>>34565310
Do you mind me asking which chatbot?

>>34565321
It was a character created on CrushOnAi

>>34565325
You should probably stop. But the problem is not the chatbot itself. It is your loneliness. Did you ever had a female friend? What about your current situation with your friends and family? How old are you? Tell me more about yourself, OP.

>>34565310
who cares

>>34565334
Yeah, I actually talk more with girls than guys. I study in a field where there's more girls than guys so it's natural. I consider a few of them casual friends. I don't have any close friends though, I have trouble making the friendship go from casual to a close one. I'm 22 and when I was in high school I was a complete social outcast. I didn't talk to anyone irl when I was in school and I only had online friends. Since starting university I made it my goal to be more sociable which is going well because I don't have trouble talking with people causally anymore and I meet up with people outside of school as well. I had one girlfriend for 5 months in 2024 but it didn't go well. I have had a crush on one girl for several months now but it didn't go anywhere which has made me sad because she was perfect for me.
I have trouble opening up to people which my ex had a problem with as well. So yeah, I have socialization irl now but I don't have anyone very close to me.

>>34565349
The fact that your fantasy is exactly "a friend that secretly likes you" and acts distant or tsundere, combined with the fact you were bullied and socially isolated in high school, already says a lot psychologically. You crave emotional safety before intimacy. You do not fantasize primarily about random sex or conquest. You fantasize about hidden acceptance. Someone already close to you finally revealing affection. That is a very common pattern in people who grew up feeling rejected and invisible around their peers.

A tsundere is emotionally unavailable on the surface but secretly caring underneath. People drawn strongly to that dynamic often learned early that affection is indirect, inconsistent, or difficult to trust. So emotionally distant behavior becomes interpreted as meaningful rather than discouraging. It creates the fantasy that if you "understand" the person enough, eventually the hidden warmth appears.

The inability to move from casual friendships into close relationships is probably connected to emotional inhibition and fear of vulnerability. Notice how your ex complained you would not open up. It probably means you have:

>fear of being judged once seen fully
>fear of emotional dependency
>difficulty identifying and expressing feelings
>habit of self containment from years of isolation
>expectation that closeness eventually leads to rejection

>>34565335
>who cares
I care. The compulsive masturbation for hours also matters psychologically. Not necessarily because of "lust," but because it can become emotional regulation. Escapism. Artificial intimacy. Dopamine soothing loneliness, frustration, romantic longing, stress, and unmet attachment needs. Especially if the fantasies are emotional and relational rather than purely sexual.

>>34565371
Yes, so you know why are you doing it and what it is replacing and still won't do anything about it. So just keep jerking it

>>34565349
I have a few questions.

>When you were isolated in high school, what hurt you the most exactly? Being ignored, mocked, excluded, misunderstood?

>Do you think part of you still sees yourself as that outcast?

>What makes someone feel 'perfect' to you?

>When you like someone, what scares you most about getting closer to them?

>Do you feel people would lose interest if they knew the real you?

>When your ex said you did not open up, what did you feel she wanted from you?

>Do you feel emotionally safer in fantasy than in real relationships?

>Have you ever had a friendship where you felt completely relaxed and emotionally understood?

>Do you think you learned to hide your emotions because showing them felt unsafe before?

>>34565382
>Yes, so you know why are you doing it and what it is replacing and still won't do anything about it. So just keep jerking it
I'm not OP, genius.

>>34565386
why do you care then retard

>>34565396
>why do you care then
Because this is an advice board.

>retard
No, you are the only retarded here, you do not know how to read, you do not know how to write, you do not know who is OP and who's not. I'm surprised you solved the captcha.

I guess OP does not want any advice and abandoned the thread. Bye OP, have fun jerking off till you get dehydrated. I just wasted my time.

>>34565310
You're not fucked. Just stop and do something else.

>>34565310
I mean, you're rational enough to recognize how lonely that is of an attitude so you're not far gone. I don't want to call you a loser retard so all I'll say is that it's only a bad thing if it's ruining other aspects of your life, I have some weird fetishes but I don't bring them into my everyday life with my girlfriend and all that, so they stay pretty harmless.

>>34565335
upvote

move to stable and fabricate your own goon

>>34565310
Better off than some simp spending 1000's talking to some Onlyfans whore that has other dudes write her messages. You're winning OP