I said I could come visit her next month but I am going to have to tell her I can't because I'm scared. Sucks being retarded and a man that is a child
>>84536512What are your reasons for being afraid? What caused you to say you could visit her in the first place?
>>84536749The trip, meeting someone for the first time, intimate stuff which I have no experience with. She was pushing for it and it's not the first time and I didn't want to just waffle or say not yet again, it is something an adult should be able to manage
>>84537168It can be easy to focus on the anxieties and feel understandably troubled. By all means be responsible, especially about these intimate matters. Wouldn't want to become a parent before you can support a child.But reflect on how fortunate you are to have connected with someone, even to have the means to do so like transportation and internet. Really think about it and how some are caught in warzones, rebuilding from natural disasters. Looking at it with increased appreciation may help you to turn that anxious energy into positive energy and determination to match her enthusiasm. Still, I don't know the full context so in that more positive state of mind I hope you'll achieve, think about whether you can see yourself having a stable relationship with this person.Is she mentally well? Even if she is, sometimes life just is that two people have very different wants at a specific point in life. Schedules or desires that don't match up. That's just how it is sometimes, but try to be in a positive mindset when you reassess all that. That way, instead of being said about cancelling, you will see it as making a good decision and moving on with your life.
fuck I hate myself
>>84537930you'll make itit's gonna be different but someday it's gonna be okay
>>84538357thank you I liked the penguins
>>84538620You're welcome ~ I'm glad
I told her and I feel like shit, she said "it's ok" but maybe I won't hear from her again. I won't be able to get anyone else
>>84536512Have you considered going crazy out of your god damn fucking MIND on drugs, Boombadoop?
>>84539203My ex threw everything away long ago and even after she popped up again to apologize and say she took it for granted we never put in the time to rebuild the bridge she burnedBut after I healed for many years I started opening up to/not rejecting the conversation from people who hung out in spaces for my hobbies (less anonymous places in this case)Over time guys and girls got to see I knew how to have fun in a balanced way and a girl who owned one of the servers added me and after talking for a few weeks said I could come over somedaySo there are patient and shy people out there waiting to meet someone and you'll up your odds of meeting them by putting yourself out there even if you don't talk every day and just some times a week
