Anyone else could maybe want to improve their lives but see the meaning of life as subjective? You can call it coping, depression, whatever, but I genuinely don't see why I should be happy or sad or any state in particular. Why I should have sex or a family or a job. Why I shouldn't kill myself at some point and be a miserable loser. I just don't see a subjective need to survive and be happy in any way. It seems so subjective. It's not that I'm fine as I am, since I'm not, it's that I don't have a sufficient reason to change, as it seems too subjective to want to change. Since even my suicide would be a subjectively bad thing, why would I give a shit.
>>84749317me personally, my life got somewhat better when i stopped thinking abt it and doing the things i like, you can think abt the reason why you should be happy or do this or do that but like, thinking about it is kinda pointless, just turn ur brain off and do what you wanna dopeople who think all the time have nothing to think about but thoughts or something like that
Yeah I understand sort ofI know what I need to do to "win the game" that is be a low inhibition sociopath constantly puffing up his egoBut the system is just so abhorrent and against my personality I honestly just want to press a button and leave this backwater reality if I could
