Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual supporthope monday is going well for you >How are you doing today?>Any plans for today?>When was the last time you hurt yourself?>Why did you hurt yourself?>Is there anything bothering you right now?
links :DD> long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7> first aid post cuting:https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/> wound care guide:https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic>a bpd workbook:https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read>a bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c>a bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdfPlease don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them
Hello everyone. Hope you're all doing well.Today I went to a tourist trap and got some very good pizza and gelato while I was there. It's objectively the best I've had since moving but it's such a pain to get to...>>84590855>I think we have like cheap po type boxesI looked into it and it seems like I can mail it directly to a local post office for pickup.That seems to be the case for most countries, I think.>>84591014>since the body tries to cool itself down after that and that's a sign to fall asleep apparentlyI've not heard that before but it makes sense. I read that wearing socks helps, because that makes your core cool down and that's a sign too.>hard to deal with everything that life and people throw at you at the same timeI think I'm just terrible at navigating social situations in general. >just let some kid cough on it. that gets me most of the time.I remember when I did my exams at age 11 that I had a really bad cold and a runny nose, and got it on one of my exam papers. I always wondered if the examiner got sick after that.>probably pretty hard to get access to the pathogens if you don't work in the fieldI'd imagine it's quite a pain to buy them. I think the bigger issue is cultivating them to a big enough scale without killing yourself by accident.
>>84596136>>84596136hello :D>some very good pizza and gelatthat's nice man I should get some pizza some day soon >best I've had since moving but it's such a pain to get to..no pain no gain!>can mail it directly to a local post office for pickup.yep though what sorta info would you need for that?
>>84596458>man I should get some pizza some day soonWhen's the last time you had some? I tend to get it somewhat frequently to stave off homesickness even though most of the options here suck.>no pain no gain!It's maybe worth the 2 hour commute...But it seems as if there's a second store which isn't too far from my office. This could be dangerous...>yep though what sorta info would you need for that?Depends on the country but I think for (You) it would just be a name and the post code+ID of whatever your nearest post office is.https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Poste_restante
>>84595527heyo! o/>How are you doing today?got sick.. had to go home early from school and called in sick at work. been laying in bed all day feeling nauseous..>Any plans for today?just gonna listen to music until i pass out>When was the last time you hurt yourself?4 days ago>Why did you hurt yourself?thought loops abt old friend. so much stuff happened in the last 2 days between me n him..>Is there anything bothering you right now?being nauseous. my emetophobia is killing me.
>>84596694>When's the last time you had some? Ioh man a while, probably a couple of months >most of the options here suck.why? they're just not tasty?>seems as if there's a second store which isn't too far from my officeuh oh D: maybe you shouldn't check it out for your own safety >Depends on the countryI'll look around and think about it>>84597031heya ^^ >got sick.. had to go home early from schoolsorry to hear about it but at least you didn't have to sit a school all day>day feeling nauseousdo you know what caused it?make sure to drink a lot of water but don't drink a lot at once >gonna listen to musicwanna share some songs?>so much stuff happened in the last 2 days between me n him.oh, hope it stabilizes and everything ends up alright >emetophobia is killing mewell hopefully you're not so nauseous you need a bucket
>>84597223>do you know what caused it?yeah.. stress and anxiety. been having this shit for months now.>wanna share some songs?Sure :3 currently listening to godspeed you black emperor - storm>well hopefully you're not so nauseous you need a bucketi hope so too.. im scared not gonna lie
>>84597252>stress and anxiety. been having this shit for months now.damn that sounds bad is all that stress because of the old friend?>currently listening to godspeed you black emperor - stormthanks for the rec :>it sounds simultaneously calming and exciting in a way >hope so too.. im scared not gonna liedw ^^it'll probably be okay maybe you should try to take a nap? it could help you pass the time till you feel better
>>84595527ive not cut since i was 17 so like 2 years ago now but to temptation keeps creeping up on me...im a first year uni student.. finals soon and im definetely failing..im such a failure in every aspect i deserve to be cut
>>84597634hey anongood job not cutting!>creeping up on me...that's understandable with all that stress try not to worry too much you can retake failed exams right? so it's not over yet or even close to being overI used to retake at least one exam every finals, I failed uni on the last semester though... >deserve to be cutnot true!
>>84597674i can redo the uni year i guess its first year tho so thats pretty embarrassing.. puts me in 20k extra debt and parents will be disapointed..at leats i dont have any friends who will be dissapointedi miss the comfort that cutting gave me desu..i dont know what else to do..
>>84595527hi catbro!>hope monday is going well for youno work today, so it was pretty chill. just prepared some porchetta for later this week. looking forward to that. :> other than that, just played more crabsouls. wbu?>>84596136hey dinon!>It's objectively the best I've had since moving but it's such a pain to get to...and probably pricey as well when it's a tourist trap, but at least it's good. was there a lot going on?>I read that wearing socks helps, because that makes your core cool down and that's a sign too.huh. wonder how that works. guess the blood gets warm in your feet and the body wants to cool it down? have to look into that.>I'm just terrible at navigating social situations in general.me too, but that's 100% because i really can't make myself care enough to try to do the whole social dance. always been this way though. how are you trying to deal with those situations?>I always wondered if the examiner got sick after that.maybe, but i feel like it's more likely to be infected by someone coughing near you than by someone smearing something on a piece of paper. that said, i had a customer cough in the hand they were holding the money in and hand it to me. gives you a new appreciation for hand sanitizer. oddly specific thing to remember, but i guess that's why we remember certain stuff to begin with.>I'd imagine it's quite a pain to buy themas soon as you try some agency probably starts looking into you.>cultivating them to a big enough scale without killing yourself by accident.i think at that point you just start realizing you can just go to a hardwarestore and browse more direct solutions.>>84597031hello anon! get well soon! what kind of music are you listening to?>>84597634sorry to hear the stress from those finals is getting to you, but i hope you can find some other thing to deal with it.
>>84597717>hello anon! get well soon! what kind of music are you listening to?hii ty!! currently listening to quorthon - when our day is through, but i also listen to a ton of black metal, extra/hypertone, ambient and indie stuff :p
>>84597692>thats pretty embarrassingwell it's less embarrassing than failing the very last semester >me in 20k extra debtoh you're from the US, sorry to hear about it>parents will be disapointed..welp they're not in your shoes they don't know how hird you have it>dont know what else to do.well it's not the same but you can get in a shower and spray yourself with cold water or hold icecubes in your hands if it's any help>>84597717hello yuanon!>no work today:0that's great >looking forward to that. :>aw that's should make getting through the week easier >played more crabsouls. wbu?enjoying it huh?I'm okay just set up ambient sounds in the map now I should start working on the story and events part
>>84595527>>How are you doing today?it's hot>>Any plans for today?Appying for jobs. cleaning.>>Is there anything bothering you right now?My dad broke his hand on the job. I've been paying my own living expenses but I can't help but feel that if I wasn't making crap wages the past few years, he'd be able to retire.>>84596136hi dis>Today I went to a tourist trap and got some very good pizza and gelato while I was thereOh cool. I went to a festivial last weekend and had a bunch of cheerwine. It's always nice to have something to look forward to.>>84596458hi cat, how is your day?Oh and did you ever start that minecraft server you were talking about?
>>84597797idk the first year is the easiest by far ive heard.. so i feel emabrrassed that i need to redo the easiest part for most...>oh you're from the US, sorry to hear about itoh no im actually from the UK! 9k tuition fee and 11k maitenance loan>>84597797idk like on paper it should be easy for me...but mental problems and stuff..im finally seeing a doctor for it now at least>>84597797baaaaa no!! i hate the coldugh if i could just easily not get caught for cutting i woulddd
>>84597852>hotis it bad? here it's actually pretty cold rnit's supposed to get better tomorrow >Appying for jobs. cleaning.hope it all goes welland do you have any relaxing planned?>dad broke his handsorry to hear >if I wasn't making crap wages the past few yearsif you knew they were bad decisions and had the chance to not make them you wouldn't It all might seem easy and clear now but back then they probably felt like the right thing to do or maybe you just didn't have the energy to care about making the right decision Give yourself a break >how is your day?worked on a map mody adding sounds and ambience >Oh and did you ever start that minecraft server you were talking about?nope I was busy but maybe this weekend we'll see I>>84597907>first year is the easiest by far ive heardidkk I've heard it's the hardest usually because you gotta adjust to everything and everything is stressful and new>9k tuition fee and 11k maitenance loanooh that's still a ton of money :<>mental problems and stuff..understandable >im finally seeing a doctor for it now at leastthat's sounds good hope it goes well anon !!>baaaaa no!! i hate the coldwell it's supposed to be uncomfortable and shocking and distracting but if you don't want that maybe you should get under a nice blanket and watch something relaxing for a while
>>84597967>idkk I've heard it's the hardest usually because you gotta adjust to everything and everything is stressful and newhmm i suppose so.. with my autism and stuff its been very hard.. but i feel like a failure regardless compared to my peersyeahh it sucks.. idk what i wanna do with myl ife.. only at uni cuz i dont wanna work.. i never wanna work>maybe you should get under a nice blanket and watch something relaxing for a whilefunny you say that anon! im doing that + drinking rn to pass the time :>I wish i could just be drunk/high forever..I hate being sober so so much my mind just tortures me :<
>>84598035>but i feel like a failure regardless compared to my peersyou say that as if a bunch of them aren't also going to really struggle with the finals >idk what i wanna do with myl ife.me too>im doing that + drinking rn to pass the time :>good work then! keep it up ^^watching anything cozy?>wish i could just be drunk/high forever..that'd be very unhealthy
>>84598127ugh i know i know but im just a failure in comparison okay.. i dont even try to study ughghgh i hate myself>>84598127uhm im watching the sharshank redemption rn! never watched it before bu ti love preson stuff>that'd be very unhealthyit sure would be..so maybe without the downsides then lol i just hate being sober... its like my own thoughts are constantly attacking me
I'm working on a teir list of terrible endings. Any suggestions?>>84597967>is it bad? It's like 90 degrees F>it's supposed to get better tomorrow Well that's good.>and do you have any relaxing planned?I guess I can try walking my dog again. He hasn't been willing to leave the house recently.>It all might seem easy and clear now but back then they probably felt like the right thing to doYeah, I just really felt like I had a shot.>worked on a map mody adding sounds and ambience oh cool what kind of sounds?>>84597717hi yu>just prepared some porchetta for later this weekOh cool, I've fallen behind on meal prep lately.
goin to sleep goodnight>>84598139>my own thoughts are constantly attacking meit doesn't seem like itbut the thoughts aren't true>>84598435>Any suggestions?nope sry>like 90 degrees Fthat's warm indeed >oh cool what kind of sounds?distant alarms, knocking in the walls, crying ect
>>84597759>quorthon - when our day is throughlistening to it right now. of to a good start.>i also listen to a ton of black metal, extra/hypertone, ambient and indie stuff :pi recognize the words phrases "black metal" and "indie stuff". i guess you can tell i'm not much of a music guy. ^^'>>84597797>that's greatyup. would be nice if i knew in adcsnce sometimes, so i could make some plans, but who am i kidding. wouldn't have spent the day any other way even if i knew.>that's should make getting through the week easierstuff can always go horribly wrong when you're looking forward to it too much, so i'll just try to play it cool. not let the universe know anything might be different.>enjoying it huh?it's fun and, more importantly, it doesn't overstay it's welcome. i like that it's rather limited in scope. too many games just end up as attention-sinks these days. and where else can you put a crab in a maid outfit?>just set up ambient sounds in the map now I should start working on the story and events partsounds like a plan. can you tell me how to install it when it's finished? would like to try it out.>>84597852hey cynic! :D>it's hotterribly sorry about that. :[>My dad broke his hand on the job.damn. hope he recovers well from that.>I can't help but feel that if I wasn't making crap wages the past few years, he'd be able to retiremaybe, but times are tough for most people rn and it'll probably get worse overall. just keep looking out for each other as good as you can.>>84598435>I've fallen behind on meal prep lately.not much of a meal prepper myself, but the stuff needs to dry out in the fridge for a few days, so some planning is definitely required for that one. gonna make some focaccia to go with it and maybe some coleslaw. what are you going to make?
>>84598490ughhh but they are.. im a failure in my current life and its all my fault..im just so lazy,, i never do anythng.. i deserve to be cut i wish someoen else could do it for me because i feel too corwardly
>>84598435>listas long as ian mcdiarmid can and wants to play palpatine, i'll always show up to watch it. doesn't matter how stupid the reason for it is. guy's been the only consistantly good thing about that franchise. >>84598490good night! sorry for the late reply. had to charge my phone.
>>84598572>im just so lazy,, i never do anythng..probably more of a mental health issue than anything. maybe try to get in the habit of starting your day with some light exercises or a small jog. might help you get in the right headspace for a productive day.>i deserve to be cutonly thing you deserve is a hug. (>^-^)><(^-^<)
>>84598660aaaa first of youre so nice thanks for your kindness.. hug..... :> id love to jsut hug someone whenever i get the urge to cut...and yeah i think it is due to mental health problems desu.. well my therapist person said it is but aaaa i cant help but feel like thjis is all my faultI need to be trying harder but i just cant aaaa i htae myselfI wish i could cry but i cant
>>84598490gn>>84598565>just keep looking out for each other as good as you can.thanks yu>what are you going to make?I wanna make more eggs and wraps.>>84598574Yeah I didn't know where to put star wars 7. I feel like it served the baseline purpose of being a star wars movie. I watched in while in rehab and I was just glad to be in the real world again. My friends there liked it a lot. So I wanted to put is closer to fine, but my brother agrues it's closer to GOT 8 levels. The more I think about it, it does fuck over every character arch. I think This version is a better list.
>>84598673>youre so nicethanks. you saying that means a lot. >id love to jsut hug someone whenever i get the urge to cutreally would be nice to have someone like that available at all times. guess this is the next best thing, though. thread feels like a warm blanket most of the times. the other times are a reminder what site we're on. :p>my therapist person said it is but aaaa i cant help but feel like thjis is all my faultin my unprofessional opinion, i'd say your therapist is right. i think one thing you have to accept is that there's loads of things that factor into your condition and that you're not responsible for everything that's wrong with you. that said: doesn't mean you don't have responsibility for yourself. it's important to understand which factors are outside of your immediate control and which ones you can affect and improve on.>I need to be trying harder but i just cant aaaa i htae myself I wish i could cry but i cantit's been a rough day for you. maybe some sleep would do you good. it's getting late for you too, isn't it? i'm way past bedtime already, so i'll call it a day soon.>>84598818>I wanna make more eggs and wrapsthat does sound like pretty good idea. maybe i need to have some eggs at the ready, too. gonna think about that.>I feel like it served the baseline purpose of being a star wars movie.same. not good that it's a remake of a new hope, but i would have been able to look past that if the following movies would have been any good or at least would have had any redeeming qualities at all. i'll still defend the decision to get jj abrams as a director, though. when i first saw his star trek movies my first thought was that they were shit star trek, but alright star wars, so i agree with mike in that choice. the mistake was letting him write that movie. for some reason director's these days think they're also great writers. they can be, but most of them simply aren't.
>>84598953aaa wow how did you know..its 1:30 am fromme so yeahbut i struggle to fall asleep unless drunk or high
>>84598818>The more I think about it, it does fuck over every character arch.it's actually incredible how bad everything in these movies is. i'll always argue how much i don't like the prequels and george lucas' terrible writing, but the sequels are so bad that i understand where people are coming from when they praise the prequels and lucas in comparison. i've always said whatever disney does can't be worse, but man did i get my words served back to me on a monkey's paw...rant aside, i'll check your improved list tomorrow. maybe you can write down what everything is? i don't know everything that's on there.>>84598972>aaa wow how did you know..you said you're from the uk, didn't you?>i struggle to fall asleep unless drunk or highmust be hard. just try to get comfy and let it happen. maybe put on some asmr/guided relaxation vid. those can be helpful.i'll be out now. good night, everyone!
>>84599006gn yu.I'm going to leave my list at this for now.
>>84599120Actually here, now I'm going to bed
