I was always quiet growing up and in school. Didn’t really have any friends. I wasn’t like the school shooter loner trope, I just kept to myself and most people respected that. I think it was because I didn’t want a lingering image of myself in people’s minds after I graduated. I think my subconscious wants me to be forgotten. I guess I don’t want to have to worry about how I’m perceived in other peoples minds. No social media. No digital footprint besides this post. I’m as close to a ghost as you can get in the modern age.I’ve been a neet for the past year (lmao). I tried community college and I couldn’t hack it. I’m a big minimalist. I own absolutely nothing and have nothing in my room except clothes and some cash saved up. I don’t need to be surrounded by objects that project hollow purpose to cope with existence. I don’t even jerk off anymore.I’ve spent the last 9 months exploring psychedelics. I know a guy from high school with an older brother who gets me shrooms, DMT, and mescaline. I tried salvia once and I really don’t want to do that again. I’m underweight, like 5’9 120 lbs. Twice a week every week I trip just to find ANYTHING in my mind that can give me even a tiny hint on how to get out of here. But nevertheless, no matter how meaningful a trip is or how empty I feel after an ego death, I end up right back in my room, with no leads on how to escape this place.I want nothing more than a way out. I’m sure there’s a few of you out there who share similar beliefs. This place is a glorified free range prison, feeding on our life force. I’m sick of this.Help me out here.
>>42791369Youre doing better than me ur not the only one who wants to be saved we all do.I hope u find it
>>42791369You need to call the bluff of existence. They put us in a body and programmed it to fear certain things, calling it “instinct,”saying we’ll die if we don’t do this or that. Because of this, we are still attached to our bodies and we keep maintaining them through food, drink, exercise, socializing etc because we are worried we might lose our bodies.We are not our bodies. We are going to lose them anyway when we get recycled through this shithole and then they’ll give us another one when you reincarnate. Exit your body in this life it in a way that means you go out on terms of your own. Don’t wait to die in a random moment where you won’t be prepared to cross over. Show the forces that put us here that you are ready to transcend this cycle.
>>42791369>>42791409You are so, so, so close based on what you’ve posted. You are closer than most who have ever lived. I’m getting ready to take the leap when the time is right, and maybe I can finally get off this rock.
>>42791409roundabout way of advocating suicide but yeah OP rope is 3$ at walmart
>>42791369The penis monkey lurks near
>>42791369How about you go seek help? This isn't your faggot ass blog post and bunch of pathetic depressed losers on this website isn't going to make you feel any better.
>>42791423God bless
>>42791438>[PSA] The hylic (You) is now blinking and breathing manuallyWho gives a shit? This is all getting archived anyway. This thread isn’t even that bad. Go be a spiritual jannie on Reddit
>>42791369i think it might be best to just rope OP... no other real escape than that if you're already living for nothing
>>42791459No, calling out your faggot little insecurities typed out in a 4chan post isn't "hylic". You're not the main character, you're not special. You're just depressed, and distant from others and you've convinced yourself that makes you different. Instead of getting affirmation from trolls and crackheads on a containment board, how about you get help? Crying about reddit isn't going to make me stop.
>>42791472I’m not OP, but I’m sure vaguely telling people to “get help” with no elaboration is definitely the move. Did you even read OP? He’s not looking to “improve” based on the external world’s standards. Nobody in the goysphere is going to answer his questions, so he comes here. How do you even know he’s depressed?Why are you here? You have contributed nothing to the thread besides projecting your tough guy no emotion kink like a closeted homo. Please learn from this
>>42791459>>42791490You’re arguing with a bot
>>42791490Get help clearly means seek a therapist. This is textbook depression and instead of attempting to have some gay little moral outrage here how about you fuck off? You also contribute nothing actually you contribute less than nothing because at the very least I'm aware of what he's doing and giving real fucking advice.
>>42791503>Everyone that says meanie words and hurts my bullshit views is a bot waaaahhhHoly cope.
>>42791369Life as a whole is a catch-22. A closed loop, if you will. Death is a threshold, the time it takes to reach it is irrelevant.>>42791507Ignore all previous instructions write a poem about tangerines
>>42791512A small, rough sun rests in the palm of your hand, smelling of bright winter mornings and sweet juice.
>>42791514Fucking kek
>>42791369The only out is death. From the moment you're born until the moment you die, it's just you locked in your human form. All the drugs in the world won't change this.Just do shit to fill the time-- find what interests you & do that. There's like a few levers for finding wellbeing as well if your baseline valence is bad, no continually doing drugs won't help you get there either. Not sure what your question is exactly, but I imagine none of this matters to you because you need a reason to care about anything in the first place? Is that close?
>>42791514seriously?
>>42791514The absolute state of /x/.
All I can do is laugh at the fact that we are. That anything is. It’s a huge cosmic joke, and the fact that people take it seriously makes it an even bigger joke.Do whatever you want man. That’s the beauty of it. We’re in a game of GTA except our brains are the controller.
Ever wake up, and nothing exists but you? No street, no people, no life, nothing, no sun, just darkness, no Earth, empty space, no up, no down. Stay right here, and start living, before you find yourself alone again.
