Work at my remote 6 figure software engineering jobBig apartmentWork outCook steakReadSleep 8 hoursWhy am I not fulfilled. Why am I still depressed
>>84667163For many people, probably even most people, fulfillment can only come from having children. This is true even for many people who don't think they want children.
It's probably because you built your entire personality around 4chan politics. You're alienated by society because you're a chud.
>>84667163describe your 'depression'? be detailed
>>84667294Society doesn't exist. What you perceive as society is just a flux of competing desires and self-focussed demands imposed upon external structures and phenomena. In your mind you have already divided the world but it is your mind that is divided. You have the utopian vision of being engulfed by the society yet this vision and this ideal is only able to exist due to your own lack of experience with the thing you label as 'society'. There is no society.
>>84667163Because you need to take the meditationpill. I am a total loser, on all types of welfare, nonwhite (and not a normie or thugmaxxed), etc. Life objectively sucks for me. But I catch myself, multiple times a day, saying "life is good" in my head. And it's not because I'm low IQ or non sentient or whatever. I just took the meditationpill and achieved a decent amount of detachment from the mind, which leads to inner peace. Which sounds gay and almost meaningless but it's legit. Just learn to meditate, get into the gaps between thought and you'll see.
>>84667310lmao okay chudI'm not the one bitching and moaning on 4chan about how sad I am
Observe: >>84667351>lmao okay chudI'm not the one bitching and moaning on 4chan about how sad I am
Wow.My dream is to live like you.Just in the woods and not a big apartment, but a small homestead. Wow.This is my fucking drean how do i land a 6fig remote engineering job?Studying Mech Engineering desu
>>84667163Do your hobbies actually make you happy?Also are you doing cardio? I didn't get that much of a mental health boost from the gym but cardio (especially jogging/riding outside) actually helped a ton.
>>84667163>remote 6 figure software engineering joblost my 6 figure job been applying like crazy, how hard is it to get a remote job? i want one badly i hate being in office with normies.
>>84667297I have a lack of interest in continuing doing what I am doing but I don't know what else I should be doing.I am not as depressed as many people, I am still healthy and have goals, but I feel like there is a lack of emotion in everything.When I am social or in public places like airports I become more depressed than when I am alone, I'm not certain why. I'm probably partially autistic.I have trouble forming relationships, I'm 27 and have never dated. I have few friends, less now that I stopped using /soc/. I don't think I'm unattractive or a bad person, so I'm assuming it has to do with the fact that I dislike social situations and I have trouble with affection.I have a lack of dopamine in daily life.I don't enjoy things as much as other people seem to.I would like to change but I'm not sure what the point would be.
>>84667163did you mean to list no hobbies or are you that much of a blank slate?
>>84667475It's fairly difficult.I applied to 200 jobs to get my last in person job a few years ago.This new remote one I got because I knew the other software engineer, who was my coworker at my in person job.I don't know how the market is with AI.I would use something like Simplify to auto fill your resume and mass apply to jobs on LinkedIn and stuff.
fuck bitches, start fights
>despegate de esa computadora y celullar... I mean... I think some of this is toxic co-depencace is going to subside once we meet IRL
>>84667451Yeah I enjoy my hobbiesMy current hobbies are exercising and watching depressing foreign movies.I have been doing weight lifting for 250 days or so but I will switch to running very soon. Hopefully it helps. I think running can help with testosterone.
>>84667480I have had sex with beautiful women and felt empty afterwards, it was not fulfilling. The sex was fun, it was amazing. But I still felt unfulfilled. I will just share my thoughts about what you wrote and you can take it or leave it:>I have a lack of interest in continuing doing what I am doing but I don't know what else I should be doing.You have to do certain things, you have to make money to buy food, to secure your housing, to take care of your body and mind. >I am not as depressed as many people, I am still healthy and have goals, but I feel like there is a lack of emotion in everything.Emotions are various things. Some are wonderful some are more challenging. Do you know what kind of emotion you want? I personally do not agree with the idea that emotion should be in everything - some things are better without emotion. Some things can only be done without emotion.>When I am social or in public places like airports I become more depressed than when I am alone, I'm not certain why. I'm probably partially autistic.You're probably taking a fantasy, an ideal, and then layering it over the scene that you are in - e.g. you go into the airport and then you start layering over an ideal scenario about everyone who has their lovely little life with their lovely little life. You are then sad about a fantasy. >the fact that I dislike social situations and I have trouble with affection.You can, unironically, go to therapy for that if you wish. But my brutally cynical view is that forming relationships comes from 3 things:1. Proximity. Mostly proximity is not from something people choose. Most people don't have that much agency over their lives.2. Need (greed). People make connections with other people when they want something from that person.3. Stochastic phenomena. RNG. Just randomness. (cont)
>>84667534>>84667480>I have a lack of dopamine in daily life.This doesn't make sense to me. Dopamine is something that has multiple uses in our system. When too much dopamine is being flooded into our system our dopamine receptors are then downregulated, reduced. Maybe you have been doing things that activate too much dopamine and your receptors are downgraded. I'd recommend quitting porn, shortform content, and videogames. >I don't enjoy things as much as other people seem to.This is a challenge as most people enjoy escapism. Do you really want to watch 6f5 guys who get paid 300m per year throw a ball around? The masses obsess over lowest common denominator shit. You have agency, you have money, you can actually build and create things. >I would like to change but I'm not sure what the point would be.There is no point other than the journey - but that can only be experienced after you have enough money and financial security.
>>84667504thanks. im guessing im fucked then as i got fired from last job.
>>84667554Likely a good idea. I have already quit short form content and messaging women on 4chan.Porn I have not but would like to.I am left alone nowNo reason to use my phone, not much to do.>>84667534Thanks for the advice. Not all of it applies to me but I appreciate the response.
>>84667600All good, and best of luck. and if you want to feel good buy some toys for a local hospital with your extra cash and then donate them for the children's ward for the sick kids. Do it the proper way, the hospital will have some kind of process or procedure. That might make you feel pretty good.
>>84667514>I mean... I think some of this is toxic co-depencace is going to subside once we meet IRLIt might even not work out..you might dump meI'm fat, got ED, premature seminal ejaculation. lacking on the girth department, manlet... sweaty hands and asshole.
