Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual supportWhen you see it you will shit bricks edishhello>How are you doing today?>Any plans for today?>When was the last time you hurt yourself?>Why did you hurt yourself?>Is there anything bothering you right now?
The links> long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7>a first aid post cuting:https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/>a wound care guide:https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic>a bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdfPlease don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them
>>85653339Hi cat bro, how've you been? I've finished Borderlands so now I've got more free time lol
>>85653350heyoowe're gonna play minecraft today, with some mods, would you like to play with us!? :3
>>85653413Aww sorry friend, wish I could but i'm still a lowly console player. Thank you for the offer though!
>>85653446aarghhh Dxwhatcha gonna do with ur free time then?
>>85653339>How are you doing todayim getting torturedsleepy asfi need to drink coffee or anything like that so i could finish studying for tmrw but if i did i might be forced to stay awake at night and have a tragic experience againhow is anyone supposed to get along with that how are you cat?
>>85653339The anxiety and intrusive thoughts was on hold for 3 days but came back today so I did what I do when Im alone with blades. The pause from the thoughts was due to a traffic accident. Which has me disassociating very hard and now I almost feel like Im going insane (I guess I was before as well).
>>85653339>>How are you doing today?Running out of weekend.>>Any plans for today?I'm like so behind, I got chat gbt to help.>Is there anything bothering you right now?wasted time making a teirlist of charters based on how well they're doing in life. idk way. I should've skipped it.>>85653413hi cay>minecraftdid you see the new shift update?Idk if i'll pick up minecraft for it but it looks cool.>>85653990hi rem>i need to drink coffee or anything like that so i could finish studying for tmrw but if i did i might be forced to stay awake at night and have a tragic experience againIt'll be okay rem. even if we don't get things done, we'll live.
>>85653990heyo remmy>getting tortured:c>anyone supposed to get along with thatsame I'm wondering sorry you gotta deal with that crapbest of luck tomorrow fren>how are you cat?played some minecraft and cleaned my bikeI wish you had more free time fren but I know it's not up to u :<>>85654191hey anon>bladespatch yourself up well anon>was due to a traffic accidentdamn ao ai wasn't even due to anything today what happened?>going insaneyou think you should call someone ?>>85654378eyo>Running out of weekenddamn weekendswhy couldn't they be longer >wasted time making a teirlistloll ^^I hope at least you had fun with itwhy is landlord so low?and why is aruko so high???>you see the new shift update?nopee played a mod that makes stuff be like beta would you like to play with us some day?
>>85653469Hmmm i'm not sure. Right now i'm watching all the silent hill games on youtube
>>85655005oo that sounds comfy ^^have you played any of the games before?
a few weeks ago i had an exam, i remember that my mind was so messed up that my normal thinking was sometimes cut by images of numbers and equations and ruleslel>>85654870>picreli see a familiar leaf>best of luckthabks>cleaned my bikepreparing for a bikeride soon?btw do you often clean your pc?cuz mine is so dusty>I know it's not up to youyeah :/btw my keyboard still sucks so im using the phone
>>85653339Hallu /cat/.>>How are you doing today?Pissed off. Was agonizing over how the money I get from this job will hardly be enough to cover all my wants, and lamented on the walk home after a middling gym day. >>Any plans for today?Buying some black jeans for my first day of job training. Probably labbing 3rd strike if I'm cooled down by then and kamen rider.>>When was the last time you hurt yourself?Weeks ago.>>Why did you hurt yourself?Searing disgust at myself for failing to keep up with my peers. Restlessness.>>Is there anything bothering you right now?I don't have a clean boxcutter to use and my wireless earphones are missing.
need some more nights again to be able to sleep without feeling depressedsigh
>>85643460>I love collecting and its an amazing excuse to meet people/get out of my house!true. i also always need an excuse to get out. just won't if i don't have one... :[>Im looking into and have already begun altering old stuff!cool. maybe you can show a few pics of what you come up with.>some eyelet stuff :3what's that?>Altering clothes, pokemon go, and music are my chill times :Dmaybe, but it's still mentally exhausting. just gotta be bored sometimes and do nothing.>>85643656>yeah the one that rejected me.damn>Maybe i should spend more time with hergood idea. what do you have in mind?>I don't understand the euros, but that sounds like a lot. it's 6.02 a gallon here.i think a liter is about a quart and 4 quarts are a gallon, right? we were paying 11.60 per gallon at it's worst.>i know they won't come back to them.we'll see. maybe the show will get an overarching plot at some point and then they might turn up again. for now it's probably best to just let them cook. they haven't disappointed so far. they'll have to do a lot of thinking now that they have to do the lorebook for the boardgame.>I just want there to be another war world episode picking up where we left off.same, but that might take them a while. it was a very taxing one to make. have you seen the making of on the tom and don channel?>It really shows they care at the end of the daytrue and that makes the difference >This is still a business and it's better in the long run for them to keep it up.for reasonable people who are able to think long term? sure. hope they are that kind of people.>>85643672sounds solid. does anything speak against it?
>>85644822>I could go on about it for hours, what a waste....if you want to vent, be my guest. ^^>Doesn't that feeling get you so bored out your skull you just reach for somethingi distract myself with friends and media. works most of the time.>that endless stillness?it's comfy in a way. i've settled down just without reaching any of the achievements that were supposed to allow me to do it.>I'm completely divorced from those feelingsgood.>theres a trillion good games in the 6th/5th/4th gen consoles.sure, but i can't be assed to look it all up or play it all. having a good time with deep rock galactic at the moment. but i got into it when the devs and fanbase are at odds with each other, because the devs made their new game a roguelike and basically ignored their community's feedback on it. awesome.>>85653339>When you see it you will shit bricks edishfunny. i remember actually encountering another "player" when i played in the early access version of the game. looking back it's kinda creepy, but back then i was just annoyed and restarted, since i wanted to play by myself...
epy >>85655063>sometimes cut by images of numbers and equations and rules:x>familiar leaf^^ >for a bikeride soon?yep :Dthis week is supposed to be nice >btw do you often clean your pc?rarelyyyy heh usually when I spill my drink on it accidentally >keyboard still sucks so im using the phone:< >>85655089heyo>hardly be enough to cover all my wants,:<at least better hardly than not at all>first day of jobhave a good one>use and my wireless earphones are missing.damn things :<but do you know where they might be more or less >>85655255do you know when you might get som?>>85655419heyo>encountering another "player"scaryybtw we might play tomorrow too :3
>>85653339Hello>How are you doing today?Not so great, school's been stressing me out>Any plans for today?go to school first and if the weather is nice fly my drone>When was the last time you hurt yourself?couple months ago, I bit my arm>Why did you hurt yourself?I couldn't sleep cuz the enviroment was too loud>Is there anything bothering you right now?I have a group project at school and I have my part done for now, but the rest of the group isn't doing much effort and they should have send me documents on friday and they didn't. So today we will officially be one week behind. And the teacher who I told what's going on says that placing me in another group is a last resort but by that time it will already be too late and now idk what to do and I can't get my brain to not stress and I sdon't want to be used again like before
>>85654870>and why is aruko so high???I feel like she doesn't really harm anyone. She's just neutrally coping.>why is landlord so low?his prevision and lonelyness actually effects his quality of life. >would you like to play with us some day?I would. I'd have to relearn how to play minecraft, but if i can just run it on my deck or one of my laptops i should be fine.>why couldn't they be longeryeah, i got the bear minimum done today. I won't be home again for three days so I'll get back on it then.>>85655321>good idea. what do you have in mind?idk, it's a hard ask right now with everyone getting their lives together.>we were paying 11.60 per gallon at it's worst.holy hell>have you seen the making of on the tom and don channel?yeah, it's kind of weird to see them react in real time to their own project. Like, i know they didn't oversee every detail, but man you're surprised a lot.>sounds solid. does anything speak against it?I've rewritten this first part a few times now. Like the current addition was this: > Outside was a spacecraft floating above the city. A rotating disk with the radius of their building spun in the planet's upper atmosphere. A large radio tower-like structure poked below the storm clouds. The lights could be seen blinking through the city's dome day and night. Lieutenant Kai walked back to her office. The humanoid machine in question sat with its legs on the table. A cable extended from the collar of the trench coat and into the terminal for the precinct's server. A wide brimmed hat tilted in line with a pair of eye sockets hosting cameras. They illuminated a table of forgotten printed records with blue lights and shifted to the lieutenant as she entered. The chrome skeleton face opened a jaw to make speaking seem even more uncanny. "Ah yes, lieutenant. I've been expecting you." I said while making sure the throat glowed for extra ambiance.
>>85655514>epyeep well>we might play tomorrow too :3sadly can't make it tomorrow. hopefully my buddies and i will be able to get another bg3 session in. it's about time.>>85655575hey anon>school's been stressing me outsorry to hear>fly my dronehow did you get into that?>but the rest of the group isn't doing much effortthat sucks. :/ best you can do is put as much work in your part as you can and hope the teacher will at least appreciate the effort you put into it. happened to me a lot back in thr day. at some point i just stopped caring.>>85655623>I'd have to relearn how to play minecraftit's been that long for me as well. doesn't help that i'm also playing deep rock galactic, another game about mining, atm...>t's a hard ask right now with everyone getting their lives togethermaybe just ask her what she thinks about it and go from there.>holy hellyeah. we pay more anyway, but that was just insane. mostly greed on the companie's part.>i know they didn't oversee every detail, but man you're surprised a lot.i know what you mean. they seem to luck into the right designs, plots and themes a lot. ^^ hopefully their instincts won't fail them.>I've rewritten this first part a few times now.gonna read it tomorrow. getting kinda tired and need to call it now.good night, everyone!
>>85655041I've played the OG silent hill 2 at my cousin's house as a kid but that's it desu
I really got my leg unzipped, huh? Waow it hurt in the pit and out. But I got good pain tolerance!!!Well. Wanna yap. Last night I was at a show and the worst thing happened: car key broke off the fob. So we had to get a locksmith. $150 quickly became $400. I didnt have. Friends pitched in - 70 here - 50 there - 50 more here - 80 more there. Suddenly I could afford it! I genuinely want to cry. It's near impossible to ever truly realize your impact on people. I just show up to shows and slam into strangers who become friends. I buy band's CDs and let them know what I enjoyed about their sets. Suddenly Im talking to artists I adore. It's so weird.. I wanted to k.eep m.yself s.afe so badly. Now Im on abilify, an anti-anxiety, and learning the depths of appreciation and impact I've had on people. I've also broke through the bullshit of two broken people trying to make things work without fixing ourselves first. Fucking hell. I've wanted death my whole life. This is the first time I truly mean it when I say I don't. I want to do the best for those who've built me up and made my life better.
don't want (you) to forget dont want (you) to pretend....>>85653350Hallo meow>borderlandsI tried replaying 2 sometime ago and got way bored around true vault hunter mode. I've beaten the game in TVHM before (Krieg, Maya, Zer0, Salvador), but nowadays the games just way too slow for me. Think level scaling from the getgo + better enemy AI would help replayability somewhat.>>85655514>better hardly than not at allI guess.... I think I'll try and get a new computer first and then pay off my student loans. There's still karate lessons and decent ingredients and a motorcycle and tickets and gifts and.....>have a good oneThanks.>do you know where they might be more or lessNo clue, sticking to the wireds for the time being.>>885655419Hallu yuanon>if you want to vent, be my guest. ^^Another time, the anger of then has left me.>i distract myself with friends and mediaFair enough I guess, still I think you can only distract yourself for so long. Speaking for myself here, I believe if I'm not in constant motion while young, I'll find myself in a tailspin of regrets as an old man. >good.Balance is best...>SpoilerRoguelikes seem like a mixed bag tbdesu, randomized level design sacrifices things like environmental design and enemy placement for more "variance" (which is just the same hundred or so prefab rooms you'll memorize after a couple dozen runs). That being said, I have 300+ hours in dead cells cause the core gameplay loop and hitless bonuses make it seriously rewarding to master.>>85655575Just tell your teacher your partners are super lazy again n they'll probably cut you slack>>85655954>showI got a prog metal show n a deathcore show coming up super excited for those>I want to do the best for those who've built me up and made my life better.I've been experiencing the exact opposite as of late... growing to hate most of my friends and hating myself more and more for failing to stack up to them. If anything, I do my best just to spite them....
Goodnight travis
Lowkey, suicide isnt bad, but I get very uncomfortable about the fact that my mother wouldnt cremate me, and would come to talk at my grave - thats worse than death itself lol
>>85654870>what happened?Was crossing the road at a crosswalk when a car drove into me at 50km/h. The police tell me I rolled over the hood and crushed the windshield and wrecked the hood. The witness behind the car says she saw my feet in the air above the car. I just have small memory fragments. But they feel unreal, like someone else described me the accident and I try to imagine it. Now I question almost anything that happens if it's real or not.
time to wake upbut this might be the weirdest dream i have had this week>>85655514>is supposed to be niceyou know i didn't see rain yet so maybe all the recent weeks are nice here lolthough i dont find them nice enough for a bikeride or a walknot only that i dont find time but i might get sick if i stayed too much>accidentally what?? how do you spill a drink on the case? :o
mornin, getting some blood work done rn
>>85653339Worst thread on r9k and theres an active diaper thread ongoing, good job guys, down the road next time not across the street.
>>85653342>https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7>Viciously stab an orangekek'd but also that seems like a good way to have the knife or other stabby implement slip and do damage to its backing (or yourself if you hold it like a dummy)>break stuff, yell at itstudies show that this does not help and can exacerbate feelings of hopelessness after you calm down. not only does it not solve the core problem now you have a mess to deal with and potentially replacement of something important (e.g. punch a hole in your apartment wall, now freak out about your deposit)>write your feelings on paper then rip it upisnt that what posting on 4chan is for
