I want to have a gf so fucking bad. I don't want to be alone anymore. I can't stand it. I fucking hate myself and I can't fathom a woman ever wanting to be with me. I don't want to be alone. I want my life to mesn something, to make things better for someone else. I wish I had the courage to blow my brains out.
>>84468114It's funny, a couple of years ago I was feeling like you and posting shit like this and now I don't really give a shit anymore, and find the idea of relationshits offputting. Life's retarded and nothing makes sense. You're here to suffer and not understand why, just because your dad got horny enough to coom one time.
>hahahah xd le big boobiesr/animemes humor
>>84468125There is no "why" to suffering. Looking for a reason as like a source or explanation for the pain we feel is pointless. To live is to suffer, they are one and the same, but life is also many other things at the same time. I don't care to find a why behind suffering, I want a "why" to endure it. I want a home. I want to be someone else's home. I want that one person that makes things worth it. I want to cut my limbs off.
>>84468137Why did you ignore me in the other thread, Chisatofag?
>>84468150That's the guy who spends all his free time here ragebaiting and posting about his tranny gf.
>>84468150Too personal for /r9k/ because I have schizophrenic stalkers
>>84468114I don't understand why. I feel guilty for just saying it. I feel like God resents my existence. That's why he made me unlovable. So I remain alone, a mistake that is solved by making it so it can't pass on to the enxt generation. Why does God resent me? What is so wrong with myself that I abhor everything about me? I wish I was good.
