I think i will always be alone no matter what i doPeople just hate meFuck my life
>>84477269I decided that when I inevitably lose all my friends again, I will kill myself because I cannot take another round of gain -> lose -> gain just to lose again. It's too painful.
yes i think no one truly cares about me even my mom ahandoned me
>>84477269i've always been at my happiest when i was alone, so i'm going to continue being alone to continue being happy
>>84477282It's taking a lot not to end it all right now, honestly>>84477300Is there something that keeps u going?>>84477322Must be nice
>>84477269>Do you think you're better off alone?>talk to me, ooooohh talk to me>talk to me, ooooohh talk to mebut nah for reals, there was a time i thought that, i used to actively push people away because of that tooi've since realized i don't want to be alone anymore, that i'd rather be better than isolate myselfit's been harsh but worth, so far
>>84477269Absolutely - what goes up must come down so what's the point of pouring effort into any kind of relationship when it will inevitably come crashing down?
>>84477326idk why i continue im just tired i want peace
> Do you think you're better off alone?I don't know, I'm still experimenting with what it means to be with people.
eh not better off but it always ends up with me being alone due to being diagnosed autistic with shut in parents who never had friends or other children so I never learned how to really socialise. I learned a bit and have had friends here and there and gfs but the issue is that people cant stomach me for long. I currently have a gf but she's not very interested in me these days and maybe I see her once a week for a couple of hours before she gets sick of me. Will eventually leave and then I'll have no one as I dont have family near me either and I dont have friends anymore. But I wont be killing myself so I'll just have to live with it.tried discord for my local city but I cant find an ''in'' and I dont know how to talk to people, co workers who started with me all are friends and actively avoid me. All of this may make me sound insufferable but to me I'm a chill guy and I care about people, but I notice that the neuros put on the front that they are loving but inside they are all very cold when it comes to it whereas I appear maybe cold but I am very caring inside. I wish I had community.
>>84477269I stopped desiring social interaction somewhere at 18 years old so yeah, I'm pretty sure I'm better off alone.I used to be really desperate for connection but I got abandoned by everyone I knew one too many times, there's no point in getting attached, learning birthdays, learning interests, pretending to give a shit about said interests only for that effort to come to nothing because the other person got bored of you, or got the ick over something you did but won't tell you what it is.getting abandoned wasn't even the worst part it's not knowing why.
>>84477269NO, BUT I DO THINK MOST PEOPLE DON'T DESERVE MY PRESENCE.I'M PRETTY GREAT, IT SEEMS LIKE THAT GETS TAKEN FOR GRANTED.
Yeah. I can't imagine what it's like to be around another person every waking moment, seems like hell on Earth. Yeah hugging kissing cuddling a lot, but imagine literally never being alone, zero time by yourself except when in the bathroom or driving to work.
>>84477269I'm alone, but not lonely. Been on my own for 30 years. A few serious relationships that fell apart. I like doing solitary things (running, working out, mountain biking, motorcycle riding) and living alone. I get together with friends, have plenty of hookups, but in the end I like living alone.
>>84478167i hate being alonebut i can't have any friends or girlffriends>>84477669i hate being by myself>>84477666must be nice>>84477651i wish i could just diethen i wouldn't have to deal with loneliness>>84477483i wish i had a community too but i'll never have onenever had a gf either, i'm that unlikable>>84477342people don't want to be near me so i should probablty give uphowever i hate living like this so i'll probably kill myself soon
>Do you think you're better off alone?Sort of, yes. As an autist NEET, I am indeed better off as a hermit.That said, I dearly wish that I had a fuck-buddy I could regularly bone.I also miss my deceased family tremendously.I already knew that I will die alone; I just hope it's before my 60s.
