I think I'm retarded. I think I just like spent 3 days in a delusion genuinely thinking I was talking to god and being told I was a psychic. I think I'm going to ask my therapist to reschedule to a sooner date and see a psychiatrist
>>12546617Why is everyone on esfores either mentally ill or pretending to be.
that doesnt sound like r*********n it sounds like schizo
>>12546619pretending to be??
>>12546617just make sure you research first-hand experiences with any meds they prescribe you before taking them (while you're not delusional I mean lole)
>>12546617edgy teenager acitivties
>>12546617i'm happy for you
>>12546617Translation: Your parents confiscated your internet because you weren't going to school.
>>12546766I'm 21
>>12546617hi other ikafren, long time no see, anyways, i dont really recomend you psychiatrist, most of them say bullshit and dont care about you, i feel like the ebst thing to do is try to calm down and control yourself, i believe everything will go okay
>>12547479No, I think I am going to get help, this is like the second time it's happened in the past month. A couple weeks ago I was wishing for death thinking I deserved it because demonic digits were inscribed into my dna. It's starting to become noticeable from my family and my friends becoming worried for me, I've been "just gonna control myself"ing it out for a couple years now and it ain't rolling. I appreciate it though
And I get the worry and trust issues with doctors and psychiatrists and stuff (I'm got the same crazy paranoia that my dad has so I get it.) But I've already gone through a lot of the process when I was figuring out my bipolar disorder, and my therapist is a good man with religious faith and has helped me a lot and I think he will have good referrals for me, which honestly he's the only reason I feel comfortable trying to reach out and hopefully learn something more about myself. I really hope I am not insane but pretending there isn't something incredibly worrying will just make things worse for myself, I mean I'm starting to even question things I have felt confident on for a long while, like feeling crazy and shit ya know, it's scary. And I ain't superman
But that's enoug bout me
get well soon. Perhaps you have pierced the misted veil, and we all have witnessed a transgression of its event horizon
>>12546619Marketing works, baby!
>>12547590I think it might've been a little bit of both but I got too crazy on it. But I think it's likely genuinely true that moloch global span is real and also 262 enscribed in our dna is probably also true I mean it's in the bible so
