I feel hopeless writing this, but needed somewhere to vent. For the record i am diagnosed with autism and ocd. For a while i have been getting fucked up thoughts to look and download illegal things on the internet. My obsessive compulsive searching did get better of me, I had sites closed down and told myself i would never go back and do that again. I was getting no enjoyment, but can’t explain what i did.I know the difference between right and wrong. I have met a psychiatrist recently and now been referred for cbt. I wish the thoughts would stop. I try keep busy and all that. I wish i had a normal brain like everyone else.
>>34559872EVERYONE has occasional don't-like-that-I-have-them thoughts. That's normal, as long as you reject them after having them
>>34559872Define illegal for your stupid bait thread
>>34559872You aren't your thoughts, you are how you react to them.>My obsessive compulsive searching did get better of meMy most sincere advice is that if you want to move away from this stuff, seriously, put as many blockades between you and this kind of content so you can let second thoughts appear while you are trying to remove the blockades.Changing your DNS to one that blocks that kind of stuff generally works great, and you don't change it on one place, you set the DNS on your router, on your phone/computer AND on your browser, works great with all kinds of content you want to avoid, some nice DNS to avoid sketchy bad content in general are:https://doh.cleanbrowsing.org/doh/family-filter/https://doh.cleanbrowsing.org/doh/adult-filter/Or from cloudfare:1.1.1.3and1.0.0.3At the minimum, this will make you consume less of this content, which is a big step.
>>34559872can you stop posting this already ffs
>>34559872>For a while i have been getting fucked up thoughts to look and download illegal things on the internet. My obsessive compulsive searching did get better of me, I had sites closed down and told myself i would never go back and do that again.The best solution is a program that records all the sites you visit and emails it to another person you are accountable to. Covenant Eyes does this but it does cost money.
