That combination is very consistent with trauma-driven nervous-system activation, whether or not a formal diagnosis ends up being CPTSD, BPD, ADHD, or some combination.One thing I want to emphasize:People with long-term emotional dysregulation often believe:"This is just my personality."But many of these reactions are actually learned survival adaptations:scanning for dangerpreparing for criticismcatastrophizing to avoid surpriseemotional escalation when overwhelmedtreating setbacks as identity threatsThose patterns can become automatic enough that they feel like "who you are," even though they're modifiable.The fact that you're self-aware enough to describe these processes clearly is actually meaningful. Many people with severe dysregulation cannot observe themselves this precisely while it's happening.Based on the intensity you reported, it would probably be worthwhile to seek a real mental health evaluation if you have access - especially someone experienced with trauma and neurodivergence, not just surface-level anxiety treatment.
E.M.T.!Anyway, I appreciate this write-up. Made a new friend and I think it'll help me to understand her more, though, she often isolates when she feels she's on the verge of truly doing something that'd set her back. Kind to me but it's not like I can't one day mess up, or say something that reminds her of someone who said similar things before causing trouble. We'll hang out IRL sometime so that'll change the dynamic a lot, maybe.
>>84568687How old is she -
>>8456892425 and fortunately not someone who thinks herself old already lol
>>84569079Its practically old enough for social security
>>84569097She may get some benefits already but not sure what NZ is like for that kind of stuff. Apparently she was a nursing officer as well. Only learned that recently. We once spoke about how she has certain meds she'd have to be on for a long time, if not the rest of her life. We'll see.
>>84569195If she's not in the us then probably she can get permanent assistance
>>84569201I'll ask about that then, thanks. Neither of us would say we know it all.
