When you are feeling low, or otherwise unhappy on this day in particular, please recall the memories on a day that gave happiness to your person. I implore you to explore that happiness and give it form once more. The joys and laughter, the relief and the relieved. The days of which you were not within the emotions of the damned.When the day is dimmed, please recall those days that were not.
>>84573395Nigger fuck you and fuck the teams of social workers and psychologists and psychiatrists all defending the lying pedophiles of the NSA and fuck their homosexual masters too.Good day my ass
>>84573395anon what memories do you recall, what joy has the creature experienced
>>84573412Live in the moment. Focus on that in a protest.Protesting on this website does nothing but make you angrier. You are doing nothing.>>84573414I remember this interaction. It was stressful, but it worked out in the end. I'll use a Yuukatext.>be me>on a school trip>meet a homeless person>walks past but feels inclined to help>buys pizza and some water for homeless person>pizza took really long, everyone gone>goes outside>homeless person is still there>hand water bottle>ends up being guilt tripped to try and get pizza>tells homeless person can't give that stuff because it's too much for someone who has starved for that long>homeless person tries to guilt trip using religion>walks off slowly with pizza>stays in crowded spot to avoid confrontation>gets lost>found by friend>friend says they're up ahead and i reach everyone again>feel really guilty>friend notices>friend talks about how they saw that homeless person doing something that made no sense for a homeless person>homeless person was probably fake>feel relieved>end up enjoying the rest of my day>gets ice cream, enjoys it>not really crowded around by people, but i'm enjoying my ice cream without having anyone to talk to so much>after trip is over, goes home>while it wasn't perfect, it was fun>it was a happy daySometimes, there are problems in life, but if you're wise to it, you can open up while still defending yourself. That's what I think about when I think about that experience.If that person was real, I would've still managed to help someone in the end.
>>84573395At home, drawin' pictures of mountaintops. With him on top, lemon yellow sun. Arms raised in a "V"
>>84573511>lemon yellow sunReminds me of this image I saw on the catalog earlier.He looks kind of sad about his birthday, doesn't he?Even when he makes everyone's day, he's still so sad...
>>84573395I can't remember any day when I was happy, though. What the fuck are you talking about?
>>84573571>What the fuck are you talking about?Sorry, Anon... Maybe try to remember something smaller?
>>84573487i'm too much of a bitch and i probably would've gave up the pizza in hopes of not feeling guilty and just being pressured, glad that you at least have a backbone
>>84573692I definitely felt guilty. It almost ruined my day.I wouldn't blame you if you gave the pizza, but I do think you should stand up for yourself whenever you can. It's okay if you don't want to give something. If you give too much, it might just get out of control.What days do you have to recall, Anon?
i dont remember any good days im losing all my memories cause i wasted my life desu
>>84573954You don't have to make it about an entire day.It's okay if it's just about a moment.What kind of day would be ideal to you? What moment in your memory sticks out?
>>84573978the best day for me would be one where i fall asleep and dont wake up probably but since that wont happen then just staying inside and consuming media and avoiding bullshit
>>84573993What, so a coma? That's not a day at all.I get escaping reality, avoiding bullshit is good too.I guess what I really should ask is what media you like, maybe.What kind of media makes the day better for you?
>>84574013japanese shit cause i am a weeb but i feel embarrassed about it now and dont like it anymore so i feel lost cause i have no interest in anything
>>84574052What makes you feel embarrassed about it?If it makes your day better and helps you cope with things, I think you shouldn't take it for granted.When you enjoy something a lot, it's normal to notice its flaws.
>>84574076i feel like a toddler enjoying cartoons for children and plus their real life society looks like hell on earth
>>84574136Actually, they do create anime for adults. There are separate anime for children like Doraemon. Things like K-On exist because there's a market for men who like cute girls doing cute things. Japan just capitalized on that.While yes, their actual society isn't perfect, I think there are worse places on this planet.I also think the people who create these works aren't perfect either. It's normal to not idolize them. I think you don't have to. You can get immersed without that.Think of it like a different type of adult animation. It can be childish, but I think that's fine. Sometimes as an adult, you want something a bit childish every once in a while. It doesn't have to be your life too. Just apart of it, if that's what you want.There's a lot of anime out there. Maybe you can find one that suits your tastes if the ones you were watching didn't do it for you.>imgrel
>>84573395I don't have any happy days. My memories are nothing but a constant torment to me. They recall only a constant series of failures and humiliations both personally and professionally. I sit here alone now on the end of yet more recent failures and humiliations and there are surely more to come on the horizon.
>>84573857i have a gold fish memory, nor do i really remember of any good memories recently, though i do often fantasize and daydream if that counts !!
I remember happy day wen girl hugged me and leaves were falling from the trees
>>84573395I can't, OPI notice I'm happiest during the worst days of my life, and depressed during the happiest days of my lifeIt's like my brain's all fucked up from years of unlucky situations where my brain couldn't exactly interpret the right feelingThe day my dad died, I was browsing Steam since they had a sale going onThe day my mom had to ride the bus to the hospital because she was dying, it was my birthday and that night I went and bought a cake for myself and my kid brotherThe day my brother went to jail, I was on a date with this girl and we were about to fuck
>>84574181When you have a lot of bad experiences, you tend to focus more on the negative, because you're looking for threats.Maybe you're still looking for threats in your life.You should relax on your own every once in a while, Anon.You don't have to remember right now, but maybe you can remember once you've given yourself some breathing room.>>84574182Oh? What kind of things do you fantasize about?Maybe Yuukatext it?>>84574197alway remberwen tree is nearyuka is watchingon lucky day>>84574241In the moment, it's normal to not notice what you've started to lose.When you come to a point in your life when you need those things that you've lost, you'll realize the problems it has caused.It's okay if you think happy days are tainted, but I think you should remember them anyway.If there's any melancholy day you need to deal with, Anon, that's okay.Sometimes you have to stop for a moment and appreciate what you have before it's gone.Don't let it get to you, because you'll keep missing what you need to care about in the present.Every day can be a happy day. What matters is if will you live it.
>>84573395hope today is a happi day for you op
>>84574523thank u for beautiful flowersrember, u have a hapi day too
>>84573395The more I remember, the more pathetic I feel. I've found doing it to be counter-productive, and mostly end up feeling worse. And the more you try to remember, you are hit with the realisation of how transient all our experiences and memories really are, when you realise most of the 'good' memories have already been forgotten.
>>84573558He's playing it up for the camera the old yellow frick
>>84574770It's okay, you usually have to do something to trigger a memory anyway.Usually memories can be triggered in conversations.Getting stuck in your head isn't good either.Maybe don't force yourself. Sometimes if you look at things around your house or area, it's easier to remember things naturally.>>84574776What do you have against him?How can you tell? I thought he was being genuine
>>84573395I remember falling unconscious a day after slitting my wrist (suicide attempt) and it was really peaceful, I struggled to stay conscious initially but when everything went black it's like the whole world went quiet and everything went away, just like how I wanted, It's a shame I woke up a second afterwards because that's the most at peace I've ever been.I imagine death is like that too, but I've given up on trying to reach that state because suicide isn't as easy as movies make it seem, suicide is pretty fucking difficult to go through with successfully, and fucking it up carries too many penalties (your relatives walking on eggshells around you, having to awkwardly do shit you expected not to have to do anymore, having to dodge the mental ward etc.)
>>84574807He's a flaming sky ball fart
>>84573487Kill yourself already you retarded groomer.Fuck your whole shitbag existence.
>>84574458>In the moment, it's normal to not notice what you've started to lose.>When you come to a point in your life when you need those things that you've lost, you'll realize the problems it has caused.>It's okay if you think happy days are tainted, but I think you should remember them anyway.>If there's any melancholy day you need to deal with, Anon, that's okay.>Sometimes you have to stop for a moment and appreciate what you have before it's gone.>Don't let it get to you, because you'll keep missing what you need to care about in the present.>Every day can be a happy day. What matters is if will you live it:')Thank you
I'm a mentally ill lolcow. I'm sick of this shit life.
>>84573395are you the person that was posting on that "fp anon" thread yesterday?
>>84574851When you're depressed and in a bad spot, it can imagine it's really hard to see relief.This is definitely a hard situation for me to respond to, but even if I don't know what to say entirely I'll say something.I hope you can see some peace while living. Because seeing that while you live is beautiful and irreplaceable.It doesn't need to be romantic or anything big. It really is just a feeling of peace in the living world when you find that. As much as it feels you must have to die to attain that, you don't.I hope you can find that living relief one day, Anon.>>84574950Hey, just because you're jealous he's shining bright every day doesn't mean you gotta insult himYou don't know what he's been through>>84575015What do you expect me to do?I don't defend pedophiles, I just think you're wasting your time getting angry on a random thread that has nothing to do with anything you're talking about.If I wanted to groom people, I'd make a different thread.This is just that one Yuuka meme.>>84575072>Thank youNo problemIt does mean a lot to me to hear that>>84575108Here's my opinion on lolcows in general, then.If you're overwhelmed by attention, it's easy to feel isolated despite that and want more attention in a specific way maybe, especially to counteract negative attention.I think you don't need to listen to anyone online for a while if you're struggling with online attention.You shouldn't focus on other people more than yourself, because that will make you fail to see your own weaknesses. If your mind isn't working properly, figure out how you can cope with that and what your problem is.Obviously that isn't easy, but when you do that over time, you'll learn to control yourself better and have some healthy self-esteem.I think you can be a better person than you think you can be. You can get the peace you desire if you first help yourself get peace internally.Even if you don't have a happy day now, I think you can salvage yourself.
>>84575155Maaaybe. Seems like I got caught, maybe. Who knows.
>>84575308its a courtesy question, i know its you. how are you doing? you make nice threads too, thats cool
>>84575340Well, it is obvious...>you make nice threads tooOh? You make threads like this as well?
>>84575340Oh, I forgot to say.>how are you doing?I'm doing fine. The catalog is as insane as ever.It would be easier if this board had less porn on it, but it's not as bad as the random board.It's nice to see people enjoying the thread though.
>>84575397haha it is, though i'd also be able to say by the length of your replies and the thought you put into them. i no longer post threads on this board, getting archived with 2 replies is sort of discouraging.>The catalog is as insane as everit is. it is literally /b/ all over again. as for your OP question, i don't think i can recall feeling like "wow, this is a good time". it's always a bitter feeling of "i wasn't doing that bad" that comes after time has passed, when you're stuck in an even lower low. it's been like that for as long as i can remember.
>>84575487>length of replies and thought you put into themOther people put thought and length into replies, to be fair. I see your point though.>it is literally /b/ all over againRandom being dead sucks, but at least it protects this place for now. Maybe it's the robot that saves it.>i don't think i can recall feeling like "wow, this is a good time". it's always a bitter feeling of "i wasn't doing that bad" that comes after time has passed, when you're stuck in an even lower low. it's been like that for as long as i can remember.Well, when something bad happens to you, you can choose how much you fight against the feelings of insecurity and depression that comes with it. You can hold it in or pretend like it doesn't exist, you can be passive. But, is that truly facing it, or is it leaving it for another day?I don't think you have to let the next day be a lower low than the last. You can become even better than you were doing in childhood by learning more about yourself and needing less people to help you through life. Obviously you still need people, but I think people underestimate how many options they have because they aren't addressing their root problems, the ones that they have within.Even if you feel like your days are reclining, you can still fight for a happier day. Feeling at peace with yourself and the world is kind of the goal. I think closing your mind would definitely make things harder too.It is hard, and it is messy. But I think that's life anyway.
>>84575662>Other people put thought and length into replies, to be fair.the other two people are probably asleep! >Maybe it's the robot that saves it.haha, i don't think that's it, but seriously speaking, i think this board would be way better if it was a blue board.>You can become even better than you were doing in childhood by learning more about yourselfit's funny, because as i grow older i realize this kind of thought process is exactly what could be going wrong with myself. by thinking about myself too much, by trying to improve everyday, i was putting the blame of all the bad things that happened to me on myself. it's true, there are some things i could have done to avoid problems or do better in general, as one can always find things to fix, but there are a lot of things that are out of your control. i couldn't change my parents, i couldn't make big decisions for my own life, sometimes households are messy. there's a limit to the things you can do, too. and learning about that limit, acknowledging you can't do everything by yourself is what has kept me going. not everyone is out there to take advantage of me. i understand where you're coming from, but i would say i definitely need to open up more. i need people more than i was willing to admit.>It is hard, and it is messy.it definitely is. and, more often than not, i think doing without thinking is probably a better approach for my mental health. in the end, you can only be in so much control of things.
>>84573395Okey thamks ill rember
>>84575795>i need people more than i was willing to admit.By saying needing less people, I wasn't talking about not getting help at all.I mean that more in the sense of being independent enough to stand on your own. If you lean too hard and too often, it might cause some problems. Not everyone wants to deal with that.>doing without thinkingI would say you need to think, but I think people don't realize that when you learn more, especially about yourself, it will hopefully make you think faster and have less stress because you know what your weaknesses are.Sometimes you have to force yourself out there and fight against preconceptions instead of being worried over everything.I think you were basically talking about this though.>this board would be better if it was a blue boardIn this site's current state, I have no idea./adv/ exists but I would like a blue board R9K alternative.Maybe a new board is too much to ask for at this point though.>>84575859alway rember
>>84573395I can recall a few moments where I guess I felt happy or contempt but can't recall a full day
The happiest day of my life was when I tried to OD on benzos and alcohol. I felt so calm thinking that I was going to die for sure, but then the crushing reality hit when I woke up again.
>>84576026Maybe the question sucks, but it's mainly because of fitting a meme.You can recall some of those moments, if you want. Just one would work.>>84576312I hope you're alright, Anon.Life must be pretty tough. I hope you can find peace one day without death. Depression sucks.
Most of the replies in this thread kinda suck. So I'll give an honest recollection of a happy day in my life.A few years ago I met up with a few online friends I never met irl. It just so happened that we were all in or near a certain city so we organized and decided to meet up one day. I was really afraid because i never did anything like that in my life, but everyone was really nice. We spent the entire day walking around the city and seeing sights. Near the end of the day we went to an arcade.Sad part is that after we went our separate ways we kinda drifted apart. I guess everybody wanted something different in life. Only I was left behind. Which made sense since i was the youngest. I still remember that day because it serves as a reminder of how nice life could be. I don't know, I'm just rambling I guess.
>>84573395>please recall the memories on a day that gave happiness to your personWhat if I never had a single one?
>>84577133Thank you for sharing this.>I met a few online friendsLucky. It's not so easy. I can really imagine that made you feel a lot more appreciated seeing them in real life instead of just online.>I guess everybody wanted something different in life>i was the youngestI think it was just a matter of time. People have to get going.It's good you had that moment anyway.You can know that they accept you as a person in real life too.>>84577219A moment is fine too. It doesn't have to be a day.
