>>34552973
You should ask her out on a date and talk to her like the normal human she is

Btw this is how i met her and the story how this started

I met this girl on social media because we both play the same arcade game. Turns out, she actually lives in my country. One day, I finally built up the courage to ask her out to an arcade I usually visit. The machines there are in great condition, and to my surprise, she agreed. Going into it, I kept my expectations low—I just thought, "If agreed then its great. If not, ok loh." Since she lived pretty far from the venue, I offered to pick her up, and she was good with it. Honestly, she looked pretty average (not that I'm some handsome guy myself).
After playing and met with my group, she asked if we could visit a certain place so she could grab something. Out of nowhere, her ex saw her walking with me. She immediately panicked and started running away. I was so confused. How could a coincidence like this even happen?
Not long after, i got call from work an urgent ticket needed to be solved, and if you work in tech, you know exactly how that goes. I told her I had to handle this “urgent” ticket but promised to text her as soon as I was done. While I was away dealing with work, her ex approached her. I don’t know what he said to her, but when I met back up with her, she looked like she had just been crying.

The drive back to her place was filled with an awkward silence. I asked her if she was okay. That’s when she completely broke down and spilled everything about her ex. She told me how he abused and cheated on her, and how she had even tried to commit suicide before. She tell me about her effort when walked through the rain just to see him, only for him to treat her like absolute trash. She used to cook for him because he never had money—mostly because her ex was buying OF stuff and other useless thing said her. She even claimed she wanted to kill herself after this encounter, though I doubted she'd actually do it.
I couldn't help but wonder why her ex treated her like that. I barely knew her, but i dont see why she was treated poorly by him. she was sobbing inside my just bought Honda City RS, which wasn't even a month old yet I also couldn't wrap my head around why a 29-year-old guy was dating a 20-year-old girl. I don't have much relationship experience, so I didn't know if that age gap was normal. I didn't want to play the "hero," so I just listened, kept my mouth shut, and gently reminded her that suicide is never the answer and that she’s still so young. After that, she opened up more about her life.
A few days later, I texted her to check in. She said she was feeling better. I invited her to hang out with my group of friends, and she happily agreed(not sure is that reaction genuine or not). But plans changed—my friends cancelled the hangout last minute. When I told her, she asked if the we can go to this other place instead because she wanted to check something out.
I picked her up, we chatted a bit in the car, but once we arrived, the awkwardness hit me hard. It was my first time out with a girl, just the two of us. I felt this intense pressure to break the silence, but my mind went totally blank. She ended up leading the way, walking damm fast, and I just followed behind her. Thankfully, she started a conversation, and I just went with the flow.

When it was time to take her home, I realized that if I didn't make a move, this might be the last time I’d ever see her. I'm a notoriously dry texter, so trying to build a connection over chat wasn't going to work. I was getting desperate to see her again. I offered to drive her to work the next morning. She declined at first, asking, "Won't that be a burden for you?" I told her it was fine since it was my day off, so she agreed. I then pushed it further, offering to be her personal driver. Again, she hesitated, not wanting to trouble me, but I insisted I had nothing better to do.
From then on, every time I picked her up or dropped her off, I’d invite her out for coffee. By the third day, she finally confronted me and asked why I was doing all of this. I froze and just said, "I don't know," until she practically forced a confession out of me.
I was literally kneeling in front of her—something completely out of character for me—and confessed that I liked her. She softly told me to get up, telling me she didn't want me kneeling. She asked since when and why I liked her. I told her it was because she has a kind heart.
Hearing that, she started revealing more of her flaws. She warned me that she wasn't the perfect girl I thought she was; she called herself "cringe," confessed she had major family issues, and said she suffers from frequent emotional breakdowns. I ignored all that thing and told her, "I mean it, and I'm serious about you. None of us are perfect; we're only human."

She told me she wasn't looking for a relationship right now. She specified that she wasn't rejecting me, but she just wasn't in the right headspace. She added that when she is ready, she wants to skip dating, get engaged, get married, and find someone who can be a good father. I respected her boundaries, acknowledged her situation, and promised to take her seriously. She just smiled and said, "Let's see where fate takes us." She then ask me if i had any personal social account that i post my daily stuff,i dont have any of those i rarely update about myself on social media anyway.she thought i was going to explode on her after she tell me this( maybe because of her past trauma) but nah being harsh to a girl is not my thing.
Weeks later, I offered to drive her to work again. She seemed genuinely happy about it and even suggested we grab coffee afterward. It felt like a turning point; we were way more open with each other after the confession incident.
Later, after she finished her shift, she asked if we could go to a place where her friends had invited her. I agreed, wanted to see what kind of crowd she hung out with.

That was the moment I saw her true colors. It turns out she hangs out with the exact type of girls I absolutely hate. When she was with them, I was completely excluded from the conversation. I couldn't fit in at all. Most of her friends were fresh out of toxic breakups, just like her. As I stood there watching them, I started to seriously dislike her behavior. But my ego kept fighting back, telling me, "It’s fine, just be understanding of what she’s going through." Deep down, I wanted to trust that she was a good girl who just happened to be in the wrong friend circle.
Eventually, I shut down completely. went to my car, grabbed my Steam Deck, and just played games to block them all out and wearing my truthear nova,moondrop atami cable,and qudelix dac . I am not the type of guy who fits into that kind of drama.
When everyone finally left, I drove her home. I put on a fake smile, masking how incredibly disappointed and sad I actually felt. She apologized for barely talking to me during the hangout. I just smiled it off and said, "Nah, it's all good. It's normal to focus on your close friends anyway. Why are you apologizing? You did nothing wrong."
A few days later, I texted her my usual check-in. She replied saying she wasn't feeling well and might skip work, asking if I could just take her home instead. Shortly after, she texted again saying she wasn't going in at all.
It has been a month now. I haven't texted her since that day, and she hasn't reached out to me either. I’ve been burying myself in my work, and honestly... I just don't know what to do anymore.

Its a super long one,just want to say thank you whoever read all my nonsense XD

Feel free to judge/make fun of me lol

>>34552973
On one level, it's weird you are crying over some normie roastie you can't stand. But I guess I understand, you have a bad case of being in your 20's. It's normal to be anxious and reactive in your 20's.
It's probably not for everyone, I shouldn't project my experience onto you, but I dealt with that kind of weirdness and sensitivity by doing lots of psychedelics and getting into spirituality. Then eventually coming to conclusion that I don't fit in with people like that and I'm glad I don't.
Normies are seriously effed up, trying to fit in is overrrated, they are like metaphorically and possibly literally demon-possessed, and they go on these rollercoaster rides of drama over and over again, across generations, making the same predictable mistakes over and over again. Normies are free energy devices for loosh-slurping demons or something.
Meanwhile folks like us are on the sidelines like, wtf, how am I supposed to coexist and thrive in a social reality like this? And at the same time we feel a bit of that charismatic pull of that lifestyle.
Anyway, my advice: don't take it so seriously. Be more introspective about it, don't make it about her, meditate on your feelings. Think about what you want in your life, what kind of relationships you want. Find excitement in your life that doesn't involve normie bullshit. For me it was like, doing psychedelics and spiritual practices, combining that with artistic and intellectual interests, is so intense and exciting, that normie bullshit drama is pedestrian and dull in comparison.
I guess you have too much pent up energy. You need something loud and violent in your life, something that really gets your adrenaline pumping.

>>34552973
>how do women think?
Read women's novels and browse female internet forums, now you know how women think.

>>34552973
Sounds cheesy but true love comes from within.
I've found that being lonely is a billion times less painful than being trapped in a horrible relationship.
But anyway, you should try to find more friends who you have more in common with. Really put yourself out there, and you can get more traumatic interactions that drown out this one, heh. I mean, being isolated has made you overly sensitive, so go out and get used to reality. Don't overthink it. Get out of your head and do things with your body.

>>34553173
What are such forums?
You know...
For science.

>>34553091
>Eventually, I shut down completely. went to my car, grabbed my Steam Deck, and just played games to block them all out and wearing my truthear nova,moondrop atami cable,and qudelix dac .
Lmao
Anyway, it seems to me that she isn't that attracted to you. She views you as a nice guy but not the guy who fucks. Part of that is that you're probably too young and the other part is you need to go to the gym.

>>34552973
You're a sensitive intellectual empath, you absorbed too much negative normie energy at once and it got stuck, kek.
Forget her, you're too good for her. You are a King, focus on Kingly things instead of pleb things.
I prescribe listening to this song 3 times a day for 3 days in a row.
Good luck.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9Bt1WTBVNbE

>>34554492
crystal cafe is femcel 4chan
It's basically a 4chan site but women bitching and complaining about asshole men they got into relationships with

>>34553165
Not him but how do you get your psychadelics? I would have no idea how to find a dealer or anything.

>>34552973
>grab coffee every night
Why would you drink coffee at night?

pretty women dont think
they feel
its the privilige of attractive ppl

>>34552973
>How did a jerk like him get her, but I can’t?
Exactly bcs he was a jerk. Don't worry bud, she will look for you when she hits 30, that is, if she doesn't find any other simp slightly better than you.

>I’m tired of being alone.
You should learn to enjoy your own company and those of friends and forget about this, unless you want to be the kind of guy she settles when nobody wants to.

>>34552973
You're desperate, lonely, have low self worth and project it all on her.
Shes not gonan fix you, and your behaviour and way of thinking are incredibly unattractive, Beta incarnate.
Gte in the habit of talking to Girls, yes, plural. Be what you call "a jerk", aka a normal well adjusted guy with balls and a spine.
Btw, if shes crying to you about her ex at this stage without you even having hit it. Forget it. You are already her gay friend. Move on, find other women.

>>34552973
>Fortinet
omg I hate those fucking routers
they use them at my place of work
fucking blocks me from accessing porn

>>34553091
>I just don't know what to do anymore.
You need to get a reality check. She's not attracted to you, so every minute you spend fantasizing about a romantic relationship with her is wasted. You should cut all ties and move on immediately while keeping in mind that you don't need to become a woman's emotional sponge to ask her out.

>>34552973
Go pay for 30 hookers, after that you should be fairly immune to women and be able to hold a relationship.