i love water so much
I thought you gonna say I love*"*'her
>>12612882Hi wish how're you today?
>>12612882Me tooStay hydrated everyonrYour fortune: Good news will come to you by mail
>>12612883i Love yanyan more than water believe it or not.>>12612885hi im still atsxhool
>>12612888burn it down for satan or whatever
>>12612887stya hydrated and relaxe
>>12612889nooo
>>12612888Dubs checked What kind of school?uni?Your fortune: Very Bad Luck
>>12612892meme school
>>12612892ya but im going home now
>>12612894did you make any friends ?
hows everyone doing
>>12612897noe i dont feel like it
>>12612898Beside work greatIm having funYour fortune: Better not tell you now
>>12612901nah you are just a failure
>>12612898i hate my retarted nigger slow pc
>>12612903i dont wana be friends with ppl who have 0% similar interests,,
>>12612906maybe it'll be faster if u install anti malware things? or if u ask it to please be faster
>>12612882>>12612882WISH issssssssssssssssssssssssss CUTE! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand DOMINANT
i wanna have a warm bath when im home but ive been taking buspirone and its making me sleepy....but warm bath....hm..
>>12612918depends on my current hairstyle
>>12612898ive been sober for almost a month except alcohol but no weed and no ketamine or anything else and it has opened my eyes to how awful my living situation is but i won’t be able to do anything about it for at least 6 months
>>12612922i understand completely focus on something that you can do and makes you happy in the meantime.. okay?
you'll be surprised as to how good things can feel and be even without drugs
>>12612919im starting taking it soon and it kinda makes me sleepy too so i wonder if when i start taking it i will take a lower dosage although sometimes the sleepiness is nice isn’t it…>>12612926that’s a good idea it’s just hard cuz i feel so sensitive to my environment and my room is sooooo so noisy i hear EVERYTHING and i can only wear earplugs or headphones for so long before my ears hurt but i will be so strong because the future will be better that’s right
>>12612907Then you'll be alone forever, since everyone who likes dxm and cutting themselves has died
>>12612907For me, it's weird to have someone with the same interests
>>12612928true the drugs became kind of unsatisfying and weren’t really doing anything for me anymore anyways
>>12612928>even without drugsI feel like this are genetally better without drugs since your mind isnt as hazy
>>12612936well sometimes a hazy mind can be what you need a little bit for a little bit… just not too much or for too long…
>>12612930ive started on 10mg twice a day, if that helps.ya the future will be better and good and u wont have to deal with a noisy room ^–^try to find something interesting to do, read a book with white noise, force yourself into playing a game cuz after a few mins ull remember its fun.ah as for the sleepiness its accompanied by some nausea and ur muscles might feel funny so its not extremely good but its not a bad thing eitherwell until i have to make emotional intelligence choices in a visual novel and keep on failing repeatedly then getting crushed by the anime because buspirone can make u a little out of it for a week or so.. um id consider that a bad thing, though, its also a neutral thing cuz its funny
>>12612932noo dont say that ur making me wanna move to shinjuku......>>12612933huh how so¿>>12612939i miss feeling dxm hazynesst but i dont wanna be dumb permanently so i have to take it super occasionally and keep lowering tolerance,,but its ok, i can be happy
>>12612940i will start it for real soon i got it from my roommate and used it two weekends ago when i was really stressed the whole weekend and it did make me feel pretty spacey after a couple hours… but it also helped me be less irritable and not snap at my surroundings even if sometimes they deserve to be snapped at it’s not my place to snap… but i also worry ill just be sedating myself….white noise is really awesome i love using gray noise and pink noise and speech blocker frequencies ^.^ i hope the side effects from the buspie get easier for u~
>>12612943drugs do u make u a little dumb after a while and that’s no good cuz wish is super smart in truth
>>12612944what im wondering isdoes buspirone make you dumb or is it really just the first week?i could live with anxiety if it means im not so stupid because i cant allow myself to be that
>>12612949ill find out soon and give u my findings o7 but lots of people say online it passes in 2-3 weeks so be strong!! and if it still is causing too much sleepiness then reevaluate
>>12612943Sometimes I feel uncomfortable meeting people with the same interests as me, but it's also interesting; most of them share my interests, and others are interested in them bcz me
>>12612945i cant afford to be bpd and dumbive also been taking stuff like dxm for a year daily solets give that a break,,,>>126129544 weeks huh,, well my opioid withdrawals only lasted a few days and im probably unable to eat anything because of buspar's nausea not withdrawals,,that means it could pass by quicker for me! (probably~)i heard that ppl s anxiety often skyrocket when they quit buspar so ill try to endure as much as possible and see if it works!u too cna report back yesh>>12612958>others are interested in them bc of meya this happens also in the cyber world nod
>>12612963i did ketamine constantly for like a year im grateful i was long-story-short cut off from my supply im scared to think what would have happened if i kept doing it so much and so often.. being sober has made me feel more in touch with reality at a baseline even though i still can get a little crazy cuz of my own mental lelnesses but i hope the same will be true for u and u will feel more grounded and present!!~
talking about nausea i had to get out of the car just then to puke a lot..idk what i puked dont eat..
>>12612973nooooooooo im sorry
i don't eat*>>12612969ur liver, kidney and bladder would die the death basically..i kept going on cuz i did tests nd my organs were fine what about our brain though?exactly..ive been feeling very grounded lately cuz im putting a lot of work on myself!!thats why i havent been talking in a depressing way also,,well ive been also imaginative but not delulu and my dreams r vivid>>12612975its ok it was bad energy
be happy and ull get happy things
yay im so almost home hehehe
>>12612981yea i think there have been some long term consequences on my bladder xd i am proud of you for doing so much work on yourself!!! it is a hard but very good journey i think. dreams are fun too since stopping weed i have them again more frequently than i die even before I ever die drugs im going sleep now cuz it’s late for me goodnight!! let’s both work hard and make good choices and find happiness
the thing about being happyis to remember that you r the person who must steer the happy car into the correct path sometimes ppl can help u with that by being present and accompanying you (ive been elusive though, sorry)but in the end ur the only one who can keep control of the carotherwise ull find urself on the wrong path and ur cars name will be called negative car or Dark nessits harder for mentally ill ppl i know but i swear that it's doable trust me cuz i understand and whenever ur in the wrong path, take a moment to remind urself about that and remind urself of how HAPPY things could be. u can make ur world happy!!u can also make other ppls world happy by sharing ur vibrations with them ^^by any means possible!>>12612997exactly!! make good choices and find happiness alwayssweet dreams~now time for me to decide waht to do first since m homebath or nap and then waht to do next!!
also my plushies like it better wen im happy and hug them
>>12613011Taking a walk
>>12613014a change of scenery is nice
i wana take a small nap
>>12613022Less naping and drug taking more regenerating and bettering yourself
https://youtu.be/eeF0QkQ1Ngw?
>>12613029ya!!i actualy need tha small nap thomed side effect eepy~
yea i do too
>>12613130i just woke up !!bath time~remmber to stya hydrated
>>12613137Dont take durgs get high on life
>>12613138ya idrc about drugs that much anymoreits tempting a ytiny bittt but only for nowthe more i remember how bad i was on themthe more ill remember that its not worth it!
im able to get high on life in a literal sense when im exposed to love (love exposure by inio asano is a good movie) though, u can find other things to be happy about and from
>>12613141...did i just say inio asanohmthis is what i meant by buspar brain damagei like sion sono a lot idk how i would misremember!!
m gona take cool brain supplements wen im done bath and also i could take a lower dose or something apparentlyill do more research again later
wonderful warm bath taken!ive been thinking, i definitely stopped doing things like listening to some artists or watching some stuff since quitting dxm, i might try doing that sober instead,, it might still be fun!i did make almost every single friend of mine watch gridman and love exposure but usually on dxm,,
iuon like talking about dxm a lot, it can get annoying fasti hope everyone is having a gudd day or gudd dreams if asleep~
>>12613191Good luck on quiting
>>12613195thx!!buspar update:i took it b4 bath nd now my body hurtsi could probs use detachment or something like taht though, like "pain" vs "my body is in pain" or doing fun distracting things
this rem design is 100% clockwork orange eye inspired https://youtu.be/7F2faXzcUzUjust like 99% of my art!!
ultra k-k-kindness!!!
mom got me pizza but i literally CANT eat anything that's so sad+a wasts
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guys sorry for my bad reaction earlier i felt a sense of betrayal and also im having dumb side effects but i took half a baclofen maybe ill take a full dosage,,uuuembarrassing .....>_<
Wish is a
i wanna be nice
>>12613342Good gurl
>>12613342a kitkat
>>12613342Faggot
>>12613342Tranny Jew spy
>>12613342Nice human
>>12613350>>12613348Sybau kids aren't allowed here
>>12613347you aint neuro nigga
>>12613006weh i had a weird dream where i was training for a new job but there was a person who was kind of mean and annoying and a bully and i tried to fight back but i just looked petty and rude and made a fool of myself and then i was so embarrassed and ashamed and even tried to apologize to just make things right but nobody wanted to hear it from me and all of the new people i met had a really bad impression of me and also there was this weird giant Chinese slot machine that you could buy shots out of that was part of the work environment??
>>12613551my irl friend was also there with me but he also thought i was acting dumb and annoying and was also just kind of mean to me
>>12613561that's your subconscious letting you know that you're dumb and annoying and you deserve it
>>12613551>>12613561I think you should kill yourself
>>12613564ummmm i think it was a dream about my fears surrounding autonomy and independence and standing up for myself cuz in recent years i kind of just go with the flow and i don’t like where it has led me in life and i think it’s a double edged sword cuz speaking out or doing things on my own on one hand can be what i need to do and what’s good for me but on the other hand sometimes i am just lashing out or behaving immaturely and in the moment it can be hard to know the difference a lot of the time. the giant gaudy slot machine idk what that was though it was kind of sick and had tummy looking food
