How do I look in the mirror and see a person worth loving? For someone who pretends to not care what others think of me I feel like I still crave acceptance. I hate how I look. I hate how terrible I am at sparking interest in others. I hate how time bleeds by and I remain stuck in place. I hate how I only have periods of lucidity and feel like I am actually alive when I am mentally unstable. I want purpose and love and am unable to find it in this world we live in. It is hard to see anything but a decrepit mockery of something that was once beautiful.
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>>84800831188cm and white
>>84800842Why dont you like what you see in the mirror? You are pretty close to the beauty standards. You will eventually find someone.
>>84800891I am average looking at best. A background character in the eyes of others and easily forgotten. I don't think time will fix anything for me. Plenty of it has passed. At this point I would be happier to simply be delusional and have an ego that makes me feel confident because it's tiring living with so much self loathing.
>>84800821Some things that have helped me. I know you may have tried these things before, but maybe something will help you:>I hate how I look. You'd be surprised how much fashion and a haircut can change up how you look. Sounds stupid, but I recommend using AI to help you find a haircut that would look good on you. >I hate how terrible I am at sparking interest in others. This probably isn't entirely your fault. Most people such at having conversations nowadays. It is a skill you can learn. You can look around online for resources. >I hate how time bleeds by and I remain stuck in place. The economy is shit and it's not your fault. We did not evolve to live in these conditions. Make tiny goals for yourself. Maybe try creating a schedule for your days, where you block out what you want to do during certain times. >I hate how I only have periods of lucidity and feel like I am actually alive when I am mentally unstable.Can you explain this more?
>>84800954Doing many of the things you recommended already. I've been taking better care of myself and have probably spent hundreds on face care, hair products, colognes, whitening strips and plenty of other things. Hopefully the results will show themselves soon. >Can you explain this more?When I have manic episodes everything is right in the world. I am the best version of myself. I am a person you could want to be around I am someone who could be loved. I can enjoy things. Unfortunately the feeling doesn't last long and doesn't occur frequently so I have to return to my normal state.
>>84801001You probably need to not look at yourself in the mirror for a while, too. I felt better after I took a break. It's like your mind sees more and more wrong when you look at yourself deeply everyday. >manic episodes Can't say I have much advice for this. From what I understand about manic episodes, you loose your inhibition and shame. Maybe working in these outside of your manic episodes will help you in your regular state?
>>84800821It is a shame for a man to grow old without seeing the beauty and strength of which his body is capable. What do you think this means
