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I desperately wish I had people around me who made my life better. I'm so tired of everyone being a retarded unrelatable piece of shit who refuses to do anything good in their lives. They won't help me or even themselves. They destroy themselves and complain to me about being destroyed while disregarding all solutions to their problems, even the really easy ones. I'm constantly being poisoned and disrespected by these "people". I can never just relax. I've never felt free to express anything honest anywhere except on 4chan. My family has done more harm to me than anyone else in the world by far, and my experiences with them made me extremely misanthropic and apprehensive about interacting with anyone for any reason. From my perspective, everything is so awful and pointless that it's hard for me to believe other people even want friends or anyone else in their lives. Why would they? Don't they know having other people in your life can only make things worse? That's the only outcome I've observed in my life. Supposedly basic assets like friends, a girlfriend, a source of income, etc feel impossible to obtain. The idea of ever having any of that is as outlandish as the idea that I'll wake up as Batman tomorrow. I would feel a lot better in my isolation if everyone around me could at least be neutral to my life instead of a detriment to it. I'm 30 years old with nothing and no one. The things I've done for other people have never been reciprocated. This life has been so miserable and solitary. I wish I was never born. It's like my parents only wanted kids so they could sabotage them. Every single one of their kids is a fuckup