Seeing happy people fills me with pure envy is this normal
They are gonna die and will experience misery too but its normal to envy what you cant have
>>84592190Apparently being incredibly envious is a narcissistic trait
>>84592195I must be narcissistic then a bit because I wish I had happiness but im a fuckup
>>84592152it fills me with hate
>>84592152no it isn'twe are just miserable and that's unacceptable to most people out there
Envy was biting me really bad but then I had an epiphany that the shame was really pointless and I should care more about what I do in my own life.
>>84592152playing the comparison game in your head is a human trait and takes a lot of effort to not engage in, though envy will eat your soul. luckily i have always been very detached by nature so i can usually put it aside, but in the moment i can catch my mind doing it too. recognizing it for what it is the first step>>84592278also this. hate is a much more manageable and useful emotion than envy
>>84592152I go to a school for people for autistic people and every one of them is so much happier than me and some of them get welfare despite driving cars and having gfs and working. its weird how im suffering so much and these people arent. to me theyre just fakers who want to cheat to get money and i cant stand that