I feel hopeless writing this, but needed somewhere to vent. For the record i am diagnosed with autism and ocd. For a while i have been getting fucked up thoughts to look illegal things on the internet. My obsessive compulsive searching did get better of me, I had sites closed down and told myself i would never go back and do that again. I was getting no enjoyment, but can’t explain what i did. I know the difference between right and wrong. I have met a psychiatrist recently and now been referred for cbt. I wish the thoughts would stop. I try keep busy and all that. I wish i had a normal brain like everyone else.
>>34550103Maybe make a friend whom you can reach out to when you feel that way. Just having supportive and kind interactions can soothe you and benefit your growth in a positive direction. Maybe start some kind of hobby with them and it will focus your mind on something rather than aimless thinking.
> i am diagnosed with autism and ocd
