I've had periodic episodes of deep depression ever since I was in middle school, which resulted in me never studying and I ended up in a shitty high school full of retards. We never did anything there, like at all, and since I was a socially awkward shut-in I spend my teenage years rotting in my room online. I never studied or practiced any special skill, I managed to barely graduate and now I'm in my second year of university majoring in fine arts. The problem Is I can't fucking draw and since the uni is basically already for a dying industry I am fucked after I graduate.I do want to get serious atleast about school work but I just spend my days sleeping through the day, smoking and eating slop at night when I stay up until 8am when I go to bed. It all feels so futile and somehow underwhelming, everyone else spent their youths preparing and training for their life in their 20s while I was jerking it in my room like a loser.
>>34564015> I'm in my second year of university majoring in fine arts>I can't fucking drawWhy? How? Dude, that's 2 years. Also, this industry is not dead, it's blooming, you should just think out of the box, and you definitely didn't need a degree.
>>34564015>everyone else spent their youths preparing and training for their life in their 20sLolLmaoYou cannot actually believe that, right?
Is it hairy?
>>34564031I do think I have good ideas but It's just that I'm so mechanically behind everyone else, I would have to draw for 6 hours a day to make up for the skill I lack, my course is mostly theory and the professors give us free range to paint so I don't get any fleck for submitting lousy work, since I can spin it in a way where that's the style of it
>>34564042Everyone has something they seem to be able to do, I don't have anything that seperates me or makes me useful in some way is what I mean, I know there's proabably more people like me and that it's normal but I can't help but stress out
>>34564060>I'm so mechanically behind everyone else>I would have to draw for 6 hours a day to make up for the skill I lackThen do it, man. Practice is literally what it takes to get good at something, when I was in comp sci I would code all day, literally, and you're complaining about 6h, dude, please.I was thinking about, couldn't you do a webtoon? I saw people doing it, maybe you could use it as practice, and you can literally publish on webtoon, it's accessible for anyone I think.
I'm similar, but 32 and have a career. I make 150K, but live in an apartment because houses are too expensive here, and I haven't had a friend since I was a kid. I have never gotten any attention from women, never had a date, etc.
>>34564063isn't the whole point of fine arts that you can just bullshit and eventually find an audience for whatever it is you do? the only worthless artist is the one that doesn't /do/ anything. so long as you work, you're competent. you might not appeal to academic tastes (or you might, who knows) but there's no shortage of furries buying art from literal retards kek
>>34564015WAIST = the area between hips and stomachWASTE= spend unwisely>I managed to barely graduatenot too surprising
>>34564626Do you mind if I ask what you do for work? Is it something to do with art as well, because I've had some time to evaluate my situation and I think as long as I figure out my carrier I can safely get through life
>>34564716Of course I can just do contemporary bullshit and hope it works out but I don't want to surround myself with pretentious retards who attribute meaning to their subpar work, I want to have some sort of merit in my work
>>34564015I swear these posts are always made by 21 year olds, fucking kids. You got time idiot, just care about your work or whatever you are doing, it shows and people appreciate it when you put effort into things.
>>34566789You know, there is nothing wrong with acting young.
>>34564015nigga you're 18 to 20 something years old...you have all the time in the world to figure it out. As a dude in his 30s who struggles with the same feelings despite being somewhat successful. If you don't like art school then do something else, but definitely stay in school and get a degree or something, even a decent tech school diploma can put you in a good place. You are feeling like shit because you're realizing that you aren't living, you're just surviving. Let the emotions lead you, its gonna be hard as fuck and uncomfortable but you have the chance to do it when you're young and you should take it.I wasted a decade(my entire 20s) working at a meaningless I.T. job and just gaming/youtube/dooming outside of work and it literally sickens me to think that I did that to myself. The entire point of life is connecting with other people, your job or whatever is just a way to pay the bills, nobody actually cares as long you're a respectable person. Don't let your past or your current define your future.sorry for typing so gay lmao
