it hasbeen over a hundred days since we last saw each other and yet every single night i still have to think of you holding me in bed to comfortt myslef and help me fall asleep it doesnt matter because you have already moved on and yet the idea of you is the only thing holding me on this earth i feel llike a part of my humanity has been ripped away i feel like my brain is degenerating the more and more mental stress i take on every second i am home i feel the decades of anger and guilt and frustration of my mother and father and bbrother weighing o nmy shoulders it rips me apart i cannot stop crying nobody is comingto save me nobody is coming yo save me and this fact tears up my insides makes me scream and grab at my hair i reach out for anyonr and anyfhing nothing feels the sawm nothing feels real i am living th same exact day every day for the past 4 years it does not matter because i am not strong enough to save myself and so i am going to fucking die here crying screaming covered in scars while you are living your life barely unable to recall the sound of my voice
>>34311351I'm sorry anon
it does not matter because i am a fundsmentally repulsive immature emotionally stunted person that leeches the life out of every person they never stop yelling they never stop screaming they continue to hurt me torture me make me want to die and then make me feel guilty for being utterly exhausted and unable to complete basic tasks but it gets better of course it gets better keep trying keep trying keep trying just one more year just two more years just three morr years just four more years keep dying keep rotting keep degeneratingg all of your grey matter i need to man up i need to do it i need to take pill wih alchooll i need to do it its never getting better i need to do it i need to do it one more month andican finally be gone i never have to hear her fucking screaming ever again i will finally be free i will finally be at peace i can finally forget about these horrendous miserable people please just let me die please dont let me fail please just let me go i am so tired of it all
>>34311362Please don't kill yourself
Do you want someone to talk to ?
>>34311362>>34311351can you tell me more about his person you used to be with
>>34311351
>>34311362You seem to be in a bad place mentally, talk to us, what happened to make you feel like that?
very cool but can we see your pussy again>>34311362
>>34311351Why can't you just reach out to him directly instead? I'm sure he misses you just as much as you do, and would have you back
>>34311370its ok anon i am too weak to commit suicide i just wish i could>>34311437one-on-one conversation with people on this board rarely ever satisfies the deep seeded(? is that the word?????idklul) emotional connection urges and i just sperg out and unadd people after 30 mins anyway so its just best if i rant and ramble here and shove my thoughts into the ether of 4-chain>>34311566he was my soulmate an the only thing tying me to this planet he was the only person that ever understood me saw the value in me underneath all of my mental illness but there comes a point where people like me are just too taxing and draining and why continue wasting time with someone like me when you can meet literally any other nice mature well put-together independent person>>34311628llol the last thing i'd want to do is commit suicide by jumping off a building then havign passerby gawk and gag at my corpse>>34314251>i'm sure he misses you just as much as you dohe's the one that wanted to break up with me, i have contacted him multiple times since then and refuses to entertain any of my maladaptive behaviors and continues to reaffirm the idea that its best if we never talk again i am considering moving my efforts to real life means (sending letters) because the idea of his eyes reading my handwritten words line -by-line greatly comforts me buut i duno i think thats a bit too far and he may start to get angry at me
>>34311351>i am going to fucking die here crying screaming covered in scars while you are living your life barely unable to recall the sound of my voicebeautifully tragic, immensely relatable, being forgotten by those i care about is possibly my greatest fear. i hope things get better for you anon, i really do, and i hope you can find someone or something to fill the void destroying you from inside
initials?
>>34314365>he's the one that wanted to break up with meoh, thought you maybe were my ex judging by the drawing style and what you said about your parents and brother, but she was the one ran away from me and lied then most likely regretted it later
>>34314365In case my ID has changed I'm: >>34311437I can understand that, I wasn't necessarily thinking of that kind of connection. But just some human company that's not judgmental or abusive and talking to someone about the things you're going trough, maybe you'd feel the tiniest bit better. Idk. I'll offer my company, you decide if you want it or not. I don't mind either way, I get along with anyone and I enjoy talking with basically anyone. Especially if they're in a bad spot in life, because I've known that all too well myself.
hey anonette ill also lend an ear if you needyour a beautiful writer, i could feel your anguish so hard it made my stomach drop. im so sorry your going through thisjust lmk. im here and will be for awhile
>>34314365Post a discord and be my wife problem solved no more sad
Wish we could talk. I want to relate with someone about this
I fucking lost it reading through this thread. The sheer pathetic desperation in those words had me rolling.>i am going to fucking die here crying screaming covered in scars while you are living your life barely unable to recall the sound of my voice.Lmao, dude, you're probably just a low IQ porn addict. Thank fuck that girl had the sense to ditch you for someone who actually has a shred of a life. What have you been doing since then? Sitting on 4chan, jerking off to loli porn, and crying your eyes out? Fucking kill yourself already, man. It's not going to get any better, and honestly, none of us give a shit about your faggy fucking diary. Grow the fuck up, get outside, and learn to socialize, you fucking loser. Someone should have shot you in the neck instead of Kirk. My god, you're an insufferable piece of shit.
>>34321286op is a foid
