Why cant I see myself intimate? I can see myself being a mom, having a husband, but being intimate?I cant imagine it. In my mind ill have a family, and well hike and camp alot, and live far from a city with a greenhouse and grow food in our garden. We'll go fishing, and me and my husband will grow old together. But were just like friends, really really good feiends that hug and help eachother and maybe cuddle. Read books for eachother. Discuss and debate with eachother. He knows im a shit driver and that I always get sleepy when i drive, so he drives most of the time.And that I cant swim, so he teaches me, and that I struggle with using a ferro rod so he is the one that starts the fire. And we'll delegate tasks according to our strengths and weaknesses. Someone who knows all the cool and beautiful, but also weird and ugly stuff too. And who doesn't leave me after that. And ill know his weird and nasty shit too. But even then, I just cant see myself being intimate.Even though I do get horny every now and then, i just cant see myself intimate. Weird shit.
>blacks cant swimlolbut seriously you should learn to do that if you like going outdoors like what if you ford a river and get dragged under or what if you want to go kayaking
>>84663363Funny you say because i saved my mom from drowning once.First time we ever rented a cabin. Its morning and we both go out to pee, mom washes her foot in the water and slips. She cant swimI jump in and try to save herI cant swimSo we're slowly drifting, there is too much alge so I cant get a good grip. My dad is the only one that can swim, but he's sleeping.I genuinely thought we were gonna die.
>>84663353I can only speculatebut I would guess you are afraid of the outcomes that you reject in your mindyou must confront those fears in order to get what you seek
Cringe fantasy honestly, hiking and camping are gay as fuckThis is why you'll never have intimacy.
>>84663384Im very scared.I cant see why someone wouldnt leave me eventually. >>84663393Ah yes because humans are meant to look at 4 monitors simultaneously all our lives.>This is why you'll never have intimacy.Trvke i fear.
Woman here, real one not a fakeo creep scroteYou are afraid of intimacy and idealize family moments. You are a coward with reason men are crazy. Sorry.
Comfy fantasy and I wish for similar life in future for myself. I also get the intimacy thing since I'm fucking terrified of that. >Someone who knows all the cool and beautiful, but also weird and ugly stuff too. And who doesn't leave me after that. And ill know his weird and nasty shit too.I feel like this is the most intimate thing you can do but maybe my ESL ass is misunderstanding the word.
>>84663353>He knows im a shit driver and that I always get sleepy when i drive, so he drives most of the time.>And that I cant swim, so he teaches me, and that I struggle with using a ferro rod so he is the one that starts the fire. And we'll delegate tasks according to our strengths and weaknesses.>also, I don't want to put outBitch, what the fuck do you do? What are you adding to this equation?
>>84663433Camping and hiking may just be gay as fuck, but trying to shift the discussion into the territory of nebulous "what humans are meant to do" has reached further into the depths of gayYou are meant to consume, reproduce, and wither away into dust. Beyond that, do whatever (besides camping and hiking)
>>84663453if this were an actual traditional lifestyle, the wife would be raising their 5+ children, with the help from the eldest few kids, cooking, washing the clothes by hand at a creek, cleaning, sewing and repairing damaged clothes, when it's harvest season being out in the field in the scorching sun loading potatoes into bags and picking up wheat into bundles, maintaining the vegetable garden preserving, drying, pickling food, turning milk into butter, cheese, yogurt etc. The eldest kids would shepherd their cows and goats and sheep, take care of their younger siblings, help with the harvest and field work, help with hard manual labour if boys, and cook, sew, clean if girls.The husband would do the hard manual labour, scythe mowing, orchard maintenance, ploughing with oxes, the slaughtering of animals (everyone helps with cleaning chickens, but killing 250-300 kilo hogs or oxen is a job for a few men), building repairs (when the wind blows tile off the roof etc), larger machine repairs and handywork. Everyone helped with milking the cows and staying up all night when they were giving birth. In fact it was such an important event that even your neighboirs expected you to wake them up at 3-4 am to help you with youe cow giving birth (in exchange for you helping them of course).Going to the big city happened rarely if ever. Usually outings were common, but to church fairs or local events like dances, fairs, or hiking (actually hiking was more of a must-do if you had goats and sheep and you lived near a mountain). This is what life was like as a rural farm family like 60-70 years ago in most of Europe. Nowadays lots of the work is automatic through machines, combines, etc. But animal husbandry didn't change much, you still gotta wake up early to milk your cows and let your sheep out to pasture
>>84663353>>84663433Would you be fine with me having another wife or two alongside you? I like how you describe yourself and I definitely like girls who are simultaneously "cool" yet loyal partners, but I also like girls who are very clingy and intimate. I like variety but I'm not the kind of guy who cheats. I'd have all my girls living together and being good friends or even like sisters. You don't have to worry about being everything I want in a woman. You can just be you. If you were a good person who didn't cause trouble then I'd never have a reason to give you the boot.
>>84663564oh and those 5+ kids was from them constantly having sex. Women didnt really have a say, husband was working in the field sowing the summer crop for the past 5 days working dawn till dusk, if he wanted to fuck you are fucking. There was no concept of "ohh my head hurts and my little toes hurt and i have the meeting in 2 days... im not feeling it today", nah nigga that was for city slicker faggots. Rural people fucked all the time. Especially at winter when there's not a lot of shit to do.
>>84663442I dunno whatever is intrinsic in that relationship. Im just mentioning my side of the relationship.>>84663443Nah, you are understanding that right. Someone who knows my problems but wouldnt detest me for it. I know eith certanty that i wouldn't detest him for it.>>84663564>>84663593I wouldn't want whatever this is.
>>84663593AHAHA WRONG REPLY SORRY. I MEANT THE OTHER DUDE.Are you that underwater welder from the south?
>>84663832this is an actual rural lifestyle. or do you actually just want a rich millionaire tech bro 7 foot tall gigachad to swoop down and finance your larping in a cabin in the woods, while you fuck around and frolick in the fields and dont even give him pussy?you are a worthless non contributing vermin. you have no use to society. keep yourself locked in your ludicrous fantasies until you become infertile so we as a society dont have to deal with your genes spreading kthx.
>>84663844Nah I'm in the rockies, planning on moving to west virginia to buy land in a year or two. Where are you?
>>84664135Its beautiful over at the rockies, why would you move? Unless its to the west coast, which is even more beautiful. You wanna move yo appalachia or something?I myself live in europe though.>>84663858Youre being weird anon. I dont want to lead a medieval lifestyle with 8 kids. I like electricity and running water. I just figured that i can produce electricity myself and running water i will figure out.Whats worse is that I never attributed any defining traits to my fictional husband, you did. Youre delusional. Sorry.
>>84664190You want an instagram aesthetic and a guy who'll do your shit for you so you don't even have to learn or put effort into your own larp. Embarrassing. Snufkin would never visit you at your cabin when he's passing by to drink coffee with someone like you.
>>84664190I was born on the west coast and left because the politics, cost of living, and economy were awful. Now the politics and cost of living are awful here in the rockies because the west coasters I was trying to get away from moved here too. Where I am is an ugly brown and yellow desert with no water and the laws seem to be set up specifically to spite anyone who wants to homestead or live off grid.>EuropeAh that's too bad. I'm not planning on leaving the US.
>>84663353I would be your bf but you're not real
>>84664190>be me>in europe>coastal city>do a veggie garden as a hobby>sorta rural>aaaaand its bulgariaat least we have bangaranga, lol
>>84663353I kinda have that too in that I feel like I'm starting to realize I don't actually want to have sex. I can fap to sexyfoid.jpg and have a bullshit fantasy, but trying to imagine it happening in reality makes my brain glitch out for some reason. Like the appeal is gone if it could actually happen.
>>84663353are you asexual?do you think the idea is repulsive, even with the hypothetical husband you love so much, or is it just not something you think you'd be interested in and your sex drive would practically be zero and it just isn't something you'd ever initiate, but you don't have particularly negative feelings about it either?
>>84663353desu that sounds like the perfect life OP.I'm a dude but have similar intimacy issues as well. IDK what causes it. Maybe its society's degeneracy or something in the water. I always feel weird describing it because I'm not asexual, I get horny and find women attractive, but its like there is some sort of block that keeps intimacy at arms length.
>>84664574Stop spraying your mana into a sock. Keep it inside of yourself where it belongs and your wildest dreams will come true
>>84665969Lmao that's even worse, if I stop masturbating then my already poor libido dies completely and I nearly forget that sex exists.
