Since my tweens I have had recurring trans thoughts. As a kid I remember saying I wanted to be a boy and being so embarrassed of some of the clothes my mum put me in I wouldn't go outside (though this could be because I am embarrassed of dressing up in general), but it didn't get serious until adolescence. I was incredibly misogynistic and self-hating, wincing internally when referred to with my name/pronouns, and starved so to not develop curves. Learned what trans stuff was and felt so good when pretending to be male online and being referred to stuff, but knew I'd never do it and shrug it off in my later teens. Since then I've tried to forget about it but the desire is still there, just buried. Sometimes I'll see something that'll make the thoughts take over completely for a little while, but there is always the urge underneath during 'normal' periods. I don't doubt I have autoandrophilia, but it is always accompanied by a deeper desire. I thought I had accepted myself as a tomboy, but I don't feel satisfied or even fully comfortable being a woman still and I feel like an imposter around other women.The problem is that I will never transition. I don't buy into a lot of trans stuff anyway, so I'm already being a hypocrite. My family would begrudingly support me if I did transition, but I don't think I can ever do it. I'm 5'1, babyfaced with soft features, I already look like a retarded child that nobody takes seriously, so becoming a poor imitation of a man would make that worse. I don't know how to come to terms with any of this. I don't even hate my body anymore and I desperately wanted to feel like a normal woman, but it doesn't feel right, nor does being a woman. I've drilled into myself that my sex should have no bearing on who I am but whether it's due to my fucked-up fetish or something else, I just can't do it. The only way out seems to be roping. Can I do anything to feel better?Question is better suited for /lgbt/ but they all seem mental.
>>34553149They are all mental. /lgbt/ is where mentally ill trannies post. My advice is to pump iron and get friggin ripped
>>34553149Trannies were a psyop used by jews to discredit western liberalism. They were forgotten about as soon as democrats were ousted from office.Disregard it entirely. You are not the opposite sex. Learn to live gracefully as your birth sex and do not fall for retarded hubris dreamt up by mentally ill men who seek to capture female beauty for themselves.
>>34553149There's no such thing as gender or gender identity, so you're likely suffering from something else while assuming that "feeling like an imposter" is a sign that your problem is gender related. It could easily just be lack of purpose or low self esteem in general. That's almost always how it goes for male to female trannies. They truly just want affection and social worth, but they interpret that as wanting to be a woman due to their own lack of introspection. I'd say keep digging and find the real root of those emotions, because "gender" absolutely cannot be it when you consider that "gender" isn't a real thing and wasn't even invented until like 50 years ago, nor has there even been a person born with the opposite sex's brain.
>>34553195>>34553207>>34553304Thanks. I have long since overcome my misogyny and self-hated so I think nowadays it comes down to pure aesthetic reasons, I am straight and attracted to men so for whatever reason my mind operates on troon logic of wanting to become the man and embody what I am attracted to myself.
>>34553149I don't have much advice, just wanna bounce off of your OP post and say that I genuinely don't understand gender dysphoria at all. Logically I can't fathom it at all. I'm a man and was born a man. I never think in my manhood, I never "feel" like a man. I don't think or feel anything about being a man, I just know that I am one same as how I know I got legs or arms. What I don't understand is how the gender dysphorics somehow expect gender to be a "feeling" or some shit. That's the retarded part I can't understand. Happiness is a feeling, anger is a feeling, sadness is a feeling. Why do some people think man is a feeling? Or woman is a feeling? Those ain't emotions. It's like saying there is a dog emotion or a chair emotion or a bicycle emotion. Makes no fucking sense
>>34553364It's entirely based on conformity to labels and stereotypes.>I don't like beer and sportsball and I'm not a stoic but I like fashion and cry at romance movies>Therefore I must actually be a woman
>>34553364I get it. When I was younger a lot of it stemmed from a fear of sexualisation and being viewed as lesser, dirty or a whore, and I thought that because male was the 'default' sex I would be able to escape this and be viewed as a normal person if I tried to imitate one, along with my personality aligning more with typical masculine traits. I've grown out of that way of thinking, so nowadays while I am fine with being female and my looks, my preference of male aesthetics and behaviour (due to being attracted to them) makes me think 'I feel okay with my look now but I think I'd like myself more and feel more confident if I looked like what I am attracted to'. I know it's delusional, I've accepted that I won't ever lose this way of thinking.
>>34553551It will fade in time, as long as you keep rebuking those thoughts and minifying them rather than magnifying them. If it helps, consider how many women also think that breast implants will give them confidence, or how many men think that being a few inches taller would give them self-esteem. In reality, even when those people get the changes they hope for, there's no positive change. Self-esteem has to come from the self, and a true notion of self has nothing to do with a person's body. The body is just how others perceive you, so any esteem that comes from it could only ever be called social-esteem.
>>34553551>When I was younger a lot of it stemmed from a fear of sexualisation and being viewed as lesser, dirty or a whore, and I thought that because male was the 'default' sex I would be able to escape this and be viewed as a normal person if I tried to imitate one.Then you'll do yourself bo favours being on this website. All you will encounter are people who reinforce negative perceptions on women. This website is for male BPDs and frustrated autists who hate women because they couldn't get their dick wet in their teens. I think that you were probably around some shitty people in your past who made you feel like being a female was a bad thing. And given the fact you wanted to be a man, I am going to assume that it wasn't men who made you feel this way, probably other women. God knows the biggest misogynists on this planet are actually other women.
