I saw a video of three kidnapped boys, talking about their experience and it made me cry, bur I realised if they were girls I wouldn't feel sad, probably just excited. And I was thinking hard about it, I don't feel sorry for female pain at all. I never noticed how bad my dehumanisation of women had gotten. All my fantasies of treating a cute foid like a pet and being totally submissive to me, I think it's actually been harmful for my view of women. Phhh...I guess that's also why most men do treat women like people, because they feel for their pain. I think that's the heart of it, if you don't care how they feel at all because you've reduced them to objects then you don't care how they should be delt with.Something to think about, would you feel excited or sad about a girl suffering? I would think yes, but if I really think about it, no, and I can recall examples where clearly I haven't cared or felt anything from female suffering, it makes me excited or happy. Presumably because I've been masturbating my whole life to females being in pain and raped and enslaved and beaten and be-headed and used even after getting be-headed in all the doujins and anime porn.It sounds simply but I just never thought about it, do you feel sympathy for female suffering. Apparently not, even when it's innocent little girls, I guess I don't. I wonder if there's an opposite to porn, like videos that make you see women as people.
>>84925565You sound like a deranged fucking psycho dude. Writing this kind of shit is likely to put you in contact with the FBI.
>>84925574I don't see how that's relevant to my post. But I'm also aware everytime I ask online how to solve this issue, no one cares. Which is strange, I made a thread the other day and yeah no one ever cares.But I care.I do actually remember a few years ago I started watching feminists videos online, maybe I'll do that again. Because I do have nothing to do anymore now anyways. More free time than ever in my life.
>>84925565who the fuck asked faggot?
This is a disturbing and dysfunctional worldview, but I think you recognise this. Im glad youre really interrogating your thoughts and feelings and trying to understand why you have them. I hope you can learn to view women as people, for your own sake but mostly theirs
>>84925586That's a good point, why post about gender on the gender wars board. Hopefully you're posting this in all the other threads.Just in case anyone is confused. These kinds of replies happen EVERY single time I ask how to respect women. I'm not kidding, it's the most offensive thing to r9k.
>>84925574>defending foids in the big 26
>>84925565well, there aren't exactly anti-porn videos, as in videos that are antithetical, but try to relate to their suffering. imagine yourself in their position. how would you feel? how might they feel? i sounds like you're on the right track and want to be better. what are some reasons you want to change?
>>84925604>defending foidsit's literally just acknowledging maybe abuse is bad and you should empathize with the suffering of fellow human beings. you're just as disturbed as OP
>>84925617Sounds like you need to talk to someone about your anger issues, it's not healthy getting this invested in online debates.Have you tried going outside?
>>84925631i'm perfectly calm, what do you mean? is me disagreeing with you making you upset, little buddy? i get out plenty.
>>84925565>Something to think about, would you feel excited or sad about a girl suffering?Probably excited, but I'm a massive sadist who gets excited for all suffering in general including men. I blame my upbringing, a shit ton of abuse and childhood trauma and laughing through it as a coping mechanism and being introduced to gore/snuff shit since elementary school and finding it the funniest stuff evar. For some reason I find male screaming amusing and pleasant while female screaming I find grating, unpleasant and makes me angry and uncomfortable in a way that male screaming doesn't. I blame gynocracy but yeah all life is pretty worthless to me. I am the final product of the dehumanization programme.
>>84925669Honest question how do you live with these thoughts? Or do they not really come up when you're working or doing groceries or something.
>>84925606I did do that actually and it did make me realise how terrible rape is, when I think of a gym bro gay guy just raping me.But I don't think anything will really truly help until I stop masturbating to dark thoughts and then make female friends or something. But I don't talk to anyone and haven't really talked to anyone in 10 years, and really I've never talked to a female. I talked to one on discord for two months and that was it.But I'm glad I realised that the main focal issue of my view of women is I don't have sympathy for their pain. And so I can probably fix that maybe. Or not, I don't know. You can't of course wilfully change your feelings. I find most people will become racist or sexist, and then that's it, they don't really care, maybe they tell themselves that's not what they are or they happily accept it. So there's not really many ways to deal with it because no one seems to care if they are.Any time I see a video where a female is talking, and it's not vtuber slop, I can't stomach it I don't want to hear a female talk about anything. So I will force myself to watch various female people online. That is what I will do. That is all.
>>84925684An actual good decent man on /r9k/.
>>84925681>Honest question how do you live with these thoughts? Or do they not really come up when you're working or doing groceries or something.I just don't really feel ashamed or guilty from it. Or if I do, I am very good at processing guilt and shame I might exist for a small moment but then it melts away like a snowflake in the sun...But yes I get schadenfreude all the time it can be annoying to have to suppress my laughter whenever I am in a position where it would be inappropriate when I am amongst normies
>>84925702Thanks anon, I'm satisfied with this answer.
>>84925696>guy is like "I'm a total piece of shit lol">you: FINALLY a DECENT PERSON on r9kmy face when
>>84925840He's trying! That's what matters.
>>84925840I never said I was a bad person, or "lol". As all people are bad people, and nothing about life is "lol".
>>84925584Why would people care, is another porn addiction thread, there are like 80 of those on this place daily.
>>84925565>picOn first glance I thought that was picrel
>>84925943Gif didn't load, trying again
>>84925934Again I don't know what you're talking about.... I genuinely don't. This is r9k. What do you mean by people caring? Like replies or something? I don't know.I guess the point of your post is, "Well you aren't going to get replies." And I'm suppose to care. Or maybe you're saying "don't post things on r9k that get posted here." And that's a good point, don't post things that r9k often posts about on r9k or somet-- I don't know what you're saying! But I'm sure it's something. And I'm sure you're "winning" the 4chan argument or whatever.I am sort of checked out of the whole social internet thing so I don't really get it anymore.
