>any other robots been failed by the mental health system? been trying to get myself together for 10+ years. have many traumas and had a very fucked up childhood. been in and out of therapy (cbt, dbt, ifs, emdr), received a different diagnosis each time, tried every category of antidepressant at least once, forced into inpatient programs multiple times (which gave me perspective, seeing others who were literally not here anymore, just husks, but still traumatizing in itself). im 26 now and left wondering if i am just unfixable. i genuinely want to be better, but cannot get to the root of everything. is modern psychology just fucked, if you arent normie enough to be fixed by them? am i just too retarded?
>>84730461Fuck that rat
>>84730461in the sense that nobody cared to help a comically depressed child in the first place and just let him decay for 30 years sure
yeah the system just doesnt care enough to actually fix people. i mean, how will they get money if everyone gets better? ur not too retarded because the big guys want more moneys
>>84730500im sorry that no one truly acknowledged your suffering. i think that childrens mental health is neglected far too often. things get labeled as a phase or as dramatics way too easily. i also think it is easier to ignore it than acknowledge it in its fullness, because it is too heavy for most. either way, a kid is never deserving of having their suffering ignored.
>>84730531thats a good point. its sad that this could be the case. they convince you that you just have to try and if you do all the things youre supposed to, then it will get better. and if you dont, then it is your fault for not being receptive enough or unwilling to change
>>84730461To your main point, no you are not unfixable, you just haven't found something that's specifically helpful to your needs. Everything you've listed can be helpful but isn't to you, which isn't uncommon.
>>84730614thank you for the encouragement. i will keep seeking, but will probably be trying other methods outside of what a therapist or mental health professional can provide, unless it is radically different than what care ive received thus far. im just very tired of being let down. its hard to not blame myself and get caught up in a shame cycle when i fail.
>been failed by the mental health system?Yes. Was in therapy five times in 15 years. Nobody caught that I was an autist.My years of attempting to be a normie and wagie were doomed to failure.I was brutally exposed in my single year as a wagie in my late 20s.I finally asked for an autism test years ago, they never got back to me.Multiple online tests say I am one; on the cusp of mild and severe.God forbid that they make it easier for me to keep my 'bux or anything.Only positives is that they did diagnose me depressed and anxious in my teens.
>>84730461It's a scam anon. Just get an escort to cuddle with you literally. Better than any therapy
>>84730461Ia am low iq and have been failed my whole life. Schools passed by me even though Im retarded. No way to survive in this world being a retard. Can barely count, oh well. Therapist cant do anything for me. and nope no goybux either. Gotta join the rat race along with everyone else except I have no legs. They want me to run without legs
>>84730461Haha ratte
>>84730461i only found out last year, after therapy since childhood and different psych appointments and even a hospitalization over the years, that i am bipolar type 1. i am 25 now but my life feels absolutely fucked. i am fucking insane. i look back at old journals from when i was like 17 years old and i still act the exact fucking same no matter how hard i try to calm down. i am a manic psycho and have attempted suicide multiple times and was hospitalized, and i have scars from cutting. i was even homeless for a little bit because my parents kicked me out and i ended up 3000 miles away before i finally at least somewhat got my life together. fuck man i cant do this shit anymore. i cant even make friends because i make people uncomfortable. i don't even care about romantic relationships at all. my life is so painfully isolated, i'll never amount to anything.
>>84730942i relate to this a lot and feel like it has to do with my own struggles in treatment. i showed a ton of signs dating back my entire memory. ive taken every reputable test i could find online and scored around that same range every time. i would take the official test, but it would run me about a $800-$900.my most recent therapist gave me her opinion, though, and agreed that i am most likely autistic. while its nice to know that there is a reason for a lot of my struggles - not that im just inexplicably bad at being a person. theres still only so much i can do about it. the knowledge of my condition only takes me so far. i have to forever operate in a system that feels alien to me, and i feel alien to it. i know how to mask, but it is draining. i can only do it for so long before it starts to fuck with me. sorry for the tangent.
>>84731391i dont have the answer to any of this, anon, but if it helps any, youre not alone in most of your experience.i have cptsd and experience terrifying highs and lows off of it. used to cut and still cant self-regulate worth a damn. maybe it will click for you one day how to ride out the lows and coast the highs. i am hoping the same for myself.
>>84730471YOU EAT THE RAT EAT IThttps://youtu.be/O9J-dL1LS9U
>>84731420I understand, anon.For me, autism certainly explains my two decades of NEETdom, and why I failed to integrate in even office work (damned phones). I could not mask enough, even for a full day. It would always crack, and I'd sperg out or snap because of what is now universal work pressures. Now even though I get 'bux anyway, having a formal 'tism diagnosis can only help my case to keep it, as the fuckers will always come after me.My personal situation, and the fact that autists are incompatible with this dogshit post-2008 'people person' economy, are part of why I long for UBI. TFW no attainable and comfy back office job, WFH or local. No nepo-hire for me either. As a kid in the 90s, I actually thought I could be a success, even as a social retard and failed gifted kid. Now all work (if one can even get it, and is not paywalled with uni-debt or covered in red tape) is super-extroverted and sociopathic normie central. Absolutely miserable for autists who just want to 'hide' and just do the fucking work in the background. Even just trying to stay out of office politics and this adult playground bullshit gets one hated or mistrusted. One is always obliged to take a side, or be despised. Childish.Globalism and outsourcing (and deliberate under-staffing) fucked us royally too. As with many pre-Zoomers, we were raised for a world that no longer exists. Then there's the perma-inceldom...
>>84730461>failed by the mental health system?yes. i have been told to just "go outside and exercise" after showing (in tests) literally every symptom of crippling depression (among other things) and even after telling the psychologist and psychiatrist i tried (and still want to) kill myself. they just dont care anon. therapy only works for normalfags. i dont think mental issues are ever fixable, they can only be made less crippling with drugs. in exchange of your money and you getting addicted of course, and with the risk that it just might make you worse! how fun. yeah i dunno, best of luck to you anon.
>>84730461what is that thing? creepy beady glossy bulging eyes, like a crab or bug.
>>84730461I entered therapy at 12 and now I have literal brain damage from antipsychotics. They reduce the gray matter in your brain. I only ever got worse in their "care"
>>84730461>is modern psychology just fuckedAlways has been. It usually provides an ear to complain, but above that it's complete luck. If you are compatible with the psychologist - it might help, otherwise it won't or will make it worse. You spent 10+ years suffering and didn't end it yet - means you are at least that strong. If you care for an unc advice - here you go. Take a breather, fill your 3 basic needs (roof, food, thing to kill a few hours a day AND feel good about it). Not gonna lie - it might take a while depending on where and how you are now. Then you can start recovering and working over your traumas. It'll get better slowly. You will never be a chud normie with rich parents, but you can totally find a way forward that feels good
>>84730461if you are born neurodivergent then you are incompatible from the start.it will never get better for you.
>>84730461I've never done that shit because it seemed like both a waste of time and a massive bother. Drugs I guess at least do something but I don't want to be a druggie, I just self-medicate with alcohol.
