Fumbled a crush I've had for a few years, she was prefect. Tall, strong, downright amazonian personality. Then I flubbed up and spilled spaghetti and now I'm no better to her than a simp who just wanted sex. How do I recover from this? I don't think I'm ever gonna meet another girl like her again. Should I just kill myself?
>>34387312(Dw I made sure the next thread to be replaced with this was one of equal uselessness) I may be retarded but I try to be considerate
>>34387312yeah, do it
i believe in you brother, just believe in yourself and keep trying!
>>34387312at least elaborate on how you fucked it up
>Fumbled a crush I've had for a few yearshere is your problem. a crush isn't meant to last long at all. you're supposed to find out rather quickly because you are getting crushed by the weight of the not knowing. if you aren't at the point where you can walk up to a lady and lay it all down then you're going to stay single forever
Without further context, >>34387723 has the most agreeable opinion here.You could also be an enormous retard. Elaborate in how you fucked this up, anon.
>>34387312yeah i fumbled my dream girl as wellshit sucks even like 4 months later
>>34387710>>34387742y'all are right; it's a really stupid and cringy story but here goes:(Preamble for a bit of context: This April I confessed that I had a crush on this girl. She said she was flattered, but wanted to just be friends first cuz she didn't like the idea of jumping into a relationship out of the blue. Made sense to me at the time, especially cuz we only knew each other online. Ever since then we texted a few times a month, sharing pics and such. I never got close enough to consider her a friend, just an acquaintance at best.)Recently, my crush started streaming on twitch after amassing a small following on Twitter that documented her craft projects and conventions. I began watching her, and was an active chatter. (There were enough other chatters that it wasn't awkward or simp-y at the time). Recently, she decided to play Halo CE, and I didn't realize until the final mission that she was playing with music off. Just SFX and voices. Now, I understand that there is no one right way to play a game, and I was willing to forgive and forget, but the thing is she played the most famous part of the game, the Maw's Warthog Run, without music on. After the stream wrapped up, I went into our DMs and wrote a stupid spiel about how much the music in the final section elevates the game urging her to at least watch someone replay that part of the mission with music on and so on and so forth.Immediately after sending it, I regretted writing the whole thing. It was stupid and autistic and basically "um acktchyually"d my own crush. She sent back an emoji and "I'll listen to it". I needed outside help to decipher what the emoji meant, but essentially boiled down to an awkward "what did I just read" reaction." In a moment of sheepishness, I decided to be extra retarded and vent about my regrets and feelings in a discord server- which I completely expected her to ignore, as she wasn't very active on it unless explicitly pinged. (cont.)
>>34389101Next day, I log in to Twitter and see a new post from her asking people to stop being parasocial and being all "woe is me" when she doesn't respond positively to something. Basically indirectly calling me out. I took the cue and unfollowed her, unfriended her, etc. just to force myself to accept that it's over and she sees me as a simp who only sees her as a goal and not a person, and I'm still processing that pursuing this crush is just a dead end. I failed.
>>34389106So there you have it, folks. the story of how I screwed up by overthinking, twice, and I don't think I'm ever gonna actually meet anyone like her again. (picrel is the emoji she sent btw)
Someone give my man some pussy! He needs it.
>>34389101you are retarded, maybe you will learn from this sad little experience
>>34387312>>>adv nigger
>>34389322Appreciate the sentiment, but not until marriage>>34389350That's the goal, anon... that's the goal...
>>34389115You need to go outside
>>34390263There is nothing worth doing outside. I have no job (thanks useless MS), no car, no money. I spend every day mindlessly begging filthy corpos for an income, cleaning and cooking for my family, and just trying not to give up hope for the future. Yes, I do work out, but building confidence isn't enough- I need something worth doing in my life, some*one* worth improving myself for. Ain't no amount of aimless wandering around this suburban heckscape gonna fix that.
>>34389101holy fucking shit man that hurt to read, genuinely the only way to fix your shit is to lower your autism levels. I seriously hope that you learned to not send people essays when they piss you off, also dont just fucking totally ghost someone out of nowhere, at least let her reject you or maybe she didnt mind it and youre just a retard.
>>34387312>Fumbled a crushthe only way to "fumble" a crush is to give up
>>34391178thing is, it didn't even piss me off; I just wanted to share with her the best experience of the best part of the game, and then I went and spilled spaghetti. Can't defend myself against the ghosting claim tho; I did pretty much cease communication with her and plan to continue until I can trust myself to see her as a normal person instead of a romantic interest.>>34391190I do give up tho; especially since the one thing I am mortified of in this case is being an incessant creep who ruins any remaining positivity I may have left with her.
