I was relentlessly abused in every way, how did I end up so empathetic?
>>84662280kinda reminds me of some shit i heard for what makes a villain/hero:a villain says "the world hurt me so i'll hurt the world" while a hero says "the world hurt me so i'll make sure it hurts no one else"
>>84662280>>84662336its gay as hell but to relate it back to you i guess you know how it feels to be treated like shit so you try to avoid doing that to others
>>84662280Look up the connection between sociotropy and trauma/PTSDSometimes getting abused makes you really, really sensitive to other people instead of turning you uncaring and cold, it's like a forked path where you either become selfless or selfish
>>84662280the same way we all doyou wanted to break cycle
my empathetic nature has completely ruined my life. I forgave too often and devoted myself to people who only harmed me over and over againSometimes I think those who end up thoughtlessly repeating the transgressions of their parents are really onto somethingI should have been a cold bitter asshole it gets you a lot further in life
when you learned too late to be a cold bitter backstabbing asshole and everyone took advantage of you and got ahead for it. now you're just a bitter asshole with nothing to show for it and you used to be good.
>>84662553>>84662583>>84662280I used to be a huge fuckup. And bipolar (fuckup / then not even trying). I had the same problem as OP. With Tourette looming. But I very often tried to understand myself and change. I tried to become a bad boy, I tried to change in many ways, but the most important is I tried to change. I wrote tons of pages of self-analysis. Always having a new self-coined mantra in my head.For 20 years I felt it was all bullshit and not working. I thought it was complacency, narcissism :> Ay me, ay me, let's analyze myself again today, instead of doing productive stuff like everyone does.Then there was a sudden shift, about 4 years ago (I'm 50 now. I have quit 4chan completely btw, just passing by). In the book "Atomic Habits", they use the ice cube metaphor. When you heat it, nothing seems to happen for a long time, like you're wasting energy. And then it suddenly melts, unexpectedly. The great thaw. Everything is better now (like the end of my horrible sleep pattern).Everything got better except the big things (wife, children, good job). But now there is hope. I'm much more productive, much less angry.I recommend watching the quebec film C.R.AZ.Y. . It's the biopic of a young man with 6 brothers (he's the sensitive one). He has a strange compulsion of risking his life, a huge death wish, but deeply you understand that he's fighting homosexual tendencies, and he wants to prove that he's worth being alive.Oh btw. I wrote tons (privately) on this very topic (OP's). More precisely, about the sentence "If you want to help others, help yourself first" (which is akin to "You have to love yourself first"). Writing many pages everyday helps when you look for peace, for who you are. Much better than shrinks, pills, flamewars, and various forms of self-hate and attack therapy.
oh, and doing gratitude journals (like with 5Min Journal, an app I had payed for). Surprising effects.
>>84662280identification with the victim.
