There's a painless, (relatively) foolproof way to travel to Gensokyo, and I figured to document my findings and experimentations here for anyone else who is struggling and lost in life like I am with no other way forward.Your key component is nitrogen. It comprises 80% of the air we breathe, so your body doesn't have a natural reflex when you inhale it ala carbon monoxide. There's no subconscious choking, gasping -- it actually acts as a hallucinogen so your body begins to tingle and you feel relaxed as you inhale more of it. The objective is to displace all the oxygen in your brain with nitrogen, giving you a happy trip and sense of elation while you drift between the barriers of this world and the next.Nitrogen is easily obtainable. Welding supply stores, anything, you name it. Why do you need it? To inflate your bike tyres. Because you like to add nitrogen into your coffee. Whatever, they won't blink an eye. 30cu tank fill costs about $30, it's very accessible. Walk in with your canister, walk out. You can even trade yours in for something pre-filled depending where you are.The components you'll need are all easily ordered from Amazon. You will need the following:CGA580-compatible canister.Nitrogen regulator.Nitrogen flow regulator. (this is something different).Nitrogen cable.Oxygen mask.When you twist the valve on the canister, it will let out all 2,000psi of pressured gas pretty quickly, you can end up inadvertently bleeding a lot. So you use a regulator which brings the output flow from 2,000 to about 400psi. This, however, is still too much. It'll make your oxygen mask fly off the connector.Next you need a flow regulator which will bring the output stream of gas to about 50psi. Human exhalations is 15psi, let's just go with 3x that and then some for wiggle room. 50 is comfortable. It feels like a fan on your face. Connect everything, twist it all, and put on your favourite song. You're set.
The key mistake you'll make is not having enough nitrogen. Simple mistake to make! Maybe you had trouble getting everything wrenched together (you have to torque the connections or they'll bleed nitrogen!) and so you lost a lot of volume. Maybe you got scared and closed the valve. That's okay! So here's some steps to guarantee your success.1: The instinct to survive is really strong. That's why nitrogen works. The more you inhale, the more of a pseudo-hallucinogen it is, and you'll start "getting high". Your eyelids will fall heavy, and in my case, you'll see colours. That's pretty cool. Nitrous-oxide is a painkiller, after all. So keep going.2: It takes longer than you think. I was under the impression it would take about 3 inhalations to make you unconscious. It's more around 2-3 minutes, but it's a gradual and linear experience. The more you inhale, the more you float.3: Everything relaxes, including your muscles. Including your bladder. Embarrassingly, I had to stop 3 times because I felt like I was going to lose control. Whoops. So, probably water fast first.4: Don't tell anyone. Nobody will understand. You'll have really confused police banging on your door. Keep it a secret. Active-SI is a 2 week psych ward minimum, unless they lose your paperwork and don't know why you're there in the first place. Easy to fabricate your way out.5: Have fun. There's no shame in death. You're only transiting to the state you were before, to Mu, to nothingness. Learn from my mistakes!
There you go! Even the most cowardly, pathetic anons like me can bake something quite wonderful with that recipe. I'm on cooldown for a little longer, but I figured to share my findings for everyone else. Civilization is built on the sharing of knowledge. We're civilized people. Let's love each other.
I wonder why I was put on this earth
>>84834242It's never too late to make up for mistakes.>>84834271To suffer. To serve as a warning to others. To humiliate yourself for other people's enjoyment like some twisted, reverse-dancing monkey. Who knows? Really -- no reason. There is no greater reason to anything. Life is what you make of it. If you can't make anything of it, well. That's our problem.
Damn Anon, you sound like a really kind person. Too nice for this rotten world, I suppose. Wish I could give you a hug before you head off to Gensokyo...
>>84834532Ah, well. "Kind" and "Nice" aren't really currencies you can cash in to advance your way in life. I guess, ironically enough, it is a terminal lack of hugs that brings me to this nexus. But, what can you do. We are but products of our environment. I was not chartered for enough hugs to survive.
You're doing God's work sonny. One of the more murderous ones, I think.
>>84834558There's zero shame in death. It's not murderous. Nobody -actually- cares.
Is this the most painless method that exist so far Its interesting that theres no list on the internet that says which is the most painless way to go
>>84834548>aren't really currencies you can cash in to advance your way in life.Indeed... if anything, it feels like they only hold you back in life, unfortunately. > terminal lack of hugsMm, I might succumb to the same at some point if things keep on as they are. Sad how we are all wired to need to connection yet some are denied it entirely. And there isn't anyone to blame for it but the nature of the world itself.
>>84834598It's painless because oxygen displacement is inherently painless. Your body does not register it as pain, it's a hallucinogen. The sensation is that of floating and being at general peace. It's also foolproof in the sense that -- if you have enough Nitrogen, the brain dies, and so you have zero chance of resuscitation. Most other methods (firearms, overdose, etc) leave you at mercy of chance and the body is surprisingly resilient.
Do not do it, anons. I love you all.
>>84834631it truly is the best method then but i think having a mask on can freak people out to remove it unless they are 100% committed>>84834636so kind
>>84834636I think you're the actual worst type of person. If I could remove one person from the Earth in trade off for my self delete, it would be you. I hate people who speak empty platitudes. How can you love an anonymous post? You don't. You're lying. So many people in this world would and could be fixed with love, but you spout this empty charade here in this chat box. To quote a friend I lost: it's masturbatory. You're saying that just so -you- feel good.>>84834674The mask is kind of weird but you can just swap the valve on and off to progress through it. Eventually you'll turn it open for the last time. Unless you're a bit silly like me and ran out of gas, and snap back to this real world clawing it off your face as your suffocation reflex kicks in. But that won't happen if you get things wrenched in place the first time.There's always the second time, otherwise. Honestly, it's comfy. It's the only thing that calms me down anymore. The thought of....wearing that mask again. Soon enough.
>>84834198I was thinking the same thing recently so thanks for your guide anon.At 30 it's basically hopeless for me to ever be happy. No woman has ever given me affection, and my attempts to reach out to them just end in failure and humiliation. I've tried dozens of times over the years, but it doesn't matter. I wasted my youth working hard thinking things would get better, but they never did. Now it's time to give up and just fuck off from this miserable world.Goodluck anon I hope you find happiness with your waifu.
>>84834221>You're only transiting to the state you were before, to Mu, to nothingness.Too optimistic.Realizing that open individualism is most likely true cured me of my suicidal ideation because oblivion isn't possible and there is no easy escape from the suffering inherent in existing.
>>84834692I wish I never was here to begin with I can never take back all the pain and suffering I went through for no reason
Saving for later. My first option was SN, but that's too hard to find. I'm 21 but my life's been unsalvageably bad since an event a few years ago... I was convinced before even since I was a child, but even moreso I am proven right. I could be given a reason, I could meet people. But that doesn't change that people still think of me as the retard on benefits. All I am, really. Cannot escape it with will or achievements. People are temporary regardless, they die or hate you or get bored, and all leave in the end regardless. More painful or not, closer or less, it's the same.
Nothing ultimately matters, but having a good time. If you're here, may as well enjoy yourself. If you're not enjoying yourself, why are you even here. I'm honestly struggling to find any meaning in my continued existence. It's all faggotry and loneliness.
>>84834198if I go can I have sex with the animay gurls?
>>84834900i cant enjoy anything either this world is so boring and dreary
>>84834794Nothing has a reason. But you don't have to endure this agony for much longer, anon. I've given you the knowledge with which we can both escape this rock together.>>84834809If you do this while your age begins with a 1 or 2, I think that's a waste. But who am I to judge? How unfair of me. I hope that my trial and error helps you overcome the errors in this world that put you and I through such trials.>>84834900Dog. I am not having a good time. At all. Infact, I'm having a horrible time, and inflicting that on everywanwan around me. I'd rather slice this errant strand off at the seam.
Other people: don't do it, the world needs youThere are way too many fucking people as it is. There should be way fewer. Anybody who truly cares about the planet and environment would have to agree that removing people is the greenest act there can be. The only shame is those who self select out of the gene pool may be unknowingly shaping future human evolution.
>>84834989this planet is just going to die out eventually anyway and humans cant live on mars so who gives a fuck only do this for yourself not saving earth or for other people or whatever
>>84834989Who cares retard?
>>84834989I decided when I kill myself I'd definitely take someone else out with me. I don't know who though. Just seems like if you're gonna kill yourself you might as well make the world a better place on your way out. If you genuinely feel like the world has done you wrong then you shouldn't just let the haters win tbqh.
>>84835008Precisely, nobody cares, and we're just extending the misery. The logical thing is to end it sooner rather than later.
>>84834989>YOU NEED TO SERVE US, THINK OF ALL THE SERVING YOU CAN DO?actually fucking evil
>>84834989I did that anyways by being on birth control lol idgaf about reproducing, whatever offspring i would produce would be severely mentally ill and i dont want that, to deal with that or to put that pain onto a child. plus I experienced the pain of losing a parent myself that I think creating a child in a world where all of their family will die eventually in itself is cruel. theres no upside to it>>84834955Yeah, i've been suicidal practically since I was a child that I'm sure this isn't just some impulse like all these mh resources say. tried all the meds and therapy, im just too autistic to be around people so I'm just a loner permanently desu. then the mental illness aggravates it because that makes people like you even less. aside from the times you can pretend to be happy and social. family judges me crazy by being on disability, friends i dont talk to anymore because i feel they probably judge me, and would have a better time without anyways. all i think about. my dream as a child was to fly out where MAID was legal. no point to reach out for help if ive already done that 5 times throughout my entite life
>>84834198haha brings back memories, i tried this a few years back but my tank wasnt big enough so i just woke up the next day light headed, was pretty pissed lol well rn i dont got the money so ill have to wait till next month i think its time to go ive seen enough. well thanks for reminding me >>84834989stfu you insufferable faggot theres some people who have no benefit in living, if life is torment are you not the evil one for telling them to keep suffering?
>>84834198to any anons who are considering doing it, i implore you to consider this:if you are really depressed and suicidal the chance you have a good day is like 0.01% or whatever instead of feeling bad about how little you get good days, reconceptualize it as gambling and when you realise waking up each day is just gambling you stop being sad (at least in the moment) because gambling is awesome!
lmao this takes me back.hope you lads are all right, you might want to look into barotrauma (lungs exploding) and whether your Amazon-purchased inert gases like nos and helium are adulterated (to prevent exactly this).Peaceful Pill Handbook, 'Doing It With Betty' etc., we've all been there. ideal solution would be barbiturates (pentobarbitone like they offer at Dignitas in Sweden).but tbqh this is escapist/impulsive/weeaboo suicidal tendencies. i hope you outgrow it and enjoyee your lifetime OP/everyone.
>>84834198Thank you so much anon, I just want my mom to die already so that ilI can get on with it. I think the guilt would stop me.>>84834765>no easy escape from the suffering inherent in existing.Good thing I'll cease to exist then.What made you realize that open individualism was real anyways?
Thank you anon. I want a clean and gentle death, not a messy and difficult one (picrel lol)
