The first time I "fell in love," I was in 6th grade. I could not get over this person. Unrequited love for 3 years. I look back and cringe at all the stuff I did. I didn't even know how autistic I was. When I gained the capacity to reflect and had a better theory of mind, around 15, I realized how annoying I was. I went from super extroverted to not talking to anyone.

I don't think for me it began at school but it definitely did push the issue.
I was never really good at anything, even video games, making friends was a struggle too, and it didn't help that my classmates were jerks that would constantly make fun of how I looked because of how fat I was at the time.

That kind of led me into being a total social recluse and not having the tiniest of ideas of how to act around people, and it still carries to this day.

>>84784479
Sounds about right for me too. I wish there could be a class to learn how to behave properly, would've probably helped me a lot

>>84784447
Public school did.
College didn't, it actually helped me break free.

>>84784447
Yeah, it did. The most memorable experience was when a girl in my class spent an entire lesson shit-talking me out loud because I wouldn't let her copy my homework. Nobody said anything, but to be fair, neither did I.

That part stuck with me more than anything else because I feel like not standing up for myself basically told the other kids I wasn't going to do anything about it. I don't know, sometimes it feels like I've been carrying that defeat ever since. Not necessarily the bullying itself, but the habit of just taking things and not asking for help, if that makes sense.

Another time, because of the seating arrangements, the entire class ended up sitting together in the back row while I was by myself in the front. I could hear them whispering about me behind my back. Some of them even told my friends to go sit with me, but they refused, and I heard that too.

>>84784447
the only good memory I have of school is when me and the cute girl were cutting together and we were sent to the school's psychiatrist together

>>84784447
Saw a group of three guys laying into this scrawny dude. So I jumped in to help him. Didn't really do much, just pushed them off him and grabbed one's arm and swung him into a wall when he tried to throw a punch. Teacher showed up and broke it up.
At this point I should qualify that I was a big kid, but also an autist. This was back in the 90's, too. And from the moment I started school, every single one of my female teachers seemed to just fucking hate me for no real reason. Now, they'd been teaching us the usual idealistic boomer crap they don't actually practice, lies essentially. Everything should be fair, everyone is equal, bullying is never okay, the strong should help the weak, you must stand up for others if you can, ect. And I believed them.
So I get pulled into the office expecting to be told 'good job breaking that up and helping your classmate'. Instead I am told by a furious roastie that she 'knows' it was me that started the fight and that I'm a no-good, bad child, and I should be thrown out of the school. I try to explain what actually happened but she just keeps cutting me off and telling me to stop making excuses. It took me years to realize they literally didn't even know about the scrawny dude - he'd taken off the second I jumped in, and all three of the bullies must have made up a lie about me attacking them. These fucking morons didn't even TRY to investigate the truth. They didn't look for the scrawny kid, didn't ask me who he was or what he looked like. They just decided I was the problem and then filled in the blanks to justify punishing me. I get told they have a 'zero tolerance' policy for bullying other kids and tons of detention, they talked to my parents, my mother freaked out and slapped me around the room like she usually did, all because I'd done the right thing, and acted the way they'd all taught me to act.

>Did school push you into becoming a robot?
>If so, what's your most notable experience?
Somewhat. I started skipping class in year/grade 8.
I hated being around these fucks. Got into fights; so got a tiny but of respect.
Eventually taken out of school a year and a half from the end due to getting my nose broken. Never took my exams.
After a year as a proto-NEET, which I fucking loved BTW, I spent about five months with a unit for troubled kids and got into college.
Passed the first year. Of course there was no chance of sex. Had another year out. Passed a second year, still never got laid.
Other than a year as a wagie in my late 20s that exposed my 'tism, I have NEETed for 7,298 days. My default is to stay away from normies.
In this post-2008 globalist hellscape, there are no tolerable jobs for social retards who want to work alone, and not have to talk much. I hate phones.

I was bullied and then I developed social anxiety and then I became isolated and then I had trouble expressing emotions.

>>84784447
The final day of high school, I walked out without receiving a single goodbye. I spent four fucking years at that place, and didn't make a single friend close enough to even wish me well.

I was pure sperg from the get-go and I knew it and they knew it.

I was able to survive from like 1st grade until around 9th grade by being deliberately weird or like zany-funny. I made weird jokes and funny noises and other other kids laughed and they left me alone.

When we got to high school that zany shit didn't fly anymore. It was all about hormones, socializing, and fucking and all I had were the hormones. From that point on I wasn't welcome in society and I just withdrew.