>be optimistic kid, curious as fuck, rich imagination and finds joy in every little thing>parents are awful to me>social development and self esteem are fully stunted>as my social development is bad, people dislike me and dont believe im suffering>do a massive effort to be financially independent and leave parents home>lost my first job due to my eyes being in pain, which i later learned its "blepharitis" and a treatment for it>try again>after a few months develop chronic digestive issues, with diarrhea for weeks at one point, literally shit myself twice>was so focused and dedicated at work they still dont fire me>decide im already safe and independent, might as well try to get a social life>find out im ugly as shit, and people are disgusting to me>still make friends by having a great sense of humor, also looksmax in order to at least look average>get better and better jobs and live a comfy life while slowly healing from all the suffering>have the worst chronic blepharitis flareup ever despite treatment, my eyes burn constantly and ruin most days for monthsI was raised a christian, later started to believe that christianity doesn't really make logical sense. However, it makes no sense that there's not some kind of designer or creator running this world. My life can't reasonably be the result of chance, this has to be intentionally set up as a sick joke.My life is just fucking nasty. It feels like a script that I have no control over and is just going to be as awful as possible no matter what I do.
Have you tried going to a therapist instead of blogposting on 4chan
>>85741004>going to a therapistnormie
geez anon... just take one fake illness for yourself and leave some for the rest of us.
>>85740984>I was raised a christian, later started to believe that christianity doesn't really make logical sense. However, it makes no sense that there's not some kind of designer or creator running this world. My life can't reasonably be the result of chance, this has to be intentionally set up as a sick joke.You are correct in your suspicions. If you still have any doubts, read the bibble cover to cover and you'll realize that Yahweh (a.k.a. Yaldabaoth) is, in fact, the Demiurge, who massively botched the creation of this world out of sheer crippling retardation and hubris.In fact, if you read true Christian texts like The Apocryphon of John and The Hypostasis of the Archons, you'll learn that YHWH and his lackeys aren't just ignorant or malicious, they are literal FURRY FUTANARI. The entity falsely described as the Christ (hint: Aeons can't be "co-substantial" with Archons) is literally a herm anthro lamb.
>>85741101God did not give you a brain for you to be this fucking retarded
>>85741083just one? come on why not two?
