25 years of loneliness makes me want to kill myselfhow do people do it for 70 years striaght?
>>84527694Have you tried using cannabis products anon?
>>84527701i can't because it's illegal and i could go to prison
>>84527694does anon consider kidnapping local anons and making them your friends for life
>>84527705Holy living Jesus anon
>>84527707what would be the point if they don't want to be my friends in the first place>>84527711what
>>84527711Nta but man you really got me thinking about how weed has gotten me out of some serious depressions >>84527715How do you know they don't
>>84527694schizophrenianot even joking, I have a lot of voices rattling around in my head and talk to myself all the time
>>84527694>25 years of lonelinessAre you 25 years old? If so then you haven't had 25 years of loneliness.
>>84527720because no one does>>84527721sometimes i wish i had severe schizophrenia>>84527727i didi never had any real friendseveryone abanodned me
>>84527720Yeah except at the moment my whole mind has been eclipsed.
>>84527715>>84527734what do you like doing dear anon
>>84527694I remembered having to schedule around stuff others wanted to do with me and while it had its charm, I decided to embrace and appreciate that I now could call all the shots. Instead of putting time into people (not that I thought I was adding immense value to their lives) I learned new things to enrich my life and make me capable of seeing more of the world. It's tempting to reciprocate the enthusiasm of others who try to get to know me after we meet and interact due to a common interest over a long, long time. But I like the flexibility and not having to think about the feelings of others deeply, or have mine influenced by whether they stay by my side. We weren't born as anyone's friend, we learned to appreciate it. But we have the capacity to appreciate being more on our own. Living truly away from others and getting goods delivered? I don't have that kind of scenario. Someday, who knows. Yet I don't dislike people, I just like this safe approach to life. And as a result of enhancing my skills and income, I can help those in dire need, or reach out to others I don't talk to anymore but who I still have added and never did me any wrong.
>>84527742I like doing whatever the person i like likes doing>>84527798>But we have the capacity to appreciate being more on our ownI thought I was the same way but i grew to despise it
>>84527822was there a case of where you had a person you liked, and is it more so dependent on company rather than the actual activity
>>84527822That's fair. It's similar to how some people don't strongly desire marriage, while others naturally yearn for it more.Never thought I'd meet someone from New Zealand and actually get along well enough that I might take up their offer to go hiking there someday. But that encounter came almost exactly a decade after I made peace with viewing friendship as an "I can take it or leave it" part of life. Never know what life will bring your way as the years pass by.
having friends sucks I learned from experience so I just enjoy the freedom don't be a pussy and kys
>>84527694I don't know either, anon. I guess you just grow numb to it over time? I'm gonna be 25 in june and ever since I entered my 20s, I became more and more used to it
>>84527734>everyone abanodned meWhere are your parents? Were you abandoned since birth? Who fed you? From ages 0 to 12 it's highly unlikely that you were alone.
>>84527894What about a girl, anon? Don't you yearn for one?
>>84527734Ok but how do you know if you don't have friends>>84527822Why don't you find something you like doing for yourself tho?
>>84527694>how do people do it for 70 years striaght?have you considered taking estrogen?
>>84527694I'm probably checking out after my parents die. Who the fuck wants to live 50-80 years alone with no friends or gf
>>84527694Takin' it real hard lately, are we?Have you tried appreciating your life for what it is instead of crying over what you don't have yet? You won't get your 20s back, y'know? Might as well go with the flow and enjoy it while it lasts.
>>84528205This. I'm suffering because I don't want my mom to be sad. I'm so tired of it all.
>>84528048No get out of here im not op by the way
>>84527694Don't go alone, take others with you, as many as possible.
>>84527694Develop mental illness to cope. Humans can adapt to everything, a little bit of loneliness ain't kill nobody.
>>84528369Oikura love
>>84527694My uncle is 45 and never had a girlfriend it's insane. He's like the high wizard or something and his only love interest moved back to Poland
I'm scared anons, I don't know if I'll make it. The call of the void is getting louder.
>>84528231nta, but I have that mindset sometimes, however it never lasts. It always leads to ultra depression.
>>84528526>calls itself the voidtell that edgelord to pipe down and leave you in peace and quiet
>>84527856yeah but i got abandoned every single time>>84527886it's too late for me now so i don't think life will bring anything more than misery>>84527913my parents are out of touch boomers>>84527894i'm 25 too and time has had the opposite effect on me>>84528005>Ok but how do you know if you don't have friendsno one cares about youno one ever reaches outyou do all the messaging, all the maintenenceit's like you're an inconvenience to people>Why don't you find something you like doing for yourself tho?i wouldn't know how>>84528048no>>84528231what do I even have? The means to survive? Is that worth it when your life is shit?>>84528342i don't want to>>84528369loneliness kills. More than most vices. This has been proven scientifically>>84528487my uncle is also a loner. Difference is he can take it, i cannot
>>84529083>Difference is he can take ityou never know how much suffering people can hideeither that or he's gigagooning or using substances or other mind quelling things
>>84529445he doesn't. He's either content with it or he's really good at hiding it
>>84528535What do you think the solution would be and what's holding you back?>>84529083>Is that worth it when your life is shit?C'mon now, it could be a lot worse. If you look at it objectively, you're living a far better life than a lot of people do on this cursed planet. You're just so hung up on this particular problem that you can't appreciate anything anymore.Also I don't believe nobody wants to be your friend, you wanted to be friends with specific people who turned out to be assholes and now you can't move on.
>>84530267>What do you think the solution would be and what's holding you back?The solution would probably be to have a healthy work life balance. Spending all day every day in your room gets dull after a while.
>>84527705>b-but illegalI'd get in on it before prosecution gets automated by AI, cops don't care about casual drug users since they have better shit to do.
>>84530506they care here>>84530267>Also I don't believe nobody wants to be your friend, you wanted to be friends with specific people who turned out to be assholes and now you can't move on.my experience has proven otherwise
>>84530380I get that you don't want to stay in your room all day, but leaving your house for work? Are you masochistic?>>84531104You are hopeless...Well either way, remember that you're not alone in this.Kind of paradoxical, isn't it? Not alone in being alone. The thought actually makes me feel less alone. It's so stupid...
>>84527721Same and based. The funny voices in my head have done more to give me reasons to live than anyone else
>>84527694they don't. have you seen the suicide rates?
>>84529083it's okit's relatablepain isn't something you can controlyou have to physically get rid of itbeing an introvert isn't an excuse because introverts can feel lonely tooif you aren't feeling like you're really living at 25, dodge all the shitty coping mechanisms and think about what you really would do with your life without all of these chains in your wayif it's something as simple as wanting a pet then you've got a goalgetting friends is easy, getting close friends is harddepression can make you ignore things that you never thought were possible, so don't let it eat youyou should live for yourself a little moreeven if i sound a little too optimistic and a bit too vague, i wish the best for you anon
