Anyone else lost all meaning and value of social norms?I'm talking you don't give a shit about expectations from family, people, don't even care if something happens to relatives or my mother dies or if I will even attend the funeral, I don't careNow just forced to up hold faking interactions and entertain people in real life (not family) that I come in contact with, it all feels fake, does not feel real, genuine, all I do is fake nice behavior because that is what is least friction and I don't wanna be weirdRealistically it's easier to distance self and just avoid all this shit so you don't have to fake this shit constantly though which is way more peaceful Being forced to interact with people every day is exhausting manBeing expected to interact with your family and the expectations to do shit there that is completely pointless is even worse I don't want that shitty useless expectation on meWhere did that feel come from? Maybe I would feel more inclined if I got some help or there was some actual value that helped my life but there is zero I'm just supposed to jester for my family and when it all goes to shit I have no help so what is the purpose to waste time doing useless unlikeable activities with people that are extremely unsatisfying to be around?Holy
I was secluded for 13 years as a hikkineet because my family destroyed my health and neglected me. I'm on my 14th year currently, but now I'm enslaved by my father and it's terrible. His health got a lot worse after he spent several decades destroying it, and no one else in the family has the time or energy to take care of him, so they're making me do it. This fucking faggot says shit like "thank you" and "you're my hero" to me. I don't want your useless fucking lying words, I want some god damn money and days off. No one would ever do all of this for me; they wouldn't even do 5%. I'm working harder than most wagies, I have less free time than them, I'm on call 24/7, I'm not getting paid, I have no days off, and it's all to serve one of the 2 people who ruined my life. This fucking scum piece of shit asked me the other day if I was mad, since I was being so aggressive. There is never a day where I'm not mad and feeling like destroying everything and everyone around me. The worst part is that he constantly does things to make the whole situation worse. Everything he does in his life just makes his health worse and wastes even more of my fucking time. I'm more jaded and actively hostile than ever before. I can't stand these stupid fucking people who ruin the lives of everyone around them and piss away all their resources for no reason while acting they've done no wrong. My parents care more about their useless fucking cats and dogs than they do about any of their children. Some day it might get bad enough that I would prefer being homeless over this
>>84531761how old are you? could be onset of szpd, i have it and it sounds a lot like what you're experiencing
>>84531761yeah i don't see a use case for caring about stupid normie shit like death or buttering people up for no reason whatsoever.
>>84531761I dont give a shit about expectations from family or society but I keep up with them because its necessary (live with parents and they help me out). If I was able to live on my own I would become a total recluse naturally.Everything about interacting with normies feels fake and retarded but I have to admit that they're happier than me. I guess its an ignorance is bliss thing I guess.
>>84531761Pretty normal reaction to having phony performative parents and a phony social environment. Eventually you're just numb to it all and completely indifferent wanting nothing to do it because it's exhausting. Narcissism breeds apathy in others. Your mother is probably mentally ill.
>>84532071ill just leech on my parents until they croak since they demolished any chance of me surviving independently, i don't have any guilt whatsoever its literally all their fault i can't convince myself otherwise.
