like a dude. I'm starting hrt soon so YAAYA
>>84459615the only reason why i'm not doing hrt myself is because i'll never look like the futa goddess in your picrel. why take hrt then? for some small general improvements to your body? for the hope that one day science will allow you to have the full extent of the nymphomaniac body you deserve and need?
>>84459674nta>why take hrt then? for some small general improvements to your body?That's basically why I did it (and still do). I was OP's age when I started and I'm 30 now.Short term it didn't seem to do much but now, when I compare with fellow 30yos, it was clearly a good idea.Sure, I don't look like a goddess, iwnbaw, yadda yadda yadda, but I get to look younger and the slow but consistent fat redistribution makes me more grabbable by my bf. I'm also a lot less ashamed of being a flaming faggot and a lot less agitated. Ultimately, less testosterone simply is better. It's just unfortunate that our bodies can't function on very low T and very low E. So I take E so I don't get sick.t. >>84459126 & >>84459382
>>84459744so i could be a gay twink bro that still identifies as a male while taking hrt? i guess it makes sense. i'm still scared of permanently changing my body and being dependent on something outside of myself, but then again i still haven't lost my anal virginityt. >>84458890
>>84459783>so i could be a gay twink bro that still identifies as a male while taking hrt? i guess it makes sense.actual genuine child mentality to seek out an external source to construct a rudimentary reality (from a man child no less)
>>84459916i mean i am autistic so good on you for the call out. i do try to seek out an internal source but it's very difficult, i know i like anal but i don't even know if i want to indulge in it that much. i don't know what i want, i don't even know if there's a way to know what to want and not want
>>84459941this is so unbelievable (NOT to be believed); you dont know WHAT you want, but youre in the tranny prostitute thread hoping to get groomed and told what you want? whatever. on the off chance this IS real (israel) you should only take advice from tangible people in real life and not demons in your screen (me) who you have no way of knowing whether they exist or what their intentions are. if youre gay or just want companionship-idk how to help you, but i can promise if youre legit this retarded, using the internet to help with this will be a terrible tragedy. dont get groomed by tranny freaks(or anyone else), thx nigger
>>84460035lol it's not like i was jumping on hrt tomorrow. i've been in the closet this long so in all likelihood i'll stay in it some more until i'm absolutely certain i'm doing the right thing
>>84460055v sad (greek tragedy) youre already groomed; enjoy the consequences of listening to freaks on the internet, you cant say you werent warned
>>84459783>so i could be a gay twink bro that still identifies as a male while taking hrt?That's basically what I've been doing for a decade now. Except not much of the bro part. I'm pretty open about being a flaming faggot. I've also been with my boyfriend for 6 years now so I'm not whoring out either.>permanently changing my bodyThe only real permanent change is hrtits. Tho in my case it's only noticeable if you're a turboautist or I tell you beforehand that I take estrogen and you purposefully look for incongruences.Most users of estrogen get very little growth. Trannies you see with big tits either have surgeries done or they cycle progesterone multiple times over the years. Just... don't do that and you'll be fine.Oh, yeah, there's also the infertility thing but even after a decade most get it back if they just stop for a year.>and being dependent on something outside of myselfErrr... yes and no. It's really cheap especially if you keep the dosages lower (do blood tests and experiment to see what works for you). And, if you lose access, it's no big deal even for a few months. It can be annoying, but it's no tragedy as the trannies online make it out to be.I'm not saying hrt is a great idea. I'm simply saying it's not the super scary thing that weirdos (and I include brainwormed trannies here too) make it out to be. It's just an endocrine hack. Not even a very radical one. SSRIs have far worse side effects yet nobody bats an eyelid and are prescribed like candy to tens of millions.>i still haven't lost my anal virginityWrong mentality.Your first experience will be shit (maybe even literally lol) if you don't train.Buy a small dildo (5'' should suffice, even smaller at first) and try things out alone at home. Get yourself into the headspace for it. It's different IRL than in the fantasy. It's still hot, but learning how to get there is a process and a skill. It doesn't just come "naturally". Heck, straight sex doesn't come "naturally" either. (1/2)
>>84459783>>84460231The impulse to want sex (fag or str8) is natural. But the actual mechanics and how to make it pleasurable is not something you know instinctively. It's still a trained skill.Ultimately, >>84460035 is right. Demons in your screen (me included) are still an inferiour source of advice compared to people IRL who know you.Get a fag friend. Experiment. Live and try things out. Life moves on. Doing nothing is not a neutral decision either, btw. And also not inherently safe.(2/2)
>>84460231>>84460249thx for the replies. i have been training anally for months and been loving it. getting a fag friend would be great but grindr is scary and idk where else to look. but i'll get over that pessimism in the future as well i guess
>>84460270>getting a fag friend would be great but grindrI said get a fag FRIEND not a fag sex partner.Surely there are events or fag-friendly clubs/activities you can attend.You need to learn to relate to people, anon. And that's not fag specific or tranny specific or foid specific or w/e. It's something all functional humans need to do.Lemme put it this way: I never used grindr. I almost literally slipped into a relationship with my bf. We met at a football match and he was being teased by his friends for being kinda faggy and they told him to hit on me (the most obvious faggot in the crowd). And he did. And I reciprocated lol. But we would've never met if I had been an antisocial shut-in.Loneliness is partly a choice. I know, I know, that's insensitive well, tough shit. You need tough love. And if an estrogenized fag from 4chan is the one to deliver it, so be it.Imo, in this department hrt helped me a liiiitle bit. Being just slightly less horny all the time made me able to zoom out and look at things more calmly. It's how I started living life without just looking for the next opportunity to have sex. And, lo and behold, it worked and eventually got both.Basically, don't think exclusively with your ass/dick and cut internet usage significantly. Live IRL. You'd be surprised how fast things can improve if you just try instead of assuming nothing works and nothing is possible.
>>84460231>SSRIs have far worse side effects yet nobody bats an eyelid and are prescribed like candy to tens of millionsSSRIs won't cause your blood lipid profile to malfunction. there is a proven correlation between high estrogen levels and blood clots in men, because we do not have the same pathways responding to steroid hormones compared to women. i always see stupid trannies talking about pregnant women's estrogen as if you idiots don't have a whole different chromosome in play here.
>>84460311>You need to learn to relate to peoplei'm diagnosed with autism so i kinda inherently don't relate to neurotypical people lol. i lack social cognitive functions and shit. i'm not antisocial and i have some irl friends, but i'm a shut-in because it's just harder by default for me to socialize. so far my only strategy has been asking my few irl friends for help to meet guys, nothing's happened yet but if i communicate my need for a fag friend i'm sure they'll find a way to help
>>84457838>I didn't like him but money is money ykBrutal. Dude just wanted a friend and you didn't even like the guy
>>84460332>SSRIs won't cause your blood lipid profile to malfunctionBut they will ruin your erection far worse than years on hrt.HRT won't increase suicide ideation, while SSRIs routinely do.Discontinuing SSRIs cold turkey leads to brain zaps and it's fucking horrifying to watch (saw it on a friend). Discontinuing hrt basically does nothing sudden (had to go off hormones for several months, no biggie).We can play this game till we're both blue in the face. But the fact remains that absolute risk of SSRIs is higher than a bit of gynokadin and some bicalutamide here and there. This is not controversial at all.>there is a proven correlation between high estrogen levels and blood clots in men, because we do not have the same pathways responding to steroid hormones compared to womenYes, if you overdo it. Have you even read my comment? I don't even do full tranny dose.Of course, the risk in blood clots is real but you're also heavily overstating it. The increase in blood clot risk is from normal male levels to closer to female levels. Women do have higher risk of blood clots than men, anon.
>>84457119Does your mother know what you've been doing? How do you think she would react to your prostitution?
>>84460681the oxymoron of a white child mental illness truly is impervious to reason. well done
hee hee i'm so traumatized, here's some exaggerated gay porn! lying faggot.
