>>84881396
Have you tried talking to a Catholic priest specializing in exorcism?

>>84881413
If talked to them but I don't know if i need to be more pushy about exorcism. Ive asked for help from 3 of them. They've anointed me with oil for the sick and did holy water and asked for sin confession. But they don't think I'm possessed.

The demon fucking hides and impersonates God well. I'm hoping to God this is a demon because I've never heard anyone else experience this stupid gay cuck retarded shit.

>>84881448
Well, you might find an exorcist online if you search. specifically for that.

I still don't understand what would happen if you accepted the "offer". Would it be finalized after your death in heaven or would you be immediately transported? Is it a literal voice telling you this or more like a fear?

>>84881516
It's visions outside my head like on the horizon of the fucking sky. And they talk to me telepathically in english with human sounding male or female voices.

They are saying in this life and in Heaven. I'm not fucking accepting this offer. I don't fucking know what happens if I accept it. If it's a demon I marry a fucking demon by being tricked. If I accept it and it's real, God's so disappointing he literally planned me to be Jesus Christ "Cuck" or "wife sharing buddy" who is loved and enjoys it where Jesus Christ is the stronger male in the marriage. Yeah, no thanks it's fucking the lamest fucking thing God could do.

They're telling me to enter a marriage which Jesus Christ in it literally, and also to get a job and work full time, plus to even more work like possibly volenteer and go to school full time, through disaiblity.

This is like God shitting down my fucking throat.

What would be cool as a straight man is if God had a daughter and introduced me to her to marry her. Holy shit what a blessing.

Having to bow before this idiot commanding me to marry him and touching me against my will in gross fucking ways which seems like the fucking faggot desensitizing me to male touch and then being changed instantly to like this situation, or having to like it through work is like the shittiest thing in eternity to me. I want nothing less other than literal perpetual physical torture.

I'd literally rather be turned gay and have a faithful husband than be in a wife sharing marriage with Jesus Christ. Fuck this shit. And I really don't want to be fucking gay.

>>84881644
Yeah, I get it. You don't want to have anything to do with that gay shit, but they keep pestering you. Still, do they have any power over you? Can you not just ignore them?

BTW have you tried taking antidepressants alongside, or alternatively to, antipsychotics?

>>84881686
I've tried a variety of combination of medicines. The only thing left from research is

>clozaril the anti psychotic with the highest weight gain, likely to make me obese even testing it to see if it works
>literal psychosurgery or electroshock therapy

I'm scared of both those green text options.

>>84881710
How long has it been going on and have you ever found moments of solace? Is there anything besides medication that you think might work?

>>84881726
For 4-5 years now. Before than it was a female spirit that wouldn't go away. I tried talking to the female spirit thinking it was an angel because maybe God removed the demon if it was a demon because I asked thousands of times in a literal sense, and even fasted no food for 2 whole days, then the retarded cuckold marriage to Jesus shit started. Before that i ignored the female spirit because I assumed it was a demon.

It makes me wonder if this is a retarded real fucking female angel trying to force it's plan on me because I can see why a woman would want Jesus Christ then a man they picked as spouses. I sure as fuck don't want this shit. It's a womans fantasy not mine. I wouldn't do this to marry a female angel, they offered. I said no.

There are no breaks from it besides dreams sometimes. I don't know what would work.

I think either

>a shaman or sometthing that is good might be able to do it
>a catholic priest thats an exorcist if i passed their exorcism screening which I doubt I will because the fucking demon isn't rabid it's intelligent as shit and goes passive and refuses to do any supernatural signs unless it's in private with me, and it's done them. It's caused unnatural strength, unnatural running speed, minor healing, instant transportation

Anyways thanks for speaking to me man, I can't talk to anyone about this besides a therapist.

>>84881772
>Anyways thanks for speaking to me man, I can't talk to anyone about this besides a therapist.
Sure. I similarly had delusions a few years ago, but was very much lucid and sane, like you are, so I know you can't really talk to anyone or they'll start thinking you're crazy.

Anyway, back to the topic, I'm not sure about shamans. From what I've heard they sometimes give people psychedelics. Even under supervision, that might backfire.

Another solution would be maybe trying to test the reality of what you experience in some ways. Like taunting the entity, or accepting the deal and seeing what happens, or maybe not if that's outside your comfort zone.

I found that after confronting my delusions, they eventually faded, although YMMV. I'm not a professional and my case was less severe than yours.

>>84881863
What delusions did you have before they went away? What did you do to get them to go away?

>>84881396
>Hypothetically if God had angels tell you that you are supposed to enter a marriage that has you as well as Jesus Christ in it literally, would you?
no. All thoughts are bad.

All voices in your head are bad. Doesn't matter if they are your voices, your friend's voices, your Parent's voices, Angelic voices, satanic voices, Jesus' voice. Never listen to a single one

It doesn't matter how reasonable they sounds, don't follow them. It doesn't matter how stupid they are, don't argue with them.

>>84881903
Thank you for reminding me to ignore them. It's hard.

Intractable schizophrenia or a demon thats resistant to removal both sound shit down the throat tier. I have one of those situations probably.

>>84881901
That I was being gangstalked online (so overall the basic bitch /x/ delusion). I eventually tried to confront the people who I thought were one of my stalkers and eventually I figured they don't have my full profile, I went through a period when I only partially believed it, but now I don't think I believe it at all. I tried to gather evidence and documented posts, but looking back at it, I'm not convinced.

>>84881927
I'm glad you don't have to deal with the gangstalking any more. That sounds shitty too. Did it go away after confrontation because you removed evidence or did you take a medicine before confronting what you believed to be stalkers?

>>84881943
I tried some risperidone and it didn't do anything. What I think helped me is that instead of being paranoid over every post that triggered me, I talked to the person and it turns out that every time they were innocent or they simply recognized my posting style from reading 4chan which is normal.

But again, your case is more severe. I didn't have any auditory or visual hallucinations.

>>84881966
I'm glad confronting it worked for you. I've told the spirits no politely and they ignore my choices so I get mean to them not caring if theyre who they say they are.

If a medicine that didn't cause obesity removed this it would be nice. I am miserable due to it.

>>84881923
>It's hard.
especially if you you thought those voices were normal and everyone has voices or "your own thoughts" like that.

Seeing them is the first step and the most important one. I only learned that a year ago and I am 43

>>84882002
>I've told the spirits no politely
But that's not what I meant. You're still living in this reality under the assumption the spirits are real. That won't help you.

The issue is that you can't really prove or disprove that the voices in your head belong to some spirit or are just a figment of your imagination.

>>84882022
>The issue is that you can't really prove or disprove that the voices in your head belong to some spirit or are just a figment of your imagination.

Yeah completely correct, people say
>psychiatry proves it schizo

But theyre speaking gibberish. The psych meds don't remove it. If the anti psychotics removed it thered be evidence it isn't real. But the anti psychotics do nothing.

I can't prove or disprove shit is right. Finally someone else gets this point. It makes it hard.

perhaps ill try doubling down and thinking it's schizo and seeing what hapepns even if i dont think in my heart its schizo.

In my heart i think its demons lying or real. I can't tell.

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>>84881396
>I've stuck myself in the face because I felt Jesus Christ inside me commanding me to be in a marriage that has him literally, hard enough to cause a egg to swell up on my face too. I've done it hard enough to cause my face to gush with blood and cause scarring.
Yeah, that's schizophrenia, or at least something on this chart.

>God had angels tell you that you are supposed to enter a marriage that has you as well as Jesus Christ in it literally
>They described it as pleasuring a woman with Jesus Christ together with out gay touching and being best bros over it.
Why would God command this?

If I were superstitious I'd assume it is Satan trying to possess you while you have sex with your future wife in order to spawn the anti-christ. However I'm going with schizophrenia. God and religion was an important part of your life or something and your mind latched onto that, o algo..

In the moment it seems like everything, but really it is not. You must tell yourself to be rational over and over so that when you have your next episode you have that thought in your head that actually this is not real and you should listen to your rational mind. No stabbing your face, no smashing things, just have a little lie down in bed and think of nice things until it passes then do some quiet therapeutic chores. Also seek mental healthcare I guess.

>>84882153
I didn't think God was doing it at first, i thought I was being tested to refuse it but I realized God can do weird shit we dont like or understand so I wondered if God is doing this shit that I hate because he wants it and is going to use God powers to make it enjoyable because he creates some men as bi or gay. No thanks, I like being straight.

I need to buckle down and tell myself it's schizo over and over and see if anything changes. its hard to repeat something over and over you don't believe, it's easier to act on the possibility its a demon because it seems so real.