Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual supportit's starting to get warmhey>How are you doing today?>Any plans for today?>When was the last time you hurt yourself?>Why did you hurt yourself?>Is there anything bothering you right now?
links:>a long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7> first aid post cuting:https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/>a wound care guide:https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic> bpd workbook:https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read>a bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c> bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdfPlease don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them
>>84501651Hii cat hru? And how was ur day?Im walking home rn, so hungry but gotta stop by the supermarket first.
>>84501976heyaI'm alright it's been a slow day, I went of a little ride ro the store, posted a lsd dream emulator kyoto recreation map and organized musik on my phone Whatcha gonna eat?I got some food on my mind too, I'll probably eat some cereal
>>84495945>until my life falls apart, then I'm too lazy to pick it up again.hm. now that you say it, that's pretty much how it goes for me as well. i keep at something for a while, shit happens and i'm back to square one.>100 burpees every daythat's impressive. sounds rough even thinking about it. ^^'>mostly for advertising's sake.makes sense. seems like most stores connected to big brands work that way.>it's not uncommon for people to drop five figures on stuff.sometimes i wonder if the people spending that amount of money in a store think the stuff they buy is actually worth that much.>>84495984>which has me tempted to get itdefinitely didn't disappoint me, so i'd say give it a go if you ever feel like it.>they learned from the mistakes of sunshinethat's probably it. always nice to have something of an ng+ if you want to go back to it, but not necessary if you just want to enjoy the game.>Honestly, was also how you make up for most being quite shortand how you got people in arcades to spend more.>but they're quite situationali'll enjoy them when you post them.>I'm guessing I've been played all along and it worked and I don't even care at this point just give me her SSR alreadyseems like they actually subverted your expectations in a good way.>rough sleep, but I'll be better tomorrowdid you sleep better?>>84496637>I feel like I kinda bombed it, but that's seems to be the case for all my colleagues too.well, let's wait for the results. maybe it went better than expected>so they'll probably be sleepy/tired.fingers crosses. hope they don't give you a hard time.>so I'll probably get to show my work!that's good. what are you working on?>>84501651hi catbro! how's it going?>it's starting to get warmfor real. one day it's rainy and cold, the other warm and humid. i hate it. :[>>84501976hey meowster! what's up?>picman, that brings me back...https://www.dailymotion.com/video/x6z4gn
hi /cut/! hope everyone is doing as best they can. hopefully this thread lasts long
>>84502692thanks anon! same to you! we'll see how long this one will go. i'll try to at least give it a bump after waking up. probably all i'll be able to do tomorrow.
>>84502367hey yuanon B3how goesit?>how's it goingpretty okay just relaxing now ^^it's a bit too warm under my blanket tho>i hate it. :[it'll stabilize soonon being too hot probably
>>84502692hey anon thankshope you're doing well too!!how's your evening going?
heya everyonehru all? i hope wellim in uhh a bit of a pickleim just going to keep it short, i think im going to slip into a depressive episode sooner or later and uhhh i have this unreasonable desire to drink "heavily" (im a lightweight so like 5 shots or something) and unfortunatelyi also have the desire to cut againlast two times i cut were june 18 and before that december 26th, which is why im surprised i have the desire again so long after that, and whats weirder is that i just feel kinda shitty and want to cut, not for any previous reasons i used to cut forim not really sure what to do, i doont want to cut because my girlfriend WILL see it sooner or later no matter where it is, im not worried about her not understanding as she herself has lightly been through the same thing and same for her brother but i dont wanna "ignite" iti dont wanna cut but the desire is surely there, omnipresent latelyalso this weekend i was horribly ill, woke up with 38.5c, fever dropped later, then rose, then dropped then rose againsometime it rose to 39.0i woke up at 3 am and it was SO bad i felt like i was shutting down i had to go to the bathroom and get a wet towel on my head to calm me down a bit, shitty thing is my vision started darkening and i was losing my balance until my vision was almost completely dark as i was limping back to my bed to lay downapparently i almost passed out from the high feveri dont even know how i managed to walk to my bed with almost completely black vision, probably that i felt it was life or death, either i pass out and hit my head on something and fucking die because it was 3 am and nobody would hear me, either that or i would make it to the beduhhh yeah a bit too much yapping but yeah, what to w/ the cutting thing, ive got no idea.
>>84502760>how goesit?i'm very tired, my legs hurt and i don't want to get up early tomorrow. that's pretty much it. just lying in bed right now.>it's a bit too warm under my blanket thoi've been mixing and switching three blankets the past couple of days. it's wild. >on being too hot probablyyay...>>84502817hey, buddy! good to see you again! o/>i doont want to cut because my girlfrienddo you think talking to her about it would help?>also this weekend i was horribly illdamn. reminds me of the time where i couldn't even keep water in and had to basically sit in bed to try to get some sleep... hope you get well soon, friend.have to get up early tomorrow, so i'll be out now. maybe we can talk more tomorrow. would be nice.
>>84502817heya fren!sorry to hear about those things, it sounds very rough, I hope you manage not to cut, sending hugs!Maybe the feaver will keep you occupied enough to not do that though it sounds very concerning next time it happens you should call an ambulance I feel>>84502969sleep well ^^I'll be eepin too
>>84502969heya yuanon nice seeing you>do you think talking to her about it would help?i dont want to worry her or think she did anything wrong or anything like that so probably it would help but im not very good at explaining things and i fear ill needlessly worry heri cant imagine having a hard time keeping water in, sounds really annoyinganyway thankies and goodnight sleep well>>84503050heya cat>it sounds very roughid say more so annoying but yeah lolim not sure if it would be a purely bad thing if i ended up cutting, it would be a release of sorts but maybe it could go worse than i imaginethe fever is just fucking with my nerves, i thought i beat it, well fuck me because i havent im 38c again for no reasonalso ambulances here kinda suck im better off driving myself there lolim kinda betting that it wont be bad enough to need an ambulancegoonight cat sleep welli didnt expect to pay and be punished for my wrongdoings and sins in the form of an almost comically really really bad fever but the lord works in mysterious ways i guess
im about to sleep i will reply to things i was meant to like..2 threads ago then forgot>>84486694>I powered through all the chores I need to get done and go a workout in, but it was roughi know this was like a few days ago but still good job!>you don't eat well enough?not really, ive been doing like a meal a day but i am trying to eat more.+ i used to restrict a lot i was previously on a less than 900kcal diet then 600kcal diet, or at some points fasting for many many days. its kind of incredible when you are too depressed to eat and love starving at the same time its like one big loop. i stopped because i dont actually have an eating disorder i am/was just a wannabe with no willpower. im not even good at purging it is sad>Do you think you know when stuff began or where the complexity of your situation comes from?i often tell people ive been mentally ill longer than i remember. i dont really remember my childhood but i know i was genuinely suicidal and homicidal at like 10 or 11, and probably unwell before then. and then i kept getting worse and worse and worse. when i was around 16/17 a lot of traumatic memories resurfaced, partially because i wasnt being actively traumatised as much and that caused a lot of cptsd/cptsd-like symptoms to show up. which made things even worse. a lot of the complexity of my situation comes from having many symptoms from many disorders that compound on each other or make the cause of a behaviour a lot more difficult to discern. like with eating as i mentioned, it just adds up and up. also it means that its difficult to know where to begin when there are so many issues>>84487495>Best of luck with getting helpthanks! and yeah im in the uk.. it sucks. if someone tells me to call the samaritans again i will lose my shit>>84488206>good job!thanks!>what's dbt?oh dialectical behavioural therapy. i think its mentioned in the copy paste of the general. i have like a box of notes about it and i really should be looking thru those
>>84488206>bmino clue but its probably too high. idk if i weigh myself i will kill myself. its probably more that my diet has absolutely no nutrients or water. anyways ive been in pain so badly all day.. hoping this is just like a vitamin nutrient deficiency so i will just eat vitamin supplements, and not a medical condition. or it could be stress? stress has never done that to me before though so who knows>>84488838>try to get some sunlight, if you can. being inside all the time makes it worse. speaking from experiencegood idea. i have been outside much today which is good. the sun is a wonderful fried
>>84486694>As someone who has a troubled past with family, really sorry to hear that you feel that way and didn't have any help with itsorry to hear that u have it similar. and yeahh i dont like how family is almost always viewed as something good for their children. i know so few people with good relationships with their families, maybe its just the people i attract but still. like you said, no one wants to admit how harmful family can be >>84487495>Best of luck with moving out. That sounds awful.thank youive been considering never speaking to them again but i dont know how i feel about it. it doesnt feel like they 'earned' it. ill have to see how i feel when it comes to it. what they did never ever feels 'bad enough' especially when i know so many people who have an objectively much more fucked up situation than i do. and i know its not a competition and that if they hurt you they hurt you ,but its hard to really accept that. i wish it wasnt so complicated, like the way abuse is shown so often in movies where the parents are ontologically evil and cruel all the time and theyre clearly the villains but no its its family. tbdesu the worst part of it wasnt the violence or anything like that it was the constant switching up. i think im genuinely going insane. kindness and closeness are so terrifying to me, every day i wait for the ball to drop, for someone i care about to finally snap and hurt me, and i keep waiting and waiting and nothing happensok im sleeping now
