I'm not really interested in sex anymore, and I don't feel deprived of love either. I view life as filled with love and if I'm really down bad I can just imagine a woman and they are far more therapeutic than actual women which are rather loud and chaotic. There is a con though, and that is that simply imagining things your whole life makes you uninterested in actually doing anything and I have goals I want to do in my life before I die. I'm still contemplating opening myself up, but it would basically be only to women either very artistically talented and/or women from countries I want to assimilate into. Is this a bad way to view things? There have been women in the past interested in me and even one currently so if I abandon this mindset I could get into a stable relationship, but it wouldn't feel right as it currently stands.
>>34550518I think you should find a very artistically talented woman and open up to her and try at a real relationship with her and not date other women just because they're interested in you
>>34550518Your imagination cannot marry you or give you children. Your imagination will betray you on your deathbed when your fantasies turn into nightmares and you are kicking and screaming, not from dear of death setting in, but from the agony of knowing you never lived a day in your entire life, because you whored your mind to fantasies and daydreams.
>>34550808I don't think I'll regret not having kids but I will regret not living this life to its fullest. Women can be a great spiritual boon but most of the time they feel like a trap. I want kids but ultimately kids have their own decisions and autonomy and simply wanting an extension of myself is rather selfish. I'd be a very laissez-faire parent which I have no clue how to be in the modern era unless I move out of the US which is where the bit about foreign women partially comes from.
>>34550518>I'm still contemplating opening myself up, but it would basically be only to women either very artistically talented and/or women from countries I want to assimilate into.Maybe you actually want that, or maybe you're adding arbitrary conditions to postpone it so you won't have to deal with what's in front of you.
>>34551165>Maybe you actually want that, or maybe you're adding arbitrary conditions to postpone it I'm scared of that. I mostly just want spiritual fulfillment and my work to go well because it's related to it. I'm in a weird spot where I have major issues with most mainstream religious institutions but believe in a higher power and that our consciousness can become in union with it. So if I pick these normal women who are mostly invested in making their parents happy I will essentially be giving up everything meaningful to me for comfort that will disappear once I die.
>>34551263Most monks aren't in relationships. It's not by accident, there are reasons for that.
>>34551278I don't wish to be a monk because I view trying to escape this world instead of embracing the memories/experiences it provides you is better. I wouldn't even be thinking about women if I did. It does feel like I have to move out and experience a type of living modernity has very much stigmatized and that's a turn off for even proper women.
I'll give it a bump just to see if I can get more feedback.
